Ok! So Here comes last update of this year. I would like to wish you all in advance, a merry Christmas and a very happy new year. May this new year shower you all with abundance of joy and prosperity .

This is a bit lengthy chapter. I had to squeeze in lot of time to pen this down. Hope you like this part. I am sure by end it will have you smiling Happy Reading and like always do drop few words.

As per votes KW goes as Ajay.  I will be seeing you guys back in new year on Jan 10, though I will be dropping in between.Till then, loads of love and thanks for all the love given till date and for much more to come hopefully. Take care and do miss me.

Love

Lucky

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In other cases Sanskaar wouldn't have bothered to smack the head of the person who dared to hug his Swara, just before his eyes, that too a beary engulfing one, but Swara's timely intervention of taking his name ' Ajay'.. saved the scene from turning violent. The name 'Ajay' rang dim bells of memory in Sanskaar's mind . He knew this guy .. and he was bothered then too.

Ajay aur main Mumbai main itni masti karte the .. Ahh So this is guy, Swara's best buddy back in Mumbai. And he was never discussed again.By the time he could register about Ajay, Swara's feet were back on ground and she was already complaining about not being told about his visit.

" I know you love surprises , Shona." Ajay didn't even have to try hard.Swara was back to smiling.Shooting a glance at Swara's night suit Ajay shook his head "Don't tell me you are still obsessed with your bugs bunny night suits. .Mujhe tho laga tu toh badi ho gayi.Grow up shona " he teased. Swara poked her tongue out.

For next few minutes, it looked like they were in world of their own oblivious of anything or anyone around . Sanskaar didn't mind.Nothing seemed out of place.Two friends meeting after a long time.

Laksh who had no clue about this new character, watched them in confusion and what confused him further was his brothers composure: cool and calm, contrary to his expectations of some fireworks,'dishoom dishoom ,dhoom dham and all.

He turned to Ragini expecting some information , But before he could say a word Ragini rushed to Swara's side " Woh .. Tho ye Ajay hain". She said expectantly . She heard a quite a lot about him from Swara.Swara nodded excitedly and turned to Ajay

" Ajay ye .."

"Wait wait .. You must be Ragini.." Ajay quickly guessed .Surprised Ragini nodded .

" Hey! Swara keeps talking about you. Sundar and Susheel' and all that " Before Ragini could say word she was given a quick hug too "Ragini ..Mind If I Call you Rags ..thoda easy hoga and don't you think it's trendy?"

Rags?Laksh was in mood for murder now. As Ragini nodded smiling his anger diverted towards delicate stems of flower bouquet.

After a while Swara turned to Sanskaar.He stood silent watching them with a little smile on his lips. 'Dumbo'she chided herself .Lost in her own excitement, she missed out Sanskaar.

"Ajay! Swara tugged his hand gently, " I want you to meet someone." she murmured and dragged him down to Sanskaar." Ye ..Ye..." She muttered Sanskaar smiled a little more , at light pink colour shading her cheeks as she tried to introduce him " Sanskaar hain ... "

"Sanskaar ..Your prince Charming Right!" was Ajay's immediate response as they shook hands.

"Prince Charming! Aha! "Sanskaar turned to Swara, a eyebrow raised, amused.' I didn't know that' was the message and Swara turned a shade deeper under his teasing gaze. Then she gave a brief account of how Ajay left to states for benefit of group .Though they had been in touch , this visit came as a surprise.

Meanwhile Ajay stepped back, scanning Sanskaar from tip to toe,Sanskaar turned his focus back to Ajay. A tad taller ,his hair ,a shade of light brown was well trimmed like his stubble quoting his angular jaw which gave him a rugged look ,yet his eyes and smile held a subtle, playful charm. 'Roguishly charming' would be the right term. His dressing style true to his nature ,carried a carefree casual look, yet stylish.

" Kya baat hai Shona ! teri choice sudhar gayi hain! Not bad. Now I slipped out of your hands , it's too late to regret ..but haan banda teek taak hain." Ajay gave a certificate.

Teek Taak! Laksh almost dropped his jaw. Did this guy just call 'Sanskaar Maheshwari' teek taak. If he had clue of fan following his brother has he wouldn't dare to.

