Two pairs of feet are dangling down on the windowsill inside Soobin's room. Both males decided to stay in there after spending their time on the rooftop, which was supposed to be spent on their treatment. They got there a few minutes ago, just in time before Namjoon noticed that they ditched the gym just to go elsewhere.

Soobin could already imagine the amount of nagging he would get if Namjoon found out about his negligence.

But to be honest, Soobin thinks getting nagged because he was with Yeonjun on the rooftop in this place he managed to transform into a little hideout instead of being in the gym, is worth it.

And boy, that was the first time in a while he ever thought of something being worth it.

“I still don't get how you did that.” Soobin spoke, referring to the place Yeonjun showed him earlier. The scene replaying at the back of his head and causing a small smile to ghost over his lips but he fought it back.

Yeonjun, who was sitting across him and playing with the curtain turned his head to look at him. He shrugged and let a playful smile to paint his face as he fixed his oxygen tube.

“I told you a worker helped me.”

“That's another thing. You just got here yesterday and you already have someone doing things for you while I've been here for years and still on my own.”

That came out rather sad than he initially intended, in fact, he wasn't planning on making it sad at all. Soobin ignored it, although he wants to cringed at himself so bad, and hopes that Yeonjun didn't catch it.

“I can't help it. I'm too adorable to resist.”

Fortunately, it seems that the male didn't, or at least, decided to ignore it too. Whichever way, Soobin was glad it isn't brought up.

Yeonjun winked at Soobin as he let his feet fall down the floor and stood up. The latter just rolled his eyes at him and shifted his position, putting both his legs up and occupying Yeonjun's former space.

The said boy giggled at his reaction and walked around Soobin's room. Examining it and admiring the little worksheets hanging on the wall with different quotations written in calligraphy. He walked closer towards it and glides his hand over a particular one. Soobin just watching his every move in silence from his place.

"What is the point of being alive if you don't at least try to do something remarkable?" Yeonjun read the words and turned back to look at Soobin, a small smile on his lips.

"I didn't take you to be a John Green kind of guy."

"The fact that you know it's John Green states that you are a John Green kind of guy too." Retorted Soobin, already on his feet and striding towards where Yeonjun is. He wouldn't admit it out loud but the moment the other knew where the quote came from made him feel something inside he couldn't quite comprehend.

What he does know however, is that it's something good.

And something good isn't what he needs right now.

His thoughts were then cut off when the latter speaks again, "Is he your favourite writer?"

Soobin stares at him and noticed the pure interests and curiousity behind Yeonjun's eyes, and the feeling inside just began to grow to his disliking, causing him to shift his vision somewhere else.

Whatever it was, he has to stop it before it blooms and cause damage.

Damage. He has enough of it.

"I like his works, so I guess he is. Why? Is he your favourite too?"

Soobin couldn't help but watch as Yeonjun gave him a bittersweet grin. The one which speaks of something but someone would fail to understand.

But Soobin did, oh how he wishes he didn't, because understanding means he feels something and he doesn't want to feel anything.

Not anymore.

"I read his works but I don't like how they end. It's either one character dies or they wouldn't end up together or both— makes me feel like I'm in their situation except the part where they have someone because clearly, I don't."

"And what if you do? Would you be willing to play a role?" Soobin didn't know why he asked that.

Yeonjun shrugs as he started to walk backwards towards the door, not letting go of his eye contact with Soobin. "I don't know. I don't really feel like falling in love when I know it wouldn't last or at least, I wouldn't last. Don't you think that's painful?"