It was another dinner at the farm house. Jordan was busy helping Jon with all the repairs around the farm, which was fine with me. It gave me a chance to think a little about what I want and where do I want to go from here. Ali was right about one thing. I was just let go out of a marriage. I didn't want to end things. I wanted to fix it. My ex wanted out and probably always wanted out. Between delaying adoptions and then having an affair we're signs of him wanting to get out. He did, without looking back.

I on the other hand is still licking wounds. And I hope Jordan isn't a rendezvous to get by. I do care about Jordan's Dan he makes me feel wonderful as a person and a women, but is it enough? He said we would continue on after here, but when our lives and schedules set in motion, we will really have time for each other?

I didn't know if I wanted to continue in this tangle of list and heat. Don't get me wrong, it's been fantastic and I've been spoiled by his smile, his touch and his kisses. But is it enough?

"Hey. What are you up too." I heard Ali.

I snapped back into reality as she and I walked through the dusky evening.

"Nothing." I muttered.

"Wow it doesn't sound like nothing." Ali stops me from walking, "what happen. You can tell me."

"Jordan and I are close to...you know" I started.

Ali smiled a goofy smile, "almost? You should have already sang to the goddess by now."

I laugh, "stop it." I had to take a deep breath as I was about to admit to something so embarrassing, "I'm scared to do it." I said shyly looking at our feet walking.

"Oh my God, Sandra, don't be." Ali began, "do t listen to anything I said earlier today. That's my jealous side rearing it's unglued head. You and Jordan have something really special too."

"Do we?" I challenged, " I mean, it looks good now but what's going to happy when we leave this paradise?"

Ali looks at me with sympathetic eyes, "that's the beauty of our lives. Stories that haven't been told. You have to live it to know where it's going; good and bad."

I smiled at Ali, "when did you become a relationship advisor?"

"Apparently today."

We both laugh.

"Sandra, no one knows what relationships we will go through. In fact it would be boring if we could predict who or what relationships we would have. We would make up our minds before we explore them. Then what? It's better to be in love and loose it then to not have felt love at all."

I looked at Ali in shock of the wisdom coming out of her tonight.

Ali smiled, " or as I like to say, fuck them hard and figure out if they're worth another date."

We both laugh again.

" There's my Ali!"  I teased. But I know she's right. In other words, I'm thinking too much.

Once we composed ourselves we went into the farm house. We met up with Ali's aunt and uncle.

"Have you ladies seen Liz and Robert?"  Ali's aunt asked.

"They went on a date... alone." Ali piped up.

Ali's aunts eyes popped out, " what!?! What about their guests?" 

"Auntie you worry too much. Let the kids have a little fun tonight, alone. I'm sure the guests don't mind the couple-to-be is having alone time together." Ali smiled.

"You know dear. It's good for them and there are plenty of guests to mingle amping themselves." Ali's uncle added.

Ali's aunt smiled at the uncle, "ok. Well let's sit down." And both of them went into the dining area.

"Ali where do you want to sit?" I asked her.

Ali turned and looked at me with a smile, " I think we will be in different areas."  And with that she tilts her head up to indicate to me to look behind me.

I turned around and saw Jordan at the doorway with his mom and Jon. They were talking with a few guests but Jordan was looking around. He saw me and smiled the biggest smile I have seen.

"Hey," Jordan said when he managed to get to us, "sorry for not being around, but Jon had me working like a mule. Fuck if I ever get trapped in his claws of woodwork again."

Ali and I laughed.

"Well I gotta go. I'm meeting someone here." Ali said and looked at me, " have a wonderful evening you too."

I smile at Jordan shyly. I feel a bit embarrassed with my thoughts of questioning what we are doing.

"So I had an idea. I heard Robert was on a date with Liz and it got me thinking that we didn't have a first date since we met."

I looked at Jordan, and I thought...

where is he going with this?

Jordan's smile became wider, "follow me."

He held my hand and guided us out of the farm house. We walked the parch all the way to the back end. There was a picnic blanket on the porch with 2 glasses of wine and plater of tonight's dinner and a candle. Jordan even had a small speak softly playing instrumental music.

"Wow Jordan. This is wonderful". I complimented.

Jordan guided me to sit, then sat himself, "I missed you so much today. I could t wait to see you again. "  Jordan smiled. I couldn't help smile back to. He leaned into me and kissed my lips.

Jordan slowly pulled away with his eyes closed, " I missed though lips." He leaned in and kissed my neck several times adding words in between, "...and your lips, your neck, your eyes..."

"Jordan you're embarrassing me." I said feeling myself blush.

" Ok, ok. Dessert later. Let's enjoy this meal, but first." Jordan passed me a glass of wine then took his. He lifted his glass and looked at me, "A toast to this wonderful night. "

I smiled and lifted my glass, "and to Liz and Robert!"

"And to meeting you." Jordan said in a serious tone. He stared at me. I stared at him. Who could resist him. He was everything a girl needs in a guy. Handsome, funny, sexy, talented and hungry to see me. Maybe Ali's right. Fuck it.

"Jordan?" I said nervously.

"Yeah." Jordan answered after he swallowed his sip of wine.

"I want dessert first."  

Ahhhhh. Where's the fire extinguisher.... It's getting hot in here. I love how these two get each other. I wonder how far dessert will go. And I feel sorry for Sandra in her mixed emotions of her ex leaving her but I bet Jordan can help her forget him.

We'll have to find out 😊