Sanskaar took his comment in good humour "That very generous of you ,Ajay .Thank you.I am glad you approve me for your friend." he replied with a usual smile

"Hey,I was just kidding bro."Ajay gave a friendly hug diverted his attention to Laksh.As Swara introduced him as Laksh Maheshwari .."Dramebaaz" was Ajay's spontaneous reaction and bit his tongue immediately "oops sorry ..I shouldn't have said that" Swara and Ragini giggled. Laksh fumed within but forced a smile and shook hands.He is already imagining 1000 ways to break this guy's skull.

It was an unspoken agreement that today would be "friends time". Hence with no delay Sanskaar decided to leave.Before bidding bye he handed over the bouquet to Swara.

" Tumhare Liye"

"Wow Red roses, iska fav ..."Ajay snatched the bouquet .

" You Shameless creature ..That was for me,"Swara kicked him on leg

"Tere liye mere liye ek hi baat hain na . And I am your guest right! Ab phoolon se Swagat tho banta hain .Right Sanskaar.! "

Sanskaar simply nodded with smile.

"Btw Not bad .You gotta know her quite well Sanskaar .Lekin mujhse jyada nahi." Sanskaar's smile faded at that remark.

" But don't worry,I will leak all her secrets to you." Ajay gave a quick wink and a grin."And I am sorry if you have any plans today, all cancel..I am.going to snatch her from you for a while..Hope you wouldn't mind?"

Swara considered Sanskaar curiously. How jealous he was then just at mention of Ajay's name.Would he be jealous now too?But much to her disappointment Sanskaar didn't seem to mind " Of Course Not ." was all he said.

Great!Ajay turned to Swara "..I am damn hungry ..Kuch khila vo yaar ,mar jaunga bhook se, , he turned to Ragini ,"Rags, I heard you cook so well, kya khilavoge mujhe?" and both the girls were led inside with no chance for protest, leaving both brothers outside.

Swara turned back to Sanskaar and Sanskaar nodded in understanding. There was an exchange of smile.

"Bhai ,I tell you Ye apna murder karvaane aaya hai yaha"Laksh muttered under breath as they walked towards bike with pink rose bouquet still in his hand. In his foul mood Laksh didn't want to hand it over to Ragini.

"Relax Lucky! He's Swara's friend, tune suna na ..and he's here only for a week or two." Sanskaar took out his bike keys.

"But still Bhai.. aren't you feeling anything, like some burning sensation in heart. Gussa nahi aaraha hain tujhe ki woh Swara ke saath itna close hain?"

Sanskaar's attention was focused elsewhere . He watched Ajay and Swara going inside baadi , Swara trying to catch the bouquet but could barely reach Ajay's stretched hand playing around.

" He's just a friend," Sanskaar reconfirmed his gaze fixed on them" There's nothing to be bothered"

But soon he realized he was wrong over next few days.

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First one being 'Shona'. Sanskaar didn't register at first meet, but when Ajay constantly called her, ' shona ..shona ,'that's when he realised he wasn't aware about shona being her pet name, and he was never told. But when Ajay passed a offhand comment of how this is known only to the people whom she considered close,Only Sanskaar knew the sharp prick he felt at that moment. It was a clear implication that he was not close enough to Swara. Was he not ?

Unable to hold back ,"You never told me.." He complained as they walked out of amusement park that evening.It was next day , they made a plan for outing. Laksh as usual sulked as Ragini and Ajay paired up as a team walked in front of them , a little away.

" You never asked me,"Swara replied in her usual cheerful self.

"Yeah Right! "Sanskaar nodded grimly

"Waise Mr.Maheshwari, "Swara linked her arms with his , " It's never too late.abhi se bhula sakthe ho." When Sanskaar didn't seem to respond , "Btw ..You always call me shona in my dreams, you know.Now dont ask me what else we do in dreams.." Before she could complete her words Sanskaar grabbed her into his hands. Startled first Swara smiled. She definitely knows how to cheer him up, lighten his mood and it worked.He was back to his teasing mode

"You better tell me what else I do in your dreams? I hope it's not something naughty and .."He paused and Swara lowered her eyes blushing. Only if he had clue of her wild romantic dreams from past few days she would have died of mortification .His knuckles brushed her cheeks softly and leaned closer, " ab tho jaane na hi padega .. since you are blushing so hard" he whispered in low tone. Swara blushed more ..." Shaadi ke baad" she mumbled playing with his shirt buttons. Smiling Sanskaar tipped her chin up, meeting her gaze. " I can't wait to know " His lips pressed softly onto her cheek "Shona" His voice caressed her like warm breeze . Smiling shyly Swara hid herself in his arms" I love when you call me Shona.." Swara whispered as his hands held her close.

