I ran like my life depended on it what just happened? Did we kiss I enjoyed it so much it scared me.

I still felt his lips on mine!

When I was sure he wasn't behind I got on the bus and sat at the back put my headphones on and listened to some music...

I felt like I cheated on Darren because Hy made me feel things my boyfriend failed to make me feel.

What does all of this mean? wait Darren is still my boyfriend?

An old lady sat next to me, I saw her mouth move but didn't hear a thing, I removed my headphones, and she told me she was worried she was late for her daughter's dinner she was meeting her boyfriend for the first time and I made her feel better.

We got off the same spot and as she went left I turned right and walked home kicking stones and smiling like a fool along the way.

I took a long breath and opened my door and walked in, is that pizza I'm smelling?

My mom smiled and showed me the box and I greeted her took a quick shower and joined her.

"Thank you, momma"

"How was your day baby"

"It was great just left Hy's place and came here"

"Okay don't forget the dishes and make sure the door is locked I'm tired need to rest now okay"

"Okay momma I love you"

"Love you too princess " then she kissed my forehead.

"Momma"

"Yes baby"

"Want some jasmine tea"

"Have I told you how much I love you" she laughed and went to her room.

I made her tea and took it to her switched my music on and began washing the dishes and making sure our house was locked.

I switched off the music and the lights and went to bed.

Fuck Hyacinth I dreamt of our kiss...

💫 💫💫💫💫💫💫

A week has passed since the kiss, I'm going to see him today and I'm not ready the only good thing is I had one class in the morning so I was done with school for the day.

I went to My mom's company and met Marie...

"Rai"

"Yes Mam "

"You ready"

"Nope"

"My little drama Queen"

She laughed got her bags and we drove to him...

The more the car approached his house my heart skipped a beat and I felt weird in my tummy are those the butterflies?

I'm inlove with Hy how?

She parked and we got everything out and went to knock...

Didn't need to post this but I couldn't enjoy it alone 😭😭he just looks so yummylicious😌😋

He opened the door and he was half naked what the hell why is my coochie doing weird things?

"Hi guys I'm sorry, thought you won't make it today "

"Hi Hy," we said in unison...

"Sorry let me go put my top on"

"If I was younger I'd say don't," Marie said laughing, and I thought my mom was weird.

I laughed and watched him walk off and I must say he looks so good.

He came downstairs with his black t-shirt and jeans and even when he doesn't try he looks hot.

I started cleaning the kitchen and rooms downstairs it wasn't bad he was trying to stop living like a pig.

Hy came and stood next to me.

"I'm sorry about last time"

I looked at him...

"I'm not!" What? that's not what I wanted to say, not to say I knew what I wanted to say.

He smiled and went upstairs.

I was cleaning the kitchen when I heard a knock ...

"Hy someone is knocking "

"Who can that be"

He opened the door and my mouth dropped to the floor Darren was furious his eyes were red and he looked mad.

He punched Hyacinth and he massaged his cheek Darren came for me "You whore you fucking bitch"

"Darren"

Before I could speak he punched me in the face and tummy, I thought people are exaggerating when they say someone punched the air off their lungs, and right now I can assure you it's not a lie.

I fell on the floor covering my tummy because the pain was unbearable, the tiles were a bit wet so it kept me up even though my mind needed time to recover so I didn't move.

He said one day I'll make him go to prison for a long time is this what he meant?

I don't know what's going on but Marie came running screaming while Hyacinth was on top of him punching him I wanted to get up but felt too weak.

Shock is a morherfucker if you ask me...

I've been with him for almost 2 years and he has never hit me he would grab me and say mean things but never hit me.

After that, a bloody Darren managed to run from Hyacinth.

Hyacinth carried me and put me in his truck while Marie drove that old thing and we left...

What,??

We got to the hospital I mean they are overreacting I'm fine, we got there and the doctor started asking me how many fingers were up 2 or 1 honestly I didn't care.

After laying on that bed for a while I was given something for the shock the doctor explained I have one broken rib and a concussion but could go home so Hyacinth drove me home.

I was not ready to talk I was numb, not mad or anything it all came to me, the red flags I ignored, the pain I swallowed, the bruises I hid from him grabbing me.

His outbursts, his anger issues the manipulation using his conditions to make me feel bad for him.

It all came back ...

Hy was by my side and even told Marie to go while we waited for my mom.

He took care of me this man that was once an ass has so much love why did he cheat?

My mom was finally home, Hyacinth might be tall but he's a baby and ran before he could meet my mom.

I cried and my mom held me she didn't need to say anything she just held me, made tea for me, and held me.

Woke up crying in the middle of the night and my mom came running to my room.

"Eat this baby" she handed me the green leaves from the lavender flower it helps with anxiety.

After a while, I was out like a light...

My mind could rest and I didn't have a nightmare thank you God for these nice herbs.

I woke up and went to brush my teeth, found a note my mom went to the shops and I had class around 14:00 so I could rest it was 09:00.

I looked at myself in the mirror and saw the bruise on my cheek, my eye was red my body and ribs still sore.

Fuck you, Darren!

I went to shower and felt better ... took my time to get ready...

My mom came back faster than I thought.

"Hi baby how are you"

"I'll be okay momma"

She hugged me...

"The bruise baby"

"I'll put some concealer on"

I went to eat so I can get ready for my class.

It was noon and I  got dressed and left I wore my shades I was not brave enough to face the stares.

I sat at the back again no music my brain was frozen and for that moment I couldn't listen to music,

My stop came and I went to school I was shaking, and I was terrified I saw what Darren could do he showed me another sight I hated he has many but that's the worst.

I walked to class with my head low...I had 1 class thank goodness...

"Sarai"

I looked back Noelle hugged me and we got in the ladies as I broke down and told her what happened.

She was ready to cut his balls I laughed she was always the momma bear after Nikki joined us and we sat outside.

Darren came to us I was still scared of him, they stood in front of me.

"Go anywhere near her we will kill you "

"Baby I'm so sorry I love you, I need you I take my pills I'm going to be better straighten up for you I promise you we will be okay"

Tears fell from my face.

"Leave her Darren"

"Baby don't be dumb no man will ever love you like I did, which man will stay with a virgin without sex for 2 years no man will ever love you"

"Darren"

"Baby "

I couldn't talk...

Hyacinth walked to where we were was I dreaming...

"Leave .... Come near her again and I will hurt you Boy"

Darren walked off saying...

"Hope he hurts you bitch"

He hugged me and it felt great ...

I introduced them to hyacinth and Noelle couldn't stop smiling.

After a while, we left in his very old-looking blue pickup truck ...

"Thank you "

"You don't have to thank me how are you feeling?"

"Like shit"

"It will be okay princess you'll see"

I smiled and he took me to the movies, it was so fun he's a nice guy.

"Why"

"Why what"

"You are amazing you're sweet and handsome and you're gentle in your love why cheat on your wife?"

"I was lost than I needed that fall from Grace to learn to live again remember"

He repeated what I said and I smiled ...

He held my hand and I felt safe...

So love is safety?