I was really really shocked when Anu got out of my control..

Or hold..

Anu, I called her..

She went to the balcony..

I had no clue..

I went behind her after some time..

Ennachu Anu..

Onnum illa, Nee thoongu, she said..

Anu..

She was definitely not well..

Physically atleast..

I wanted to make sure that she atleast feel okay..

But..

She refused to respond affirmatively and sent me back..

I was clueless and went back to the bed..

I sat and thought about the events or incidents that happened over there few moments back..

Did I do anything wrongly?

No.. I didn't..

Did I talk anything wrongly?

No..I didn't..

Did she never want me to touch her?

But..

She was so expressive..

She had always been..

She was reacting so so good when I touched her..

Like she was really ready for the physical intimacy..

I just spelt her name and she went off..

What made her to turn off?

I didn't know..

I was waiting for her..

Just to make sure that she was fine..

She didn't..

When I went back to her, she was smoking..

Anu.. I called her again..

She turned towards me..

Her eyes were so red..

Her eyes were so moist..

Were they?

Really?

Or..

Or just my illusion?

She said, Poi thoongu.. Naan varen.. with a very very cold voice..

That coldness drove me back to the bed..

I was turning and tossing myself thinking about us and I had slept off because of the tiredness..

I was so tired mentally and physically..

I was completely exhausted..

I didn't know when she came and slept off..

The next two days were very silent..

We started our trip to Mauritius..

The next one week was actually fine..

Like, she was not showing any attitude when we were talking about the random stuffs..

The physical intimacy stuffs were not there..

I was not having enough courage to start it..

Atleast, I didn't have enough courage to talk about that to her..

About that night as well..

She was not exactly as what I thought about her..

She was different..

She had good taste to be very honest..

We walked around the city, explored the places and had fun times and came back home as friends..

She used to ask me the stuffs she wanted..

The issue actually started when we came back..

The gap between the wedding and the trip was filled with lunches and dinners so we had spent very less time at home..

Anu had no time to interact much with the family..

Me, who was already loathing in guilt and self-pity avoided talking to them..

So, post trip had everything..

Anu and myself had to interact with them..

Amma and anna, anni were happy with the fact that Anu atleast talked normally with me..

The home and the room were too small for her..

She couldn't put up with it..

She wasn't able to sleep in the night peacefully..

She had to wake up late which created a mini world war..

Amma, being so conservative, was totally against it..

She waited for a week and started complaining..

Anu, who was actually in a bad mood because of her headache spoke back..

We all know how curt her would be, right?

So, it became a fiasco followed by so many..

I completely lost the drive to go home or whatever..

I was happy with the shop..

Staying there became my habit..

Every night..

Damn every night had became a hell for me..

When I come home, Anu will have a list readily with all the complaints against the whole family..

The family will be having one..

I was completely tossed between them..

I was not ready to get occupied with such stuffs..

I was worrying why Anu was not ready to get into a family life when she could accept me as a husband..

She used to argue like, 'Nee sollu kathir.. Avanga kekkradhu sariya? Naan edhu senjalum kora solraanga.. Naan ellathaiyum maathikren dhana? Munnadi maadhiri irukenaa? Illaye.. Apram yen edhu senjalum avanga kora solraanga.. Naan enna kathir pannen.. Unga amma enna yen ipdi solraanga? Pin vaasal vazhiya vandhen nu solraanga Kathir.. Why? Don't I deserve a happy life? , She hugged me and cried..

I pacified her with a kiss on her forehead..

Amma was like, 'Avalukum namma vazhakkathukum sariya varaadhu da.. Edhuvume therila Kathir avaluku.. Purinjikra moola laam iruku.. Aana nee enna solradhu, naan enna kekkradhu nu irukaa da ava.. Veetla innum rendu per irukaanga.. Aduthu kannanukku oruthi varuvaa..

Naan epdi da maathi maathi paaka mudiyum.. Epdi ovvoruthar ta ovvoru maadhiri nadakka mudiyum?  Dhanam inga vandhadhulendhu 4 mani ku laam ezhundhu ella velaiyum paakra.. Ivala yaaru da apdilam iruka solraanga.. Meena kooda 5.30 ku kulichitu vandhudraa.. Iva enna 8 mani ku dhan endhirichu varaa porumaiya.. Adhuvum andha nighty la.. Idhellam inga vazhakkama? Neeye sollu..

Naan avala thitren, kora solren nu solraale.. Vandhu 1 maasam aachu..Edhachum onnu.. Onnu maathitu irukala ava? Ava paatuku pora, varaa.. Avanga amma pesraanga pola.. Pesattum..Neram kaalam laam illaya? Epodhum enna pechu andha phone la? Epovavadhu hall la vandhu ukkaruvaa.. Toing, toing nu andha phone kathum.. Adhula edho nondite irukaa.. Namma pesradhu edhum kaadhulaye vizhala.. Friends aam.. Yaaruku dhan da illa? Unakku illaya? Veetla mathavangalukku laam illaya? Enna da kathiru idhellam? Idhula nee un pondatti ah onnu sollitom nu varinju kattitu vara..Poda poi pozhappa paaru.. She scoffed..

While I was holding my head with my hands, sitting at the backyard, looking out the impossible ways to find a possible solution, Anni tapped me and gave me a cup of tea which was much much needed..

She told me the untold stories.. Anu was  talking to some guys it seems.. I thought of leaving it and taking it very nicely as I knew well that she had male friends..

But, she stopped me to think further saying that Anu was talking to them thru video calls which were definitely not in a proper way..

Oops.. There is no such thing called proper way.. I was not a conservative person.. I am not.. I can understand that she wants to be in a liberal relationship..

I knew..

I know..

But, being in a toxic relationship and staying at a place which is not worth your presence and doing such stuffs is acceptable whereas here in our case, I am accepting her.. See, Iam not a perfect human.. She is also not.. Nobody can be.. 

But, when the destiny brings two people of two different behaviors together, it does for a strong reason, isn't it?

I just smiled and left the place then..

I just opened her mobile that night once she dozed off with her fingerprint..

My conscience stopped me yet I went for it.. The chats were so erotic..  The pictures were being exchanged.. My heart was completely broken..

I just placed the mobile and went to sleep..

The next one week was very hard for me..

I couldn't talk to her properly..

I couldn't see her face..

I was feeling so heavy..

The heaviness pushed me to take a decision as soon as possible..

I thought again and again and took a decision which was a masterstroke and a massive blow..

-Will brew..

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