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"We should reach the island today"
You told law . He nodded .
The sun was shining and seagulls were singing . You sighed and started walking to your room .
" Hey...law... im gonna change , so dont come in"
You said . He smirked and nodded .

Standing in front of your dresser , you picked a pair of long black skinny jeans with hot pink hearts printed on parts of it . Mostly on the thighs . And a long sleeved white shirt . You were thinking if you should wear your trademark hat and coat or not .

《What if I had to fight ? I dont want them to get damaged... then again since im a logia things will be ok right ?》
You thought to yourself as you heard a knock on the door .
" You can come in"
You said as you started to brush your hair .

"(Y.n)-ya the weather is getting colder . And its getting cloudy . Its gonna snow soon"
He said . You nodded as you had a troubled look .
" Is everything ok ?"
He asked . You sighed and turned around , facing him as he set on the couch . You were hesitant to talk .
" You can tell me . I dont care and dont judge"
He informed coldly . You sighed again.

" Theres a coat and a hat I have... they're like...trademark and they are my treasure . So I was thinking if I should wear them or not , since there might be fighting ahead... and I dont want them to receive any damage"
You said feeling much better . He chuckled .
" Well then just be careful so you wont ruin them , since you're so clumsy"
He said taking a deep breath with his hands behind his head and closed his eyes . You blushed and puffed your cheeks .

" Rude..."
You said and walked towards your secret room where all the things that were precious to you were . You opened the secret door and turned your head looking at him from your shoulder . He felt your glare and opened an eye . Looking un-amused.

"Tell anyone about this room or pull something funny and there wont be even bones left from you."
You told him sounding very serious . He chuckled .
" Scary...- dont worry . im not intrested in your hidden room"
He replied and closed his eye with his trademark smirk on his lips .
You closed the door behind you .

Looking at your coat you hugged it with watery eyes .
" daddy....I miss you..."
You sobbed silently in it . Changing your mind you just hugged the coat and then left the room .
" Hmph ? Changed your mind ?"
Law asked as he saw you coming out of the secret room the way you went in .
" Yeah...its better this way..."
You said looking down . He smiled lightly .

" I can hear the island . Were close"
You said wearing a black long coat with fluffy collar with your jolly roger printed on its tail in blue. And wore a matching blue scarf around your neck .
《That jolly roger....its so familiar. ..no it cant be its just a coincidence .》
Law thought and rubbed his temples as you prepared to drop anchor .

" (y.n)-ya once we get there I'll just find a boat and go to the star island so you wont have to change your course ."
He said . You giggled .
" Silly , in the end we will all end up in sabaody . So its nothing . I cant leave a devil fruit user in the ocean with a boat! Who do you think I am ? Satan ?"
You laughed .

He chuckled at your silliness and nodded . Walking to the front of your ship , you tripped and fell down on your face . Law smiled to himself remembering cora-san and how much you resemble him .

~•●time skip brought to you by sanji nosebleeding●•~

You reached the town after a long cold walk . You asked people how much till the log pose sets and all replied one week!
"So we'll be leaving in three days . Well I can handle that..."
You said . Law looked at you raising an eyebrow .

" they said one week till the log pose sets ."
" I know , three days that is..."
You said giggling . He was confused.
" A week is seven days"
" So what ? You think I dont know ?!?!"
" Then stop saying three days ."
He said annoyed .

" My log pose isnt a normal one . It will be set In three days . So stop looking so confused"
You replied giggling . He realized it and sighed .
" So meanwhile ,we do we you like . But keep a low profile . If we separate we will meet 3 days later , at the ship . Then we set sail ."
You explain and he listened .

" Okey then . See ya later . Im gonna check the library . We can meet up later somewhere . So long"
He said with a bored voice walking away waving for you with his nodachi on his shoulder . You reached your hand for him but then sighed and dropped your hand . looking at the snow below your feet you started walking around the town .

~☆law's POV☆~

I got to the library and started checking out the medical books .
《Maybe I should've asked if she wants to join me ? Eh , whatever . She would just make too much noise that they would kick us out .》
I thought and set on a table as I started reading .

~°○back to you (writers POV○°~

You walked around town aimlessly . You were feelong down . Not even felt like eating .
《Me , someone who's stomach is a bottomless pit , is not hungry at all...》
You thought and gave yourself a bitter smile and lot a cigarette . Walking a little more you saw a sakei shop .
Entering you bought five bottles of sakei .

" The worst case scenario is that I'll pass out while being out in the cold"
You told yourself walking out of the store . Checking out your surroundings . You decided you dont want to stay in town so you walked towards the white mysterious jungle .

After a long walk and drinking half a bottle , you set on the edge of a cliff , which surprisingly didn't had any snow on . (Set there like rosi was sitting on a cliff and drinking . You know when I mean . When he cried for law)

Drinking the rest of the bottle , you put the empty bottle next to you . You kept drinking , but slowly and with a sad mood . Breaking into tears you sobbed and cried your eyes out . A few hours passed and now you were drunk , still crying . You had finished your third bottle . Just sitting there , crying . You missed your parents and you felt alone and broken .
(Your alcohol tolerance was surprisingly good .)

