Shaira's POV

Confronting something you never wanted to in the first place requires huge efforts and great amount of guts. Not all of us have this power...

I was still laying in my bed and it was six in the evening. I didn't bother to change my clothes, comb my hair, or even wash my face. It felt good laying on bed with eyes closed, not knowing what to do, it all felt good. It was a strange feeling, from inside I wasn't feeling broken, hurt or betrayed now, I am beginning to feel something very different yet it was something I am embracing with my full state of mind which is numbness.

Numbness is a state of mind when you don't feel anything and even if you want to feel something there is nothing left inside anyway. My mind appeared to be sorted, heart is beating normally and my eyes are all dry. It has been more than twenty four hours when I last ate something even after that I am not hungry at all. I am all okay.

But was I really okay? Was I really not feeling anything from inside? Am I past all that?

If there is anyone who can answer my questions then please do, my heart and mind both begged to know the answers but my whole apartment was empty and the answers of the question I wanted to know so desperately seem to abandon me.

The constant ringing of the bell door snapped me back to reality and very carefully I stepped onto the floor as my feet was injured badly. After putting every nuisance thought aside I opened the door of my apartment to see a very worried Olivia standing there with frown covering her forehead. 

She was wearing black trousers, with black top which resembled what I was wearing. Her hair were tied in a high pony, eyes dark with an emotion I cannot decipher and lastly, she looked ready to cry.

"Shaira" She said and before giving me any warning gave me a bone crushing hug, squeezing the life out of me. I am not complaining but this was something which was uncalled. This time when she hugged me it felt different knowing she is my sister. I wrapped my arms around her feeling a whole new connection.

"You know for a moment it felt like I lost a sister" She whispered into my ears and I froze when she said sister.

No way in hell she knows we both are sisters from the same mother. I don't think so that her Mom has guts to her that. I am also not ready to face another apocalypse in my life. Already there is so much in my plate and I cannot afford one more.

"Sister?" I questioned her and she smiled coyly at me brushing her tears with the back of her hand.

"I never told you but for me, the moment I met you, It just all connected. I found myself drawn towards you and well, in the last four months things have changed between us. We have become even more close now. It seriously feels like you are my elder sister." She said with her eyes only depicting love for me.

"Ooh, come inside" I said without any emotion. I didn't know what should I even say to something like this. 

Am I require to respond and if I do then I don't know what my response should be.  

"Now without wasting any time tell me what happened" she said keeping a hand on her waist and raising her brows.

"It's all over" I said and passed her a smile which I am sure didn't reach my eyes.

"What do you mean by it's all over" she said sitting on my bed and I was standing by the window gazing at the trees which were still.

"Not that we had anything but whatever we had is now over" I said and my heart clenched thinking of his words which he said in the morning.

"Oh God, Shaira please tell me you are kidding with me" she said turning me to face her. 

"I wish I was kidding, but this is the truth" I said without meeting her gaze but I still know she was looking at me like I have grown two heads.

"Shaira, is this the reason why Ayaan was getting worried yesterday?" She asked me keeping a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"I don't know why he is even worried" I said nonchalantly like talking about him wasn't hurting me even a bit.

"Oh, honey" She said and wrapped her hands around my waist.

I didn't reply, I just stood there with my head on her shoulders.

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"Ms. Shaira?" Mr Collins, our mathematics professor called out my name.

Mr.Collins is in his late forties, has a oval shaped face, he doesn't look old at all, in fact he looked to be in his early forties with blonde hair. As a professor he is rude, impatient and knows how to insult people. Given the fact that I hate Maths, he doesn't like me very much. Maths lecture is usually the last lecture of the day as it is combined with other classes too which means Ayaan and I share same class but the different is I chose to sit on the last bench and he is sitting on the third desk.

i stood up from my seat and walked down to take my assignment from him. Only I know how I completed this assignment all by myself that too in just two hours. All the concepts went straight above my head and eventually I ended up copying few questions from my fellow mates.

"Well, Ms. Shaira, your assignment was very impressive and I am sure you didn't do it by yourself" He said handing my assignment back to me with a wicked smile.

I cursed him for taunting me like this, like who does this! I am not a child, I am an adult who fully knows what she is doing. I didn't reply to him just stood there with my head bowed and the worst part was his insult was not over yet.

"I am afraid Shaira, the response you show in mathematics will not take you anywhere and I think it will be difficult for you to even clear this exam. I will recommend you to drop this subject and take something which you are capable of. Think before you take subjects and always go for subjects which you are capable of doing. After all Mathematics is not everybody's cup of tea!" He said to me with sarcasm dripping in his every word.

I so wanted to tell him to get lost and I know what I am capable of doing. Maybe I am a little weak in maths but that doesn't mean I am capable of doing it right.

"I will tutor her" someone said before I could answer and I was blown out of my wits when I turned to who it was!

I know I am not updating very often as my exams were going on and now I am free. 

Now you can expect quick updates from me!

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