WARNING: Mature contents ahead. Read at your own risk.

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CHAPTER 21.

EVERYTHING I'VE EVER wanted was always for the benefit of our family and organization. I couldn't remember when I wanted something for myself. I was raised to be someone like my father-fierce, heartless, ruthless, and no room for any emotion that can become my weakness.

But, at that moment, I wanted to be selfish. I wanted to do something for myself this time. I wanted to embrace this feeling just for now, and just be honest wtuh myself.

Mariin siyang napapikit, na para bang napugto na ang huling hibla ng pagtitimpi at pagpipigil niya. It made the sides of lips rise in both amusement and lust.

Napasinghap ako nang biglang humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa magkabilang bewang ko at sa isang iglap, nakahiga na ako sa kama habang nakaluhod siya sa ibabaw ko, at sobrang lapit ng mukha niya sa akin na nararamdaman ko ang pagtama ng mainit niyang hininga sa mukha ko.

My heartbeat started to double due to anticipation. I instantly wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer, and crashed my quivering lips on his.

I have kissed a lot of people in this lifetime. And even though this wasn't our first kiss, the way his lips molded with mine still gave me that same fluttery and dizzying feeling I felt back in the library. But, this time, his kiss was more aggressive, and passionate, and needy. As if my lips were the water for his thirst. As if my lips were the oasis he found in the middle of the desert.

Nagsalubong na ang mga kilay ko dahil sa bilis ng galaw niya, halos hindi na ako makahabol at makahinga. I wasn't wearing anything under my bathrobe, kaya sa isang hila niya lang sa tali, bumungad na agad sa kaniya ang kahubdan ko. The coldness of the room wrapped around my body, but it wasn't enough to kill the burning fire inside my body.

He stopped for a bit to explore my body with his stare, and it felt like his eyes had lasers because it felt hot and warm wherever his eyes would land.

He dipped again to reclaim my lips. And while he was busy kissing me, his hands sneaked on my boobs and I groaned when he started kneading them, as if it was the softest dough. Slowly at first, and gradually increased the speed.

I hissed in between his lips when he flicked my nipple with his finger. And when he pinched both of my peaks, I gasped, and he took it as a chance to sneak his tongue inside my mouth and kiss me deeper.

The sound that our crashing lips and tangling tongues made were making me feel more aroused. And each time that passed, I become more and more drunk not from the alchohol, but from this addicting feeling he's making me feel.

I've never felt this pleasured. I've had sex with other guys, but I've never felt this mind-blown, and he was only kissing me and massaging my chest right now, damn it!

Bumaba sa leeg ko ang mga halik niya, at papunta sa dibdib ko. I kept biting my lips everytime his hot mouth would cover my nipples, and the rough but wet feeling of his tongue playing with them.

His other hand went down to cup me down there, and when he got a feel of how wet I was, he looked up at me just to smirk, and said, "You're this wet for me, huh."

"It's just a phycological thing, because you're touching me, and I'm drunk," I said, my voice hoarse and raspy.

I instantly shut my eyes and a moan escaped my lips when I felt his finger pressing my sensitive nub. And when he flicked it, I convulsed.

Heat instantly filled my cheeks. For god's sake, Quincy, he's only starting and you already came!?

He chuckled. "Cute."

May sasabihin pa sana ako, pero umatras ang dila ko at nanuyo ang lalamunan ko kakasinghap nang mas binilisan niya ang paggalaw ng daliri niya ro'n. The release prolonged for a few seconds and it made me moan louder. And when he inserted a finger inside, I lost grip of my self control, and just kept moaning in sync with his finger going in and out of my core.

Namumuo na ulit ang kamunduhan sa puson ko, nang bigla siyang tumigil. I was about to curse at him, but he was quick to flip me and now, I'm facing the bed, on both knees.

"What the--" I gasped when I felt his hard thing poking my entrance. And, without even looking at it, I knew he's massive basing on its tip!

"I'm going in."