"I will , only when we are alone..just you and me .Sanskaar aur uski Shona.." He whispered back,kissing her forehead..and the call had come for them to join rest of team.

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But as days passed , For Sanskaar who basked in undivided attention of Swara all these days, It wasn't easy to part it with someone else.That's when Sanskaar realised , how much he got used to Swara's attention and of her being around him all the time.

With each passing day , his pride of being closest of all to Swara , shattered bit by bit. Ajay was more closer. The more time he was with Ajay and Swara , the more he realised how little he knew of Swara. Ajay knew almost everything about Swara , her love for poetry, old hindi songs , salman and ranbir, music, chocolates ...most of it but there were many Sanskaar didn't know.They shared a kind of ease, which troubled him at times and he struggled with an unexpected pang of jealousy.

Ajay would share some amusing anecdotes , the pranks they played, their teasing sessions

"Ye itna dada giri karti thi ..Don't ask me.. Btw she never needed a bodyguard , in fact ulta she use to guard me .You know the best part is she is no damsel in distress. She would never need a hero or prince." Ajay concluded as they all met for a coffee post college.

That was one more blow on Sanskaar's pride. He always wanted to be Swara's 'HERO', the one who would be her knight in shining armour. He never told her, for the fear it may seem silly and childish. He wanted to be that prince who would sweep on white steed, fight off and slay the fire-breathing dragons and save his princess.Ok ! Not exactly dragons, but still, he wanted to be, the one who would save her from this big bad world, protect her from every pain and trouble , be her HERO.

He thought he was, but she didn't need one.

There was an unknown restlessness he couldn't figure out.And he slowly seemed withdrawn from conversations day by day .Swara was quick to notice change in Sanskaar's demeanor. He looked lost ,stayed silent most of times, would reply only in one or two syllable, absolutely when needed, so unlike him. Swara's thoughts were contrary. She was absolutely sure of Ajay and Sanskaar gelling well and pairing up to tease her ,since that was their favourite hobby, but things turned out to be a different. On other hand ,Sanskaar had his own reasons piling up day by day .

Swara never made him feel left out. She was always next to him , tried to engage him in conversations, showered extra attention on him . He had to be happy ,but he loathed himself for giving her such an impression of being attention seeker unintentionally .He hated all the extra efforts Swara made to put him at ease. The more efforts she put, his resentment just grew. All this was new for him ..this surge of alien feelings, his struggle with them and he had no clue how to handle them and Ajay's casual unintentional remarks just added up to it.

"Kya Shona.. Pehle hamesha Ajay Ajay bolti thi. Now all you say is Sanskaar Sanskaar...and Sanskaar not fair yaar .Ek hi dost thi mera, usse bhi cheen liya tumne."

It was made in good spirits, no harm was intended, but Sanskaar took it to heart.

He skipped joint meets with gang at last minute citing some reasons.That included a movie plan which left Swara utterly disappointed.They had never been to a movie.It would be their first one and she already dreamt of leaning on Sanskaar shoulders, holding his hand and get little naughty too in the dark theatre , tease him a bit. But Sanskaar ditched in last minute.Swara remained angry throughout movie..couldn't enjoy it a bit .She had plans of no less than murdering Sanskaar, once she meets him. Idiot.

While Swara missed him in theatre, Sanskaar's condition was no different .He went around college especially to 'their places..'.It just reminded him of all his time with Swara. Their world had no intruders, It was just them and he missed her ..missed them.

When Swara met him next day and questioned" I was busy with project "was his answer ,

" Waise bhi I didn't want to cut out on your friends time."

"Oh Cmon Sanskaar! tum bhi kiski baaton ko serious le rahe ho ..Ajay ke . You came to know him ,don't you? Kuch bhi bolta rehta hain." Swara dismissed his concerns with a smile and inched a bit closer wounding her arms around his neck. " I made some awesome plans for us in theatre.. You missed them out .Batadu?" She asked with a teasing tone.

