I know It has been a long long time since I last updated, but here I am not going to give you any excuses. I am grateful to each one of you who invested their time on this story. This is the last chapter of this story and then it will finally reach its destination. I hope I did justice to the characters and both Shaira and Ayaan made a small place in your heart.

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Love always find its abode, it always do, be patient, let it approach you, not the other way round...

Shaira's POV

Life is like a bud of Rose,  I once read it somewhere. Then I didn't know what the author was trying to say but today when I look back at my life,  I realize what it truly means.

Bud takes its own time and nurture itself so that when the time comes it can hide itself in the petals of the flower it has taken care of from so long.  Just like Rose, our life is filled with thorne and as every petal unfurl itself in the right time,  our life's every phase is unfurled in front of us in the most perfect moment and maybe that's why we heard ourselves say "the timing couldn't be better" or "everything happens in the right time".  It has been two years, two years since that fatal accident happened which changed my life.

For others it may sound a big span but for me these last two has been the most amazing years. I came to know a whole new side of Ayaan. The side where I have seen him crying for me, wiping my tears and letting his fall freely. In these two years I have come closer to my mother and it felt right, so damn right that today after Ayaan, she is the second person closest to me. Now I don't feel like she abandoned me when I needed her the most, in fact I try to think of her situation,  the dilemma she was in. Somewhere we all are selfish, we want a good life, financial stability and something to look forward for, there is no harm in making your life worth living. Especially mothers, they often forget how to live for themselves when they become mom. But Gwen knew what she wanted and was looking for. She did what she had to and after so much time, I don't feel bad. I have accepted her the way she is and that is a relief. I don't want her to change, I just want her to be with me. Usually our life is wasted in finding defects in our partners, family, friends and relatives. We never think about the repercussion of such things but in reality it destroys our soul, our normal mental ability to see what is right and what is wrong. I had been doing this all my life and see what I did to myself!

We all do mistakes and that's how we all survive in this inhuman world searching for true love and haven where we can finally rest. This is how trapped we are, it's next to impossible to break that notion and suddenly start thinking logically!  It's inane to think that it's easily achievable!  It's not. Stop for a minute and ponder about what exactly is what you want in a person, if you are demanding certain qualities then do you worth this much? Think about it,  just for a minute. I usually say without Ayaan I wouldn't have been here, this is true, without him I wouldn't be able to know what it is like to be in love in real.

When I think about Ayaan, my lips curled into bright smile, he is just so amazing. He has changed me and made me a better person in so many ways. Love is not about Intimacy, I learned this from him! It's more about care, being supportive and embracing all the negativities of your partner along with the positivities.

 It's been two years since we started living together officially . It all appeared to be like a fairy tale, where in the end everything becomes perfect, just the way should be or we expected it to be.

 I will not say this is our ending, rather I am looking forward for our rest of the journey. I might not meet you again but I promise to meet you once in a while, whenever I will need you,  I will open and relive the best moments of my life which are stored in you. I am going to keep you safe, don't worry no one will be able to read you. You are the key to who I am and I cannot let anyone know what it was like in the darkest of times.

Dear Diary, I love you.  Thank you for standing beside me when I needed you the most. See you soon...

Love Shaira

As I closed it and locked it, I felt serenity settling inside me. It felt so wonderful to be able to write what I was craving to write from so much time. It often happens, that some moments are just too special to let them go and for me, this is it. I want to hold this book close to my chest feel it against myself. It has been with me when no one was there and today after so much more time, I am content to close this chapter of my life for a while. I will reopen it for sure but in the right moment,  for now this is the end of the new beginning.

My thoughts took me  into a dreamy flashback where I was reminiscing all the important moments of my life. A smile found its way on my lips and in a snap of a second,  it was gone. Someone snatched my diary from my taut grip, leaving me baffled.

"What the!" I turned only to see Ayaan, scrutinizing my diary.  His brows furrowed and he looked deep in his thoughts. In that moment I forgot what he was doing, I was busy gawking at him. Maybe love is indeed blind,  It takes our normal vision away from us and suddenly all we see is our lover. Did I just call Ayaan my lover!  Gosh what is wrong with me!

"Ayaan?" I tried to sound annoyed but as his name found my voice chord, everything got blurred and I was in my own trance. Happy Trance. My inner self was still comprehending of what was going on but my heart was flipping inside, my stomach was churning and for the first time in these two years my knees were actually weak. Maybe this was the right time to take a step ahead or maybe it was not but these newly found emotions were doing havoc in my body...

'Okay, this is has to stop!' My inside nudged me. Keeping my dirty thoughts aside and pulling myself together, I looked at him after blinking my wet eyes.

Ayaan was about to turn the page and that was when I was brought back to my senses. He cannot possibly read this. I thought hurriedly and in a span of a second I got up from my chair and jumped towards him but him being tall, held it high in his hands making me scowl.

"Ayaan, give this to me" I demanded,  my heart skipped a beat knowing there is so much in there, that he doesn't even know about. I cannot bare this part of me to him, though he knows 90% of what is In there. But still it's invasion of my privacy!

