you smiled but this time

it was a true smile...

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~<~<~<~sans' pov.~>~>~>~

after y/n tapped the end call button i could see she was not very used to very much praise cause she was blushing, she mumbled about being in her room if you needed her and she climbed up the stairs passed my room and into her own, i was curious and followed her, little did i know that was a mistake, well, kind-of, she left a crack in her door and i peeked through i saw her with her knees up and her head between them i heard her say something that left me confused "geeze, i haven't had that much praise in, well, never"

"if only i could have saved sophie, then she wouldn't have to go through the crap i had to geeze, i wish everything would stop going downhill, but no can see you like this, you have to be strong" she ended scolding herself, i was heartbroken, it's life that things go downhill but she doesn't have to go through it alone,

 i mean, she's done something no one else has been able too, heck she saved my father who i thought was dead and gone forever, i was tempted to push open the door and stop her doubts, but, something held me back she continued

 "heh, stop y/n, your just being hard on yourself, you have no control over what happens but, you can only hope that things will get better, they have to be, and be more aware" she couldn't talk anymore and she cried softly so as not to disturb anyone and even if you were next to her door you couldn't hear it was only if you knew that something wasn't right about her sudden leave of the room, could you hear her crying 

i couldn't take it anymore i carefully eased the door open and crept up to her she didn't even noticed me, my permanent smile faltered and i picked her up while getting on her bed and held her close, being careful with her tail and wings, my skull turning slightly blue but i was just concerned about her it's kinda hard to not try to ease away any pain that pains the one you love 

~<~<~<~your pov.~>~>~>~

you felt someone pick you up and you instantly thought 'did they hear what i said?' you mentally kicked your self you should've kept it to yourself just in case, you heard the deep voice of sans and mentally sighed in relief, until, you heard what he said

 "y/n, it's life that things go downhill, but you don't have to go through it alone, you may not want that, but we're all here for you, ok?" you nodded and hugged sans and he hugged back you were still crying a little but he didn't seem to care, you knew that they did care about you but you didn't want to worry them 

sans petted your wings and tried to sooth you and it worked, but in this position you felt vulnerable but you also felt protected, and suddenly (a/n PINEAPPLES!!! it never gets old XD) you felt your heart melting away the hardened shell it had formed when your 'parents' started to hurt you and your siblings 

 but now you felt completely lost cause your true heart hasn't been shown in close to 8 years but you felt sans still there and he must've felt that you were lost because he wrapped you in his own magick much like you did when you were comforting your siblings 

and you were guided back to a path that you haven't traveled on in so long you looked into sans'  'eyes' and found he was already looking at you he smiled and said "you know, i think this is the real you," you blushed, bit your lip and silently nodded, sans smiled and hugged you tighter you responded in turn and you felt your cheeks heat up even more but you brushed it off and soon you got a hold of yourself and put a thin barrier around your heart so as to not make a huge change in your features and when you looked at sans again you saw a slight bit of disappointment in his 'eyes' 

~<~<~<~time skip because i have no idea how to continue XD~>~>~>~

it was close to night and you started to tuck the muskets in bed until chara asked "y/n can you sing us a song? please?" you smiled and said "do you really like my singing that much?" everyone nodded and you sighed and relented "fine, what song?"

 asriel raised his hand you nodded once "i recently found out about this song, do you know 'it's gonna be ok'?" you smiled, heck yes you knew that song, that song carried a wonderful message, you grabbed your guitar and started singing the words twisting them slightly so they would carry a soothing melody like a lullaby

https://youtu.be/PLyXMNK-zdY

(a/n this is the song but the version you sing is a little more calmer)

it's gonna be okay,

you finished the song and everyone was asleep you smiled fondly and put your guitar down and walked to your room passing pap's room on the way gaster came out and said "y/n?" you turned around at the sound of your name "yes, gaster?" you asked gaster smiled "you have a wonderful singing voice, just thought you'd know" 

you smiled sheepishly and replied "thank you," gaster walked toward you and placed his hands on your shoulders you looked up at him confused what is he gonna say? "y/n, you mean so much to so many people, me included, if it weren't for you i would have never been able to see my sons again, i haven't been around to tell you so i'm telling you right now you mean a lot to a lot of people, don't forget that, ok?" your heart almost broke the thin barrier from being so overwhelmed with emotions

 but you managed to hold on and planted a smile on your lips "i won't" you said gaster smiled back and went back into pap's room were he would be sleeping until the spring where the skele-bros. could build a new room once again, you just stood there, unsure what to do, you knew that people cared about you, but you couldn't wrap your head around it

cause before you met sans almost nobody cared about you all of sudden, boom. all of these people are generally saying they would go great lengths to make sure you were ok, you broke out of your thoughts and continued down the hallway and into your own room and went to sleep peacefully but your 'dreams' were not to be