Sanskaar removed her hands," Some other time.abhi kuch kaam hain" He simply kissed her forehead and left with no more words,leaving a confused Swara behind. He was never like this with her ..never in all these months of their courtship. That worried her.

On other hand Sanskaar didn't want to complain and act like those possessive jealous boyfriends, and he hated to admit he was jealous. He can't be . He is above all this petty emotions, he constantly reminded himself. He is Sanskaar Maheswari .But when it came to Swara,He was no better than raw, primitive brute. His love ,emotions, desires and need for her ran too deep. He can't function without her. He needed her like breath of air.

He wanted her, all to himself..just for himself.

"She loves me...No one can be more closer than me ."He told himself.But she never told you so his mind countered.

"Not everything needs to spelled out ..Actions speaks louder than words," His heart pacified .

"That's what you do to assure yourself..." His mind constantly budged him. True! Swara never said those 3 words to him which he had been dying to hear from long. He waited every day, that she would confess her feelings ,which were crystal clear in her eyes.. But she never voiced out which left him disappointed. In the recent days it just grew a bit more ..and it only seemed to be escalating at rapid scale.

No , he had no doubts about her love , not an ounce of distrust but he longed for a kind of assurance of his place in Swara's life. And that's wrong.Isn't it? Is he turning into one of those regular ,jealous ,possessive boyfriends.What's Wrong if Swara spends time with his best friend? She didn't need to give him constant assurances or proofs,but deep down there was this underlying need to have her only for himself and he struggled between right , wrong and almost got into a state of torment, berating himself with self-critical thoughts.

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Finally one day Swara decided she had enough. Sanskaar's behaviour was no less than unsolved puzzle. Initially she thought it might be jealousy, but soon realised it was not and he didn't have a need to be. But still she tried her best not to make him feel left out.. But it didn't work. She missed him..a lot.Nothing cheered her up in his absence , not even Ajay.

That's when Swara decided, she would skip hangout too and would focus only on being with Sanskaar. Just them.

She found him in library that day.She wanted it to be a surprise, hence she didn't inform him about skipping the outing.For Swara who expected a happy Sanskaar,all she got was a complaining one ,not happy with her skip." You should have gone.Your friend might feel I have stopped you from coming..waise bhi mujh pe taras khake rukne ki koi jaroorat nahi. I was doing fine without you."

That left Swara dumbfounded." Taras? I don't believe you said that Sanskaar. I stayed back because I was missing you.. Missing us. I wanted to be with you and what's wrong with you . tum itni ajeeb kyu behave kyu kar rahe ho?Is Ajay bothering you " She questioned straight.That hit a raw spot of him.

"Aisa kuch nahi hain.Why would I be bothered. Stop assuming things. If you are expecting me to act like a boyfriend of fiancee who can't bear watching his girl with someone else.. I am not one of those jerks so please.." Sanskaar back lashed.

After a minute of silence ,Taken aback first Swara drew a deep breath composing herself ."I am sorry to say Mr.Maheshwari, but you are really acting like one." Swara pointed and strided off in anger.

Sanskaar stood silent.

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Sanskaar checked his reflection in mirror. In Dolce & Gabbana black slim fit martini suit , he looked all set for dinner tonight. Planned by Ajay ,he didn't have an option to skip. It was for him and Swara. Since he couldn't attend their engagement , this is his way of making up to them, Ajay said and Sanskaar couldn't refuse. Laksh insisted too.He warmed up to Ajay during their outing sessions especially when he realised Ajay posed no threat to him and Ragini. " Itna bhi bura nahi hai bhai.. I mean he talks a lot , bahut bak bak karta hain but I like him." Sanskaar simply nodded in response.

After that evening in library, they didn't talk much. He apologized , she accepted.. A sorry and a nod in acknowledgement. That was it .But Sanskaar knew Swara was right.In his attempts to not to act like one,he started acting like a jerk lately. He didn't want to upset her to night. Sanskaar soon realised , he is acting exactly, like Swara did few months back . Running away.There's no use struggling within self ,best option would be to discuss his fears and insecurities with Swara.