I let out a long moan when I felt his member slowly going inside me, and I shivered. Maybe because it has been a long time since I last had sex, or maybe he was just too big, pero medyo mahapdi at may kaunting kirot akong naramdaman. Even if I was wet enough, for him to slide in, it still hurt a bit.

He didn't move for a while, mukhang pinapakiramdaman niya rin ako. He slightly bent down, cupped my breasts, and started to massage it gently.

"Why aren't you moving?" inis kong tanong.

"Halatang masakit sa 'yo--"

I scoffed. "Anong tingin mo sa 'kin?! Just fucking move, damn it"

He chuckled and kissed my nape, before speaking, "As you wish."

Mariin akong napapikit nang nagsimula na siyang gumalaw. It was excruciatingly slow at first, slowly increasing the speed, until he was mercilessly slamming his member inside me, and I couldn't stop screaming and moaning his name.

"Fuck!" my grip on the bedsheet tightened. I felt another release slowly building up in my abdomen.

His grip on my waist also tightened. He bent down and started kissing my nape, and then down to my spine, as if he was tracing something on my back. And when his lips went to the side of my rib, I realized he was tracing my tattoo with his lips.

He groaned. "Shit! I'm cumming!"

I was, too, but I was too dizzy and my throat was dry from the continuous moaning and whimpering from his hard and fast thrust that I couldn't utter even a single coherent word.

His groans were in sync with my moans, and as I felt my release nearing, sinabayan ko na ang galaw niya para mas mapabilis. I was feeling impatient. He had to hold my waist tighter to keep me in place. I felt his shaft throb inside me. And with one last thrust, I felt his hot liquid squirting inside me. He didn't spill any single drop it, he poured it all inside me.

He, then, slowly pulled it out, as if he didn't want to but he has to. I felt the hot and sticky liquid trickling down my thigh as his member left me. I don't know if it's his, or mine, or it's ours both mixed.

He let out a sigh of satisfaction, before he laid down beside me. My arms and knees-no, my whole body-was shaking, and I instantly fell on the bed on my stomach due to exhaustion. We were both panting. Nang buksan ko ang mga mata ko, nasalubong ko ang kaniya na nakatitig sa akin na may emosyong ayaw kong pangalanan.

We did it three times... or maybe more, I couldn't remember anymore.

Kinabukasan, nagising na lang ako na masakit at nangangalay ang buong katawan, dagdag pa ang hangover.

Wala na siya noong nagising ako. Mga damit ko na lang din ang nasa sahig. Naihilamos ko na lang ang kamay sa mukha, bago ko dinampot ang bathrobe na nasa paanan ng kama. Nasa bulsa ng suot kong pang-ibaba kahapon ang cellphone ko, kaya dinampot ko rin ang cellphone ko nang nadaanan ko 'yon habang papunta akong bathroom.

I was about to go inside, nang makita ko ang missed calls at sandamakmak na messages mula ka Trisver.

From: Quack Doctor

Where are you?

From: Quack Doctor

I have gathered informations about Roa's friend.

From: Quack Doctor

Call me when you see this message.

Pinindot ko kaagad ang call button pagkatapos. A few rings, and he answered the phone.

"Where the fuck are you?" papalit niyang bungad.

I sighed. "Tell me about the information you've gathered."

"Umuwi ka muna." I could hear car honks from the background. He must be driving. "Where are you? Susunduin na lang kita."

Napabuga ako ng hangin. "Just tell me while you're on your way here." Lumakad na ako papasok ng bathroom.

"Okay," he surrendered. "About his friend, Kace Addameon Montero. They've been friends for over a decade now. And I also found out, that he's staying at Luciano's house."

Natigilan ako. "What?"

"And him being friends with his son, was the only way he could protect Luciano's heir at a close distance."

Nagsalubong ang mga kilay ko. "What do you mean?"

"Quincy, what I'm saying is... he's probably Roa's bodyguard, and he could be Luciano's spy--"

I heard a gun click from behind me, and a very familiar presence.

I sighed softly, and ended the call and placed my phone on top of the sink. With one swift move, I turned around and wrapped the bathrobe I was holding, around the person's arm and landed a kick on his chest, causing him to back a few steps due to the impact.

