20 Minutes later i was still sobbing and tears countinued to make its way down my cheeks which were cherry red from crying... i stood up and made my way back to my room...

i slowly laid down on my bed... tossing and turning around i was still unable to sleep , i wasnt crying anymore my eyes had dried right out almost like there was no more tears left in me... my mind was blank and just free of thoughts...

until something that happen earlier today popped into my mind.... my mind pictured the way his lips moved closer to mine... how i breathed his exhale and just about everything that happened between me and monnie was recreated within seconds in my mind...

"what if he had kissed me?"

"how would have that felt?"

"how would have that change things between us?"

"was he into me? or was he just desperate at the moment?"

... one after one questions made it way into my brain... i just couldnt sleep!!!

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i was still awake when my alarm went off at 6 in the morning... i slipped out of bed and into the bathroom... looking at myself into the mirror i regret being unable to sleep... i looked like a ship wreck...

dark circles , bad hair day, cracked lips and just about every girls nightmare was what i stood as...

i worked a bit more on my makeup just to make myself look presentable... my outfit defined lazy just as I was... I put on a cap to cover my messy hair and viola I was done for the day...

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i woke jess up and got him ready too.. to leave him at mrs. kindles house although i felt a bit awkward after yesterday... i still couldnt leave him home alone especially after yesterday... abt 16 mins later i was on my way to school after leaving jess at mrs.kindles house... i was a bit realived that i didnt see him but a little part of my heart yearned to catch a glimpse of his gorgeous face...

on my walk to school all i could think of how awkward it was going to be when we sit next to eachother in class.. i must be honest it was kinda exciting....

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into the class hallways something was weird... i was almost like the center of attraction... everyone stared at me... some giggled while others stared at me while gossiping...

was something wrong with me?... anything on my outfit?... i thought... i tried to ignore it but as i walked further into the hallways the laughing... gossiping and stares just got intense...

as i was a second away from stepping into class... marsha grabbed me by the arm and rushed me to the toilet... "what the heck marsha??" i exclaimed

"umm... we need to talk carmen" she said awkwardly staring everywhere eles but at me... "what is it marsha?" i said still not understanding the depth and seriousness of the issue going on...

"umm... you... monnies...ummm..... a rumor..." she said stattering like anything... "owwh!!! c'mon pls just tell me..." i said feeling the curiousity intensify within me....

"you and monnie made out yestersay.... and its like the talk of the school and casey is pissed with you... since you know casey and monnie were dating..." she said without breathing

"what???" i asked her still finding it hard to compel what she had said....

"yes!!! you and monnie made out yesterday!!!" she exclaimed once again...

" WTF!!! WHO TOLD YOU THAT .... THATS NOT TRUE.. HE DIDNT... WELL ALMOST YES!!!! BUT IT DIDNT HAPPEN!!! WTF?!?!?" i reacted like some maniac my heart hitting up against the wall of my chest!!!

she gave me a rtight hug as i stood confused as ever... when the bell rang...