He would confess his feelings too. The wait never seemed to end.To night would be the night.Their night .

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"Mera Sanskaar Ke saath jagada hua," Swara told Ragini as they dressed up for the dinner.Ragini opted for a crepe blush coloured evening gown with lace applique work.

Swara decided to go with teal off the shoulder gown.She really liked crystal beaded and intricate embroidery work on Bodice. It defined elegance, yet gave her sexy look.

"Tho manalo.."Ragini said adjusting Swara's zipper at back. "He fought with me ..Manana tho usse padega," Swara replied checking her reflection in mirror .She looked ...

Sanskaar would answer .She still held the memory of freshers day very close to her heart.It was special in many ways and she could never forget the admiring gaze of Sanskaar ..His compliments during dance. He called her gorgeous then..And now?.She will let him decide.Swara mused within self. Done with final touches ups they both stepped out

"Omg ..You girls are gonna kill someone today.Kya khoob lagti ho badi sundar dikhti ho.." Ajay started off with a song much to Swara and Ragini's amusement and he turned to Swara "And Shona' tu itni sexy kab se ho gayi ..Sanskaar tho Gaya aaj .." Ajay teased session as they headed for the dinner night.

Sanskaar stood at loss of words as Swara walked towards their reserved table in that teal coloured evening gown. The whole world faded at that minute ..If one would mix up equal proportion of sexy and elegance into one, that would be her.She looked like a princess from fairy tale ,exactly one he dreamt of ..his princess.As she walked more closer, his thoughts took a new turn.The tight fit bodice, highlighted her narrow slim frame at right places.Her silky hair was knotted into a classic french twist, held together by two butterfly clips..Few tendrils, screaming to be free from the lock managed to escape and they framed her cheeks loosely.

Her off shoulder giving a clear view of her cream coloured back,was not making things any easier , with some crazy, insane totally asanskari thoughts taking over his mind .Damn! it has a zipper too.

"Hold the ground ,you idiot "Sanskaar cursed himself under breath. Then she gave him a smile, her pink glossed lips curving up slightly and he was floored..totally, utterly and absolutely.Standing before him Swara waited, but he didn't have to say a word. It was all in his eyes , she was most beautiful woman on earth for him. Then he held her hand,his eyes fixed on her , pressed a kiss so softly ,it shot a sweet sensation down her spine.

Feeling heat of his gaze Swara smiled shyly as he pulled chair for her.Dinner went smooth . Then it was dance time for couples. Ajay had first dance with Swara ,but Swara's eyes moved back to Sanskaar stealing glances who gaze was fixed on her .Laksh and Ragini paired up first , When it was Ajay' turn with Ragini.Swara quickly stepped away,Sanskaar was before her next minute.

"My turn,"he held his hand gave her a smile, charming one like always.Swara took his hand smiling. They were on dance floor shutting out rest of world.His hand smoothed softly on her back, curled around her waist in very soft hold,hers on his shoulder.He pressed her close leaving a very little space between them.Their gazes met and held.They waltzed slowly , moving in sync.

" Abhi bhi gussa ho?"He asked in low gentle tone

"Manaa voge mujhe ,toh haan.," Swara replied with glint of mischief."You didn't tell me how I was looking to night."

"Lair" he murmured drawing a smile from Swara."I have been telling you all this while and Trust me."His lips brushed her ear softly."you don't want to know what was running in my mind when you walked in ,"Before Swara could react "You better not ask me to show ."he warned her, smiling wide, absolutely aware of Swara's adventurous spirits.

Swara drew back with a pout, " That was not fair..Mr.Maheshwari.Now I would want to know."

"Shaadi ke baad," he teased her with a smile and laughed as she hit him playfully on shoulder. Now they moved closer, close enough to feel each others heartbeat, beating in same rhythm.Every word turned into a mere whisper, every breath a warm caress.

"Reminds me of our first dance." She rested her chin on his shoulder,recalling their dance at freshers party.

"That would be the best dance of my life." he lowered his head down, his lips pressing softly on smooth curve of her shoulders.She arched pressing their bodies more closer with a sweet gasp, closing every gap" of our life.." she corrected,her lips murmuring softly into his ear.She could feel his lips curving up into a smile. And they danced for long ,whispering sweet nothings to one another.

