I just wanted to tell you something about something big that has been going on in my life rn. 

There is this book Alea Aquarius and it's being turned into a series. 

Now, it has always been my dream to become an actress (even it's just a childhood thing and it's super unrealistic) 

And when I saw my chance, I fucking TOOK IT! 

I applied, checked out the book and all that stuff. And for a moment i was like "Wow. This could really be it. You've never been closer to your dream than this"

And I was freaked out, like. I could become the person I always wanted to be. 

And today came the next e-mail. 

Yeah, sadly it didn't work out. 

But for a week I was thrilled and now I'm ready to try with other Casting applications! 

Yup. That was it. 

Random, I know, I'm sorry