Shaira's POV

Why now?

"Dear Diary,

I wish I could make my heart understand that it is okay to be broken sometimes,

I wish I could overpower my all senses and control them into not thinking about the person whom I thought is going to be my everything but he ended up destroying every piece of me,

I wish I could bluff my mind saying sorry for not listening to it when all my mind wants was my happiness,

Sorry for making you go through this pain which is there to say,

sorry for not listening to every fiber of mine when it said to walk away,

how should I control these emotions when they are freely flowing?

How should I make my heart stop beating as in every beat his name is there,

with his name now betrayal is there,

with betrayal, his breath is there which reeks of infidelity,

'He never claimed to be loyal to you any way' Nudged my mind,

making me realize how stupid I was all along,

I let him play with every part of me, He ruled my heart only to shatter it into uncountable pieces,

He ruled my mind only to break it, sculpt it in a way every nerve has his name imprinted,

I wish I had a delete button,

I would delete these four months when out of nowhere he stepped into my sorted life,

only to make it even worst,

I wish I could be as stubborn as I was in the starting ready to push him away,

But this stupid heart took all the wrong decisions,

Ended up giving some entrances whose exit I cannot find,

I wish I could mend all the broken pieces one by one,

Make it just the way it was previously,

But it is not possible and even if I want my heart, mind, soul and body is now tainted forever,

By only one person and no matter how much he tries to ease this pain with his so called love,

Damage is already done and now it is beyond repair.... "

Hurt.
Alone.
Defeated.
Betrayed.
Used.

Is what I felt when I was running on the streets barefoot. My legs were paining and pebbles were making their way into my Palm of the legs.

"Ouch" I whimpered when a small glass piece pierced right into my feet.

Fresh tears pooled into my eyes.  Why today?  I thought this day is going to be the most special day of not only Ayaan's life but mine also and today is indeed going to be special but in the most horrible, pathetic way.

"Ahhhh" I winced when with my bare hands I took out that small piece of glass and blood oozed out of it,  seeing the blood I cried even more. After few minutes I pulled myself together as i even if i want to stay here out there in a street which is all secluded, i am afraid what if Ayaan found me here and even after doing all this to me if he come near me i will melt in his arms. The way his eyes behold mine makes me weak even more. I didn't know love has that kind of power but now that I am in love with him and i cannot push him away even if i want to.

Running was something I detested and despised as it makes me dizzy but today with an injured leg somehow I managed to run around two kilometers and panting I reached the place which I never thought I will be standing  at this hour! I knock the Brown color door as hard as it was possible for me that my palms started to hurt and my head was ready to explode but no one came. Just when I turned to go somewhere else, someone opened the door , whom I couldn't recognize!

"Sorry is Olivia here?" I asked as normally as it was possible for me. The lady who was standing in front me looked elitely dressed and looked highly sophisticated. In comparison to her I was looking a mess. My hair were falling all over my face, eyes were puffy red, cheeks all wet due to all the crying I did, My dress was dirty as when that glass peireced into my feet I sat on the ground to take it out. On the top of that I was barefoot. I looked like a vagabond but when I asked her about Olivia she smiled at me.

"You must be Shaira?" She asked me instead of answering my question.

"Umm yeah." I said embarrassed and looked down at my feet. Why the hell I came here?  I should have gone straight to my apartment.

What looked strange was even after all this I was feeling oddly comfortable in that lady's presence. She looked familiar to me but she didn't looked like Olivia at all. Infact Olivia resembles her father more than her mother then whY it looked like I have seen those pair of beautiful blue eyes before?

"You should come inside honey. I think it will rain any minute. This weather I tell you is really treacherous. By the way Olivia will come soon she is out there with Chase. You come" she said and hurried me inside closing the door behind me. Her voice seemed melodious to me.

She didn't looked aged at all. She looked not more than forty, Her straight shoulder length hair, impeccable face, eyes like you will lost yourself in, chubby cheekbones, slender built. She looked a fine lady.

"Shaira please feel at home honey. What would like to have?" She asked me looking into my eyes which reflected affection for me.