Holding his drink Ajay watched them with tiring sigh.No doubt they are so much in love but "..itni baat tho karte hain lekin jo bolna hai woh tho kehte nahi." He shook his head

When Ajay first landed in Kolkata, he was in two minds. He still recalled how upset Swara was during the engagement compared to days when she would gush on about Sanskaar. They didn't catch up much post engagement , other than Swara's assurances that things are going fine.But as he caught a glimpse of Swara and Sanskaar in baadi,it was a different picture..and he was happy for his friend,who glowed with happiness.

Swara gave him a jist of all events, kavita's ploy, the extent she hurt Sanskaar ..and her intentions to make it up to him.

" Don't tell me you didn't say those 3 words to him and you need to draw a line shona. Didn't you see, he is more than happy and usne kabka maaf kar diya hoga tumhe..poor Sanskaar..He must be waiting."

"Trust me Ajay , I want to .. but I am scared. "Swara for first time, voiced her concerns, '"You have no clue maine usse kitna hurt kiya and I am not sure if I made it up to him. I still feel guilty and I want to earn his trust back before I say those 3 words.But I..."

"Did he tell you?"Ajay asked watching Swara intently.

Swara nodded ."Only once, at the time of engagement woh bhi gusse main.. After that ,never...and I have no complains. I wounded him many a times that he doesn't trust me enough to place his heart ,back in my hands. Its fair too and I am trying. I will wait, till he says those words.That would be the moment when I knew he trusts me enough."

"And What if he is waiting for you to say?"Ajay questioned back trying to find logic midst chaos his friend seemed to land herself into

Swara didn't have an answer, but an ounce of doubt in his eyes after confessing her feelings would be too much to bear, it will break her down and Ajay was right! She had no clue where to draw the line, where to stop and confess. What's the right time to?.She had no clue.The wait only seemed to be answer.

Now watching them together Ajay decided it's time to put a break to this never ending confessing saga."ab toh kuch dhamaka krana hi padega .."He turned to Laksh and Ragini who joined him back at table"Guys Listen.."

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It was after Swara and Sanskar joined them back , the champagne was ordered to mark the end of day .

"My dear friends".Ajay raised glass of champagne standing from his chair looking at others on table ". I would like to propose a toast for would be couple on block ,our own Swara and Sanskaar."He turned to them "I wish you both all the best and a very happy married life.Hamesha khush raho..phoolo, phalo..and all that. Shona.. You know I will always love you and Sanskaar , you better take good care of my friend, or else I will fly down to thrash you.No second thoughts about it."

Sanskaar nodded with a smile .

"And you better stop being jealous." he added and Sanskar's smile faded away that minute.Swara's too.

:Ajay.." Swara was quick to interrupt.

"Oh Cmon Shona!.. Can't you see .he's clearly jealous."Ajay pointed at Sanskaar," Ye jalta hain mujhse , but his big fat ego will not let him admit it . That's why he's been missing out on our outings. He can't bear to watch you with me or anyone else.Iss liye.He wants to be ideal boyfriend ,wear mask of one , but in real he's a jealous and possessive boyfriend,jo...

There was a stinging slap on his face much to everyone's shock. It was a fuming Swara " Not one more word Ajay.." She warned and turned to Sanskaar, who looked stunned at turn of events, but he was hurt , it was clear from his eyes.Before she could say a word, Sanskaar rose and walked out from there, followed by worried Swara.

Ajay rubbed his cheek soothing the sting.

Laksh leaned back smiling sipping his drink, " Zor se laga kya? Serves you right!..itna tang jo kiya tune sab ko .anyways ab inn dono ke love story ke liye tumhe kya pata , kitne papad bele main aur ragini ne .." He turned to Ragini who nodded in consent." But I must admit, what a shot it was.! " Laksh smirked teasingly.

"You think this plan of yours to provoke Sanskaar will work?" Ragini asked little worried

Ajay smiled back ," It will ..because it's not just any shot . I believe in playing winning shot." he raised his glass for another toast.

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Swara approached Sanskaar hesitantly knowing how menacing his foul mood can be and disappointed at her friends behaviour. He stood his back turned to her. They were in backyard garden of the hotel.