"Come on, let me take a look. What is there to hide from me anyway. " he said nonchalantly.

"No, it's not about hiding. It's too private and important for me." I said more like beseech but he was in no mood of listening to me.

"Don't you trust me enough?" His innocent eyes met mine, and I almost got carried away by his captivating eyes but I somehow managed to control myself.

"I do, I do but Ayaan, my whole life is written in there. I don't know whether you are ready to turn to that page of my life or not." I said looking towards the ground. My shoulders slouched when I thought about all the bitter things I have written about him, when we first met, then about our first argument! Gosh the list is endless.'

"I have decided to spend my whole life with you Shaira, and I want to be a part of your every chapter  now. For me you are it. There is no one who can love me the way you do and there is no one whom I can love the way I love you." He said with utmost sincerity and I couldn't help but trust him which I already do.

I nodded and left the room to let him read my diary. It was awkward as well as an unknown emotion surfaced my brain and to my surprise I feel relaxed. All my tense muscles were now relieved. It was the right decision, I thought. My diary was the only thing he didn't know about and now he will know that too. I sat in my balcony and gazed at the sky which was deepest hue of blue. It was cold outside and my baggy t-shirt was not at all helping. Resting my chin on my knees I hugged myself. I couldn't help but wonder how in earth I got this blessed?   

You know, my version of love was completely different to what in real happened to me. Trust me, love is nothing like what you see in the movies, it is not as complicated as we have generally heard of, it is the simplest form of expressing what you feel towards one another. The only basic ingredient you need is trust. If you have trust then there are few chances of things ever going against you. Don't look out for love, it is there within yourself, hidden waiting for you to find it. You just have to look the other way, that is all it needs.

 I didn't know for how long I sat there but it was soothing. The cold wisp of air nudging my hair was both perturbing as well as providing me tranquility.  Slowly Ayaan, disentangle my hands and intertwined with his making me look towards him. My hair were restricting my view of him.For a few minutes we both were silent. All I could hear was the slow eolian sound mixed with our breaths. Tension was building inside me but his soft caressing of my knuckles was a proof that nothing has changed.

"I am sorry." I heard him say.

"Why?"

"I didn't realize I hurt you this much. I never thought it ruptured you like this. I knew you love me but now I know what you do is called unconditional love. Will I ever be able to love you like this? You deserve so much more and I..." before he could proceed I kept my hands on his mouth.

"Enough of your blaming yourself. You don't have any idea how much you love me. I was alone Ayaan, it was you who stick with me! It was you who made me believe that fairy  tales do exist and there is no harm in dreaming a wonderful life. You never gave up not even when I expected you to. You always choose honesty in our relationship. Always. You have done so much for me that the list  goes on and on. I don't believe in forever things but with you, I want to believe in every fucking fairy tale because somewhere I know You will never let me down ever. You better not demean yourself. You mean to me more than anyone in this whole damn world and I love you! Is this is not enough?" I questioned as tears escape from my eyes.

It wasn't for the first I was telling Ayaan what he means to me, it was for the first time that I was acknowledging it to myself and it felt surreal. Without thinking much,  I closed the distance between us and placed his hands on my waist, keeping mine firmly around his neck. I brushed my nose with his.

"I love you,  I love you,  I love you....." I repeated till he pressed his lips to mine with a lingering smile. It was a sweet kiss and that's all I needed in that moment. There is nothing between us, except us,  that's all a person wants when they are in love and today I want to scream at the top of my lungs and let the world know he is taken, I am taken. To nothing matters except us.

From slow to fast, our hands found each other's back and now our bodies were begging for a release. Our soul was becoming one,  his hands were caressing my back and I was busy kissing his luscious lips. Umm I didn't expect that's how the night will end but who cares until he is there with me.

"Ayaan" I whispered in his ears, making him shiver. He stopped immediately and looked towards me, adjusting my loose strands behind my ears.

"Will you marry me?" I blurted out holding his face.

For a few seconds he was in deep shock, he wasn't expecting this at all, I was neither expecting this from myself. I never thought about this before and it wasn't there two minutes ago but for some reason,  this felt right. I remember I told him,  that I will ask him to marry me if everything goes fine with my operation and it's been a long time since that happened, so why not.

"Say it again. I didn't hear you for the first time." I knew he was lying,  I could feel his smile at the end of lips but ended up fulfilling his wish.

"Will you marry me?" I asked again as demanded by him.

"One more time." He said again, holding me by my waist. Keeping me close to himself so that I cannot run.

"You know what let's just forget...." before I could say anything further he shut me up.

"Yes! Yes! Yes!" He screamed and twirl me in his arms making me giggle. Just like that I felt like a teenage girl who just got some candy. My dream finally came true,  to be loVed by someone who loves me more than anything in this entire world.

I understood one thing if life gives you lemons, make some lemonade! When life gives you a second chance, use it and be worthy of it....

THE END