Shaira's POV

Sometimes you do things which internally soothes you but you are just too egoistic to confront it to yourself...

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I yelled at Ayaan as much as it was possible for me.

"I couldn't watch him insult you like this" He said looking at me with his fist curled, his knuckles white.

"Really! Like it all matter to you!" I said to him with a sarcastic smile and raise my brows at him.

Is this man for real?  Does he even hearing his own words. He couldn't watch! Seriously!

"Do one thing Ayaan if you really want to help me then please go,  leave me alone" I said to him turning away from him.

"Shaira please let me help you,  I know I haven't done anything to even look at you, but please" He implored and something in my chest tightened at his words.

Why Ayaan why are you doing all this, to me, to yourself and to us! It's already difficult to pretend that your presence doesn't affect me, but hell it does. It takes every ounce of self power to resist not being in your arms when you are an inch away from me.

"Fine, but you will not try to do anything except from teaching me Maths, that is it" I heard myself saying and when I turned to look at him he was grinning like a he is the most lucky man on this earth.

"You have no idea what your words have done. And I promise I will try my level best to not do anything" he said but the glint in his eyes was telling me something else.

The way his green eyes were dancing in excitement was telling me a whole new story.

The thing is I cannot turn his offer down even if I want to!  In our class he is the only person whose maths is not only good but his concepts are too  clear and if I want to pass this exam I have to take his help so why not.

After this I walked away from him and the best part was he didn't stop me which was a relief. Lost in my own chain of thoughts I reached cafe stumbling at the door and when Sophie saw me she raised her brows wanting to know what is wrong with me!

The truth is now a days every single fucking thing is not going my way. From the moment I came to know about me and Olivia's special bond (note the sarcasm) it's difficult to meet her gaze. 

She has invited me umpteenth time to her house for dinner but I have always turned her down and I will never capitulate this time ever.

She implore almost every day saying her mother wants to see me and trust me I so want to snort every time she talks about her mother but what stops me is her eyes which crinkle at the corner, her eyes lit up and there is that permanent smile on her face whenever she talks about her.

How ironic it is the one woman whom I never want to talk about, my dear friend come step sister wants to ramble all day about her.

"Hey oli" I said wearing my apron but she ignored me.

"Olivia, is everything okay?" I said keeping a hand on her back and till this time I was started to get worried.

"Oh, I didn't notice you came" She said passing me a small smile.

"Oli, whenever you want to talk I am right here" I said to her to which she nodded and it made me even more tense seeing her so off.

In these few last days I have tried to be as much carefree as I can. I noticed that whenever I get attached to someone I care for them for no reason and in the end I always end up hurting myself. So my mission is to be a little like Olivia who doesn't give a Fuck about others life when her own life is eventful.

"It's my dad" Olivia said after an hour while we both were washing Dishes,  she was loading the dishwasher and I was cleaning the plates with a clean and dry cloth.

"He is not returning my mum's call and she is sick worried" she said in a low voice, wiping her tears with a back of her hand.

"Oh honey, don't worry, maybe he just need some time for himself" I said to her and she started sobbing uncontrollably keeping a hand at her mouth.

"I don't know, what to do, what to say, I have never seen her like this, I just don't..." she said in between in sobs and my heart tightened at her words.

"Olivia, she is going to be fine, trust me" I said wrapping my arms around her and she rested her forehead on my shouders.

I didn't know what should I do now but my heart was telling me to do one thing which was to call her. I wanted to make sure she was alright and console her by saying everything will be alright but my mind was restraining me telling me how pathetic that idea sounds and I don't have any right on her to even call her I reminded myself.

In this battle of heart and mind usually heart wins and that is exactly what happened with me too in our fifteen minutes break while Olivia was sitting all alone, I decided to call her and went  outside, I dialed her house number from my cellphone and waited for her to pick up.

"Hello" came a sad voice. I could judge it that she was terribly sad as just like her my voice becomes heavy whenever I am upset or sad.

"Hey" I said clearing my throat. She must have been surprised to hear my voice as she didn't reply for the next two minutes and I had to recheck whether she was on phone or not, she was there I could listen to her breathing.

"Shaira, honey I am so glad you called, I wasn't expecting"

"Yeah you are right, you should not expect anything from me but unlike you I am not heartless who even after knowing that you are having some differences with your husband I will not call. Olivia is really upset" I cut her off but then smacked myself for being so rude to her.

"I am"

"You don't need to be sorry, you are right you are not heartless unlike me" She said and I heard her sniffling making me realize she was crying.

Damn me! I shouldn't have called her.

"See, I am worried for Olivia, she is sad about all this, is there anything I could do?" I asked her but this time in a gentle way.

"Just take care of Olivia, Shaira. I know she only listens to you. She hasn't eaten anything from the morning please make her eat something." She implored and I coaxed her saying she doesn't have to worry and I will take care of Olivia.

"Thank you for calling Shaira" She said when I was about to cut the call. I wanted to say it is okay but I didn't, I said nothing and pretended like I didn't hear what she said and cut the call.

After that I went inside told Sophie that Olivia is not well and made her eat some cookies which I always carry in my bag then I sent her home saying I will take care of it, her mother needs her more than this cafe needs her right now.

It was past ten when I was finally able to come my home, exhausted, famished and what not.

"Finally you are here" Came a voice from my balcony and for a moment I got scared as to who it is at this hour but all my confusion was over when I saw Ayaan was leaning against my window with a sweet smile plastered on his face.

"May I know what you doing here?" I asked him crossing my arms across my chest.

"You forgot? I am your teacher Shaira" He said pausing at the word teacher. 

"Umm, you should stop barging into my balcony like this" I said to him opening the balcony door.

"Well, this way is more special" He said entering into my room and sat on my bed with a thud.

"Whatever, I thought we will be beginning it from tomorrow" I said to him closing the door.

Now that we were alone, this idea didn't seem decent to me. 

"I thought you will be giving me lectures in the library after college" I said averting my gaze from him. He was sitting on my bed so carefully and I was standing by the door so awkwardly!

"Yeah but maths means a lot of practice so I thought why not starting it by today itself" He said trying his best to not smile but ending up giving me his fake professional smile.

"Ayaan,  I appreciate your efforts but can we start it from tomorrow?" I asked him to which he straightly said no.

Removing his jacket and throwing it on me directly he patted his hand on my bed to tell me to sit.

Keeping his jacket on the nearby chair I did as I was said and sat on the bed but not directly close to him. I sat diagonally to him aaand saw his disapproval too which gave me the satisfaction for something which I wasn't cognizant off.

This night is not going to be a good night forsurely...

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