"Sanskaar ..I am really sorry for whatever Ajay said .I don't know ki usne aisa.." she paused at Sanskaar's voice. "You shouldn't have slapped him, Swara"

"But Sanskaar, You heard him.He was just speaking rubbish..and "

"No..."Sanskaar turned to face her.There was no trace of anger, but reflection of vulnerability in his eyes. "He was Right! Absolutely right! I am jealous..Swara." Sanskaar admitted leaving her bewildered."Haan, Jalta hoon main, tumhe uske saath dekh kar ,and I can't bear the thought of someone else being close to you, other than me.I am tired of fighting this feeling trying to act like it doesn't bother me but .I can't anymore. I just can't ."He sighed defeatedly.

"Tum jante ho meri problem kya hai Swara?" He grabbed her hand ,"I want you all for myself .I don't want to share anything related to you with someone else. Neither your attention,nor your time.It's all mine Swara .. just mine aur tum bhi ."He pulled her close, his eyes boring into hers "Tum Sirf meri ho ,sirf meri. Swara sirf Sanskaar ki hai, uski har cheez par sirf Sanskaar ka haq hai ,Sirf Sanskaar ka.." Swara still stared at him wide eyed as he claimed her with absolute surety.

Then he stepped back leaving her ," Now I am sounding like a possessive boyfriend right! And I know ye galat hain.Just because I love you .I don't own you . you have your life, your friends too. I respect your space too.And I swear Swara. Ye mat samajhna ki main tum pe trust nahi karta.I trust you with my life and I don't have a problem with Ajay too. I know my fears are

uncalled for but I don't know ..

"My mind understands everything , every bit of it. But my heart ?My crazy heart doesn't want to. Whenever you are close to me its beats like thousand time a minute ,When I see you with someone else, it burns with jealousy.When you are not around, it misses you like crazy and this damn bloody heart, It it loves you so much, so much Swara ,that it doesn't have an idea of how to beat without you, survive with you.Nothing make sense in life when you are not around Swara! Tum ho tho sab kuch hain .Tum nahi toh kuch bhi nahi."

Jab tum mujh pe gussa karti ho..Mann karta hai kuch bhi karke na tumhe maanaloon,hamesha tumhe apne paas rakhu,itne paas ki tum kabhi mujhse dur nahi jaa sakthi.Jab tum stupid ki tarah behave karti ho na .. maan karta hai ek do thappad lagadu aur line pe leke aa voon, then I want to pamper you like a little kid, shower you with so much love ,shield you from every trouble,never let a tear spill out of your eyes, fulfill your every wish , get you stars and moon if you want to."

.Swara smiled through tears.He already did.But Sanskaar was too lost to notice. He turned away trying to catch hold of breath..the he spoke again ,this time more calm and composed,but the pain in his voice upped by a level.

"All these days I was under impression I am closest of all to you ,koi aur ho hi nahi sakta,but I was wrong .It's not me,It's Ajay and he knows you tad better than me in every way.Main toh kuch janta hi nahi ,other than just few of your likes and dislikes. I was a stupid too dreaming of being your hero, protecting you from this big bad world, shielding you from every pain ,your knight in shining armour .Lekin...you are fighter yourself Swara. You don't need a Hero in your life.You dont need me to fight your wars, and I have no clue where that leaves me in your life.Ajay is absolutely right. "

He turned to face her his eyes misty ."I am a stupid ,jealous, possessive, egoistic fiance of yours who can't live without you.That's it ..aur kuch nahi" He finished letting out a long weary sigh.

There was nothing but silence in air for long as they stood facing each other .There were tears in his eyes ..and in hers too.He stood before her ,teary eyed ,vulnerable . It tugged her heart but at same time her heart swelled with love for him.So what if he exactly didn't put in those three words .This is best confession she could ever dream of where he pulled down all his defenses, bared every bit of his heart to her.Can she ask for more?

Swara slowly raised her hand, her fingers stroking his cheeks lightly.Sanskaar closed his eyes with a sigh at soothing touch.Tears pooling at edge of eyes slided down his cheeks.Her fingers moved to wipe them gently.

Sanskaar ..

He opened his eyes ..meeting hers."Where do I stand in your life Swara? What's my place?Main Hoon kaun ?"He asked, his voice hinting pain and confusion.