At hindi nga ako nagkakamali. It was that assassin again. His sharp eyes were staring at me, and I could see him smirking from behind that mask.

"Good to see you again." He fished out the knife from his pocket, and in one swift slide, he lounged the knife.

He ained for my neck again, but I was kick to dodge it. I slapped his face with the bathrobe to distract him and then I kicked his wrist, and the knife fell from his hand.

Pupulutin ko na sana 'yon, pero sa isang iglap ay tumama ang tuhod niya sa mukha ko. Natilapon ang katawan ko at napahiga ako sa sahig. With one stride, he was already in front of me and he was about to stab my chest, but I rolled away and got up.

He didn't pick up the knife he used earlier, he was now holding a new knife. It was bigger and longer than the first one.

Lumapit ulit siya sa akin. And with all the strength left in my body, I chopped his arm and kicked his head. Nang natumba siya, mabilis kong tinakbo ang kutsilyong iniwan niya at pinulot.

I smirked. "You're really persistent, huh. Tell your boss you won't be able to kill me. I'll kill him first!"

He didn't say anything and just ran towards me. We were dodging and plunging our knives at each other, aiming for the vital spots but we were both fast enough to dodge each other's attack.

I kicked his leg, causing him to kneel on one knee. Pero bumawi siya, sinaksak niya ang hita ko kaya napasigaw ako. I kicked him again on the head with my knee, dahilan para mapahilata siya. I kneeled on top of him and was about to stab his neck, but he was quick to dodge it kaya ang mask niya ang natamaan, may punit na.

He punched me on the gut, which made me freeze in pain for a while. He punched my face, at sa lakas no'n ay ako naman ay napahilata sa sahig.

Hindi pa ako nakakatayo, napasigaw ako nang bigla niya na namang binaon ang kutsilyo sa kabilang hita ko naman.

Shit! Damn it!

Umakto akong nawawalan na ng lakas. Hindi ako tumayo, gumapang ako papuntang pinto habang hinihingal. I heard his his footsteps nearing me. I groaned when he grabbed my hair and forced me to face him.

Kasabay ng pagharap ko sa kaniya, iwinasiwas ko kaagad ang kutsilyo at dumaan iyon sa mukha niya. Tuluyan nang natanggal ang mask niya. At kasabay ng pagbagsak ng mask niya, parang binuhusan na rin ako ng malamig na tubig.

Nabitawan ko ang kutsilyong hawak ko at napaawang ang mga labi ko. Pakiramdam ko ay gumuho ang mundo ko nang makita kung sino ang lalaking nakatayo sa hanapan ko ngayon.

Kace was staring coldly and ruthlessly at me, while blood was streaming down from the cut that I made on his cheek.

That same Kace Addameon who would always pester me, annoy me with his wide grin to the point his slant eyes would turn crescent. That same Kace Adammeon who brought me to his favorite places, and even made me laugh.

He was about to take advantage of the situation and stab me, but the door behind me opened and a silenced gun fired. Tumama ang bala sa kutsilyong hawak niya kaya nabitawan niya ito.

"Quincy!" I heard Trisver's voice.

Mabilis na nakatayo si Kace at tumakbo papuntang bintana dahil pinaulanan na siya ng bala ni Trisver. He jumped out of the window, and the shard of glasses from the window fell on the floor.

Hindi na nahabol ni Trisver si Kace, kaya tinapon na ni Trisver ang baril, at saka nag-aalalang napatingin sa akin. Pinulot niya ang bathrobe at mabilis siyang lumapit, at lumuhod sa harapan ko.

"Are you okay?!" Pinulupot niya kaagad sa katawan ko ang bathrobe. "You're bleeding! We should take you to a hospital!"

He scooped me up, and ran out of the room while throwing a lot of questions at me. But I was too shocked and hurt from what I just witnessed. The pain from from my thighs from his stabs was nothing compared to the pain of knowing the truth that... this whole time, the person that I decided to give my heart to, was the same person who has tried to end my life multiple times.