Dear Jamie,

I don't know what to say here. I have crying since the morning, wanting to wake up again and finding that it was all just a bad dream. Yes, just like 'The Bad Dream' that you wanted to read but I deleted it, I want to delete this too but I guess I can't. I can not run away from reality anymore.

Well, anyway, I am not here to complain [I'll try not to anyway]. I know you cannot read this, but, I hope you accept this (kinda like a -)tribute? for yourself.

I first started talking to you 9 months ago, [9 months, hilarious right?] May 2015, I guess... and what was it? Just me randomly messaging you about how cool your writing is! I will always remember how amazed I was with your 'Forever'. After that, I found out how badly you're obsessed with SasuSaku. Yes, I am too and thanks to that, we had something common to talk about :) But wait, that is not what we talked about the first time, it was how we were both 17-18 and act 4. I asked you how old are you [because I was curious at what age can I write like that] and you said 4; I was 2. I almost believed you!

And that escalated quickly, because we went from ages to:

And then you praised me for 'Euphoria'. You dunno how happy I was at that time. We talked my books- your books- my books-  SasuSaku- Vocaloid- Creepy Pasta! I fuckin' didn.t know that something like that existed in this world.

My favorite is Hatsune!

Mine is Gumi xD

And then you tell me, "I think I have read your stories before".

And I was like, wha---?

"Yeah, I was a silent reader."

I was too. A silent reader. I hope you are reading this. Silently.

We secretly badmouthed [well.. not really badmouth but complain] the Watty winner in Naruto category. I was so happy to finally find someone who agreed with me.

And we praised MadameAndiSenpai for Mori no Ko  :)

And then you go and praise me for my covers! Thankyou, Thanks a lot!  Thankyou for checking out my DeviantArt account and commenting about each and every drawing I have there. I remember you told me that you are thinking of creating a dA account, I wish you would have.

Oh, and how you messaged me each time I changed my profile pic, "You changed your profile pic." xD I guess, you were always the first person to notice it. And that was the time we went carzy, me after Yatoand you after Rin Matsuoka! I remember you even changed your username after him! But well,

And then we were back to Earthquake! Yea, I know, I experience a lot of earthquakes.

And then a few days later, randomly and out of no where, you became Jayyy chii and I became Kaii chan :)

And going crazy doesn't hurt much, right? You surprised me with this one single attack :)

Sometimes, a li'l bit of scolding as well! Bre2k9

You always surprised me on my own message board. When I expected nothing, there will be a single notification, always :D

And then I saw your Icon with a changed username again. I remember myself scolding you for not telling me the change. You went from JamieMatsuoka to Jai-chi :D Something I came up with, just that I had a 'Y' in place of 'i'. Jayyyy chii instead of jaii-chii, but I accepted the change xD And your icon!! I so freaking loved it. I also told you to make one for me but you never did :( Then you praised me then I praised you and this went on and on. I wish this could go on forever...

And you gave me your account and password so that I could manage it for a while, when you couldn't. I was happy that you trusted me.

You kept telling me how beautiful I looked, but I swear, you are beautiful too. Just like an angel.

 I regret that recently I haven't been active on wattpad. I loved talking to you and the others. I hope you know that you were one of the best wattpad friends I have. Happy Birthday in advance Jamie. You will be missed. I love you. Rest in Peace.

❤