" Mera sab kuch.." She answered without a blink.His eyes widened. It was a simple ,straight answer but encompassed the meaning of what he means to her.Fresh tears pooled in his eyes.

"Ab main kuch bolu ?" She asked softly her palm pressed on his cheek.He nodded turning his face a little ,kissing her palm.

"Ajay knows more about me ..ye koi baadi baat nahi hain Sanskaar. We knew each other from childhood ..so it's quite natural for him to know more about me..like you know laksh more than any one of us right!

But you should know ,he never read poetry for me, never got me my fav roses,never listened to old hindi songs just because I like them, never played guitar for me.But you did.Just because he knows me well..doesn't make him closest to me Sanskaar.Ajay knows only a stronger side of me but you have seen worst side of me Sanskaar .Mera gussa, nafrat aur mera dard mera paagalpan and you stood by me ,Every Time .Even when I have let you down again and again .you didn't give up on me.You held me back when I am at my most vulnerable.You embraced with my flaws and my past with no questions.

He stared at her listening to her words which are syncing in slowly.

"I never needed a hero in my life, because I never had one Sanskaar. Bachpan se lekar, It was only me and my mom fighting for us, but now I know I can rest, be a damsel in distress because I have my Hero, My knight ,My Sanskaar."

Sanskaar squeezed his eyes shut ,letting all the pain he held inform of tears.

"Tum jaante ho main kyu tumhare pass stupid aur emotional ban jaati Hoon?" Swara wiped his tears."Kyunki main jaanti hoon, mera Sanskaar mujhe sambhal lega.Iss liye, I throw tantrums around you, act like an idiot because my Sanskaar wouldn't mind and he is the only one who can handle me in my best and worst times,who would pamper me, take care of my idiotic silly demands, correct me when I am wrong ..then love me like I am his world.No one knows me better than you do.No one loves me like you do.No one can ever make my heart race like you do when close, no one can make me blush with a just a teasing smile like yours. No one can ever make me feel beautiful just with a simple gaze and no one else can handle my madness, other than you.

And I love this stupid jealous possessive fiancee of mine so so much that I fall short of words to say how much I love him. All I can say is If I ever would have wanted a prince in my life, that would be you Sanskaar,only you and .......I love you."

Sanskaar had no clue why he wanted to cry when this is the most happiest moment of his life.Stupid tears ..rukne ka naam hi nahi le rahe hain...and then he is smiling like an idiot too.

Not saying a word he simply pulled her into a tight hug embraced he like never before.

"Pehle nahi bolsakthi. I have been dying to hear you say that."He complained hugging her more tight

"I was not sure, if you trust me enough to give your heart again." she replied relishing the warmth of his embrace.

Sanskaar drew back a little,"Sách main stupid ho tum. My heart was never with me from the moment I lost it to you.I never had it back.Its with you Miss Bose."

" You never told me that Mr.Maheshwari ," Swara complained back

"You never asked me." He countered smiling.He always loved their silly fights.

"Oh Great! Now you want to fight with me over this ,Right! ." Swara stepped back faking anger and crossed her arms."As per rules we are supposed to kiss after confession ..and you are picking up a fight with me.Now you please decide. Do you want to fight or ..

And then she couldn't think of word next. All she knew was locked in his hands ,with his lips on hers, she's melting hopelessly as he kissed her urgently first ,then languidly ,leisurely,tracing her curves in most delicious way she ever thought of.It was teasing ,tantalising..and she wanted more. .She gasped softly with a sweet ache taking over her. Her arms wound around his neck and she kissed him back feverishly.He chuckled softly ,gathered her close and kissed her back matching his need with hers.

After what seemed like long..they parted. Her skin flushed red as she tried to gather her breath.His finger tips stroked her cheek teasingly " How about both?" He murmured pressing teasing kisses softly slowly over her cheek." You are going to lose." Swara murmured back . His finger held her chin, tipped her face up ,meeting her gaze.

"I already did lose Swara and for once I don't mind losing again and again in this game , because either win or loss.."

" You are mine and I am yours "She completed , leaning forward.

"Forever.." He whispered and leaned little more closer and they kissed again softly pledging themselves to each other under star studded sky, with twinkling stars shining upon them.

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