An Autobiography ~

~ The Calm Before The Storm

Our story begins when I was young, maybe even too young; I was 11 at the time, laying on the couch on a sunny afternoon and I remember getting this excruciating pain in my pelvis/uterus and remembering, I didn't know what this meant. I came to realise I had gotten my first period. I don't know if I was too young or had I just hit puberty really early on. Overtime, all those questions faded after a while and the pain only came once a month and became my new best friend.

During high school, I missed a full term due to the pain occurring once a month and I got into trouble for becoming a, "lady" whenever I would leave school early to go home and cry the pain away. The office ladies would roll their eyes at me every time it was, "that time of the month" and not only some of the people around me were not believing me when I was young and some even now. Especially the doctors weren't believing me at friends and even when seeing random doctors they will still say, 'You don't have Endo.' But my GP believes me and has the evidence to show.

After high school, my life got drastically worse, if you can believe it or not. It feels like I'm still in high school, living through that nightmare over and over again.

~ Thin as Air

you're drowning in our own air
you're choking on our own dry breath
who knew, that was even possible
but anything is possible when pain controls your life
debilitating everything you do

CM 🎗