~°○checking on law○°~

《Its been a few hours since I last saw her . I hope she listened to her own advice and stayed out of trouble . I need her to get to star island . I better go check around the town》
He thought getting up as he had read all the medical books in the library . Searching around town he couldn't find you . Giving up he went to a sakei shop and set there .

" Whats wrong young man-viya ?"
The old lady who was the owner of the shop asked .
" Im looking for someone but cant find her"
He replied rubbing his temples .
" Tell me how she looks like-viya , I might be able to help you-viya ."
The old lady replied .

" Shes (lets sat you're 170cm) tall and has (h.c) hair with (e.c) pre---tty eyes and was wearing a black coat with black pants and high heel black boots and a blue scarf ."
Law said not hoping much .
" Oh I know your girlfriend-viya . She came and bought 5 bottles of my best sakei-viya . And left-viya . You two had a fight ?"
She asked .

《That idiot ! Why does she needs 5 bottles of sakei ? Shes just....just... oh god help me》he thought.
A trace of blush was on laws face , both from anger and embarrassment.
" W-were not couples...do you know where she went ?"
" Oh but you look so good together-viya . You dont need to be embarrassed-viya . And I dont know I think she walked north-viya"
" Thanks old woman"
He said and rushed out of the shop .

Walking around aimlessly he found himself around the entrance to the jungle . Sighing he started to walk away . Until he noticed a shadow a little In the jungle . Walking to it his eyes winded as he picked up the blue scarf . Sighing he walked deeper into the jungle . Searching for you . After what seemed like forever he saw you sitting on a cliff with four empty bottles of sakei around you and a cat sitting next to you , leaning to your leg. He was about to walk to you when he heard you talking and crying . He hid behind a nearby tree listening .

~°○back to you○°~

A cat who was freezing had came to you . You warmed her up and she set next to you as you started playing with her foor .
" are you all alone too kitty ?"
-Meow...
" Heh well so am I...I was alone for a long time...h-half of my life perhaps? "
You said sobbing more . The cat licked your pinky finger .

" You know how painful lonliness can be ? When you know you dont have anyone . It hurts more than any wound or torture . You just wish to end everything ."
You said wiping your eyes as new tears filled them .
" All I ever wanted was to have someone . Just a friend , nothing much . I dont expect much . B-but this world is cruel ."
You said gripping your chest tightly .

" Mom.....dad.... I hope you two are doing well . As you can see your daughter became a good for nothing and is suffering in this world . I wish I could join you . So the pain would go away ."
You said drinking some more sakei staring at the cloudy sky .

" I never imagined a day where death would be a wish~"
You said and stood up .
" Whenever someone comes in my life they just use me and throw me away . Ignoring me and not considering what I want . But I cant help not being kind . Im just like you two . I miss you guys . Why did you had to leave me all alone ? Dad.... ill avenge you and carry your bloodline for you . Mom... I'll carry on your will , the will of the D. . BUT TAKING THIS WORLD ON ALL ALONE IS A DAMN DIFFICULT CHALLANGE~"
You shouted the last part , throwing your bottle to the ground as it shattered to pieces .

" daddy , remember how you always told me im a rude little girl.... well I took after you and mom . so dont expect much~ hehe~ . And I'm clumsy just like you... and I never get enough food like mom . I wish you were here"
You say crying hard and fall on your knees with your hands on the ground , the shattered glasses pierce your hands .

"I cant even feel pain...."
You whispered as blood ran down your wounds . You took a piece of glass and cut yourself , seeing if you feel . Staring expressionless as the red liquid ran down your skin

~•●lets check on law (his POV)●•~

(While you were talking to yourself)

《Shes suffering so much . How couldn't I realize it ? And I just became a pain like others . She must've lost her parents . Wait....she said D..... is she a D ?!?!?! Pf , that doesnt matter now... Oh god... oh god dont do it....dont hurt yourself. ..please dont...im here.... dont do it...no...I cant stand this anymore...》

~☆writers POV☆~

He ran to you hugging you from behind as you tried to cut a second time .
" Dont do it....youre not alone"
He said .
" Yes...I am... I was always alone"
You said looking down . He slowly grabbed the piece of glass in your hand and you let go of it . It had cut your palm since you had a tight grip on it .
Your eyes were heavy and your vision was blury . He pulled you in his lap with a sad and worried expression on his face . You took a glimpse at his face before everything went black .

He held you tight burying his face in your neck feeling sad and guilty as well as worried as your red blood was making a beautiful art on the white snow .

《Why....why do I care what happens to this troublemaker brat ? Why do I feel like I've known her for a long time ? Why does she resembles him ? Maybe I saved her cuz theyre alike.... no... thats not it...I dont know whats going on....》
Law thought as he carried you to your ship bridal style