~<~<~<~very bad night-terror/future(?)~>~>~>~

you were in your cowl form but you were different her wings were pure black and crow like and  her ears and tail were also pure black with a dark grey inside, her eyes were dark f/c rimmed with black, her hair was mangled as if she hadn't brushed it in a very long while and the magick that streamed out of her eye had pure black streaks through it, and was also rimmed with black much like her eyes, 

her skin was deathly pale and on her arms were brown braces with dulled gold cravings and dull green top, brown form fitting leggings and dark brown knee high leather boots, on her shoulders were dark green metal plates  around her torso she had a belt which had in the center an upward arrow which you realized was the viking symbol for warrior 

the dream you looked forward and you saw sans but he was sweating and his eye and hand was the same blue that you had seen that covered frisk, chara, and rose earlier that day but this blue was more bright and more on edge as if it was being used for something more then lifting up children, 

it also turned yellow in quick bursts, the dream you, however, had no signs of exhaustion, he spoke in his deep voice that you had fallen for "y/n, i don't want to hurt you, please, y/n, i know you're in there, please, come back to me" 

the dream you laughed and said in a voice that was not yours and yet was "i told you skeleton, my name's warrior, and about not hurting me, sorry but the feelings not mutual, i've got a order and i'm gonna follow it so if you wanna keep your jacket on, i suggest you move" sans had a pained expression on his face and slumped his shoulders "well, sorry but i made a promise i intend to keep, and you made me promise it, so i'm not gonna move"

 the background turned black and white and sans started to say something in a way as if he's done this many times before but also with sadness and regret "it's a beautiful day outside, birds are singing, humans and monsters are playing, but on days like these, people like you, don't deserve MERCY" 

he then threw bones at the dream you but she easily dodged them, a tune played but you didn't recognize it, but it sounded kind of like the tune that played when error fought ink,

a smile spread across her lips and you heard a voice say "i had hoped you would say that" you then suddenly knew those were your own thoughts or rather 'warrior's' own thoughts  your breathing quickened as the FIGHT wore on and after a little while sans was suddenly thrown out of the battle arena and stuck to the wall by some very dark looking owl claws no, not owl claws, CROW claws

 sans face was one of recognition and a small smile formed and he chuckled a little "i remember when you did this before, you thought i was, as you say it, DR. cain" the dream you took an unintentional step back at the name "how do you know him?" the dream you asked venomously the claws dispersed and the dream you walked toward him but was stopped by six small figures...

~<~<~<~end~>~>~>~  

you bolted upright and started to pant, slowly you started shaking until you couldn't control yourself you started sobbing and clutching your legs up to your chest and put your head in between them, your heart shattering the thin barrier and your true self showed through, your emotions written plain on your sobbing self, you just couldn't stop and the memory of that warrior throwing those crow claws just like you, 

that had given you a hint that it really was you in a different form of mind, that memory kept playing over and over again and you couldn't shake off the feeling that you were going to become that sickening thing with no sympathy at all for anyone or anything, and, for the second time that day, you felt someone pick you up and hug you, you couldn't care less who it was so you let go of your legs so you could twist your body so you could hug them back and you heard sans' deep voice now filled with concern and worry "y/n it's ok, shh, it's ok," 

you heard these words and tried to calm down but your form refusing to, you continued sobbing into sans' jacket while he rubbed your back and tried to sooth you, it was in vain, but that didn't stop him from trying, eventually your sobs died down to just crying, you were a sniffling mess but sans didn't care, he hugged you and soothed you until you and sans were just hugging for just the  reason of finding comfort in him, 

in which he gladly did, finally he asked "what was it about?" already knowing that it was a nightmare that had woken you and started your shaking and sobbing you released a shaky breath "i-i d-don't k-know sans, a-and i-i d-don't t-think i-i-i w-want t-to" you started to cry again but sans was there and calmed you down, 

he rubbed a tender spot in between your wings, that you knew wasn't there before, and your breathing smoothed out quite quickly, but with shaky exhales now and again he kept rubbing that spot, finding that it calmed you down quite a lot, and soon you started to feel drowsy you leaned onto sans chest and into his jacket, 

sans had one arm around the back of your wings and around your torso the other going around your right wing the hand rubbing the tender spot, your eyes started to droop and your own arms started to slacken and you, surprisingly, calmed down completely by sans singing one of the songs you often sung to the muskets, after a lot of begging.

it started out as a feeling which then grew into a hope 

which then turned into a quiet thought

which then turned into a quiet word  

and then that word grew louder and louder 'till it was a battle cry 

i'll come back when you call me no need to say goodbye

he's singing soothed you beyond compare his bass tone voice glided over the words in a way that can only be known as if he heard you singing this song more then once, you smiled and, to the sound of his voice, 

you dug your face deeper into his jacket and felt his hands and arms cradle you, making you feel safe and protected and when he finished the song he repeated a poem in which you barely heard since he whispered it

 "My delicate flower, My beautiful rose, the sweet smell of you Heaven has so perfectly chose, 

just the sight of you, brings a smile on my face and your gentle soul, fragile hands embrace, 

My flower, My rose, of the f/c-est of hues regal and mysterious and passion infused,

 in a place Heaven has set befitting your charm, your untamed essence, i'll keep from harm" 

he finished and you drifted off into a truly peaceful sleep, the last words you heard you could not grasp completely, but you thought you had heard

 "y/n, i love you, good night my angel" 

(a/n ok, first order of business, ik f/c-est is not a real word, you are to insert your fav. color in the 'f/c' part so like for example, purplest, or whitest, or blackest, etc. you get the idea, second order of business, finally! i added some lovey-dovey stuff! i know it took WAY too long and i thank you for being patient, third order of business... 

1.9K READS?!?!?!?!?!  x.x *dies of fangirling and shouting from agrian*

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P.p.p.s if you hadn't figured it out already, my fav. color is purple XD