Hello you guys know me as Keren or GalaxyLovesWritting on Wattpad. This is kind of a vent chapter so sorry if this is not what you are expecting. This is going to touch on topics like depression and suicide so if you don't like those thing skip this chapter, this is not about the story at all so , if you guys don't want to hear this story. Leave. Anyway, let's begin. When I was little I never had these thoughts, so how did I get them? It was recently, I started thinking that I am not the child my mom deserved or something like that. I kept that for years and years,I used to cry myself to sleep silently. If my mom ever asked,I would lie saying that it was something in my eye. And then one day I wanted to cut, I wanted my pain gone forever. I wanted to feel physical pain. I never did cut because when I got close I started to crying. (I was alone at home) 
One say I found out I was bisexual, and wanted to tell my parents really badly but I thought they would not accept me. Then one day made my theory true. I lied in bed and I was going to tell parents then and there. This  was the conversation:
Mom, Can cristians be bisexual?
No, Keren they can not that is a sin.
Don't tell me your one of them!
No mom I am not I asked for a friend (notice the lie)
Who's that friend?
Genevieve (or GenRose1123 )
I want you to stay away from her

I almost screamed at her from how angry I was. The next day I felt like breaking down into pieces. I cried when I got home because I couldn't hold it anymore. I wanted to prove her wrong and all of that. I felt like jumpimg off a bridge and I still do feel like jumping off a bridge.
I can't take it anymore
  Bye....