Her smile was dazzling. She was a person whom I want to be like given the fact she is almost a complete stranger to me yet i still want to know more about her! Isn't all this strange instead of crying, I am curious to know more about this lady who is dressed in a black jeans and plain grey top. 

"I think I should go, just tell Olivia I was here" I said and when I was about turn towards the exit door her hand on my elbow stopped me. 

When her hand rested on my shoulder, I looked into her eyes, her eyes depicted some kind of pain which was maybe directed towards me. Maybe now I am hallucinating! But there was something in her eyes which intrigued me.

"Don't go" She said to me softly.

"I mean your feet shaira, blood is oozing out of it, Let me first clean it and then you should change your clothes too." She said covering her up and made me sit on the sofa, I was completely taken aback by her concern towards me. So what if she is Olivia's mother, she doesn't even know me!

"Ahh.... Its hurting" I squirm and closed my eyes as she was cleaning the blood by the savlon and It was hurting like anything!

"It will go away baby, It will" She purred and blow air on my feet, immediately all my pain subsided listening to her comforting words. Unknowingly she  was taking away my every physical pain with her soft hands caressing my feet and for once I forgot about what happened today. Maybe this is the magic of a mother's touch, she is capable of taking all your pain away, without you knowing...

"See its done. These are Olivia's clothes, room is right there, go and change. Till then I am making you dinner so come soon. Shaira, I think you should stay here, Its raining badly outside and Olivia is not going to come, its better if you stay, I will also get a company." She said with her eyes depicting a genuine concern for me and a smile which reached her eyes.

I couldn't respond to what she said so I stood up and went to Olivia's room washroom and stripped out of my clothes. I looked at my feet which was now covered with a white bandage so efficaciously that I was really impressed by the work she did.

After wearing black t-shirt and Black colored lower which she got me, I looked at myself in the mirror. I was completely horrified by the way I was looking, cheeks flushed, eyes which are blue were now turned black, I looked tired. As I was looking at myself something clicked inside me and when realization dawned at me I was terrified of that possibility.

"No NO nooooo, This is not possible...." I screamed to myself in the mirror and stepped back immediately until my back hit the wall.

" Shaira are you okay?" Her voice caught my attention and I started to quiver profusely. My legs were shaking and It was difficult for me to even stand on my own.

When I opened the door, she was there with her eyes wide full of concern and my cheeks were wet with the new tears that made its way from my eyes. I noticed the sharp similarity between the two of us. I looked exactly like her, same eyes, same structure of ears, cheeks, lips everything. I looked like a younger version of her. Her eyes widened when she noticed what I was doing and her eyes glistened.

"I can explain Sha..." She said but I cut her off mid sentence and throwing the towel on the bed I stormed past her.

"Don't. You have lost all the rights over me the moment you decided to dump me in that orphanage! So don't, save it" I said as harshly as it was possible for me. My throat was burning,my heart was again breaking all over and this time it was breaking my own mother who abandoned me and is the mother of my best friend.

why me, why today? My heart screamed from inside! Why my life is changing like this today? In couple of hours I have seen so much, why me?

"I am sorry but please listen to me shaira, please..." She implored but at that moment I just want to get the hell out of this house that too as soon as it was possible.

"Where were you when I was crying seeing other children's mother? Where were you when I came first in the class but I had no one to share this news with? Where were you when I needed you the most? Where were you when for the first time I got hurt while learning cycling! Where were you when I didn't have anywhere to go to? You were not there at that time and now any explanation of yours is not going to mend your relationship with me so don't, don't do this" I said to her and she looked as if she was going through a lot of pain but seriously!

With a sudden force she engulfed me in her arms and it was for the first time my mother, my own mother hugged me. I should have hugged her back but my hands were paralyzed that very moment. I couldn't hold her back, It felt heavenly to be in her arms, my heart ached all these years just to get this one hug and now that she is there hugging me I couldn't bare her touch. My mind was screaming at me to get away from her but I just stood there where she engulfed me tightly in her arms and cried, purred sorry into my ears, kissed my shoulders....

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