I wasn't ready for this day had class at 17:00 and I'm looking at my watch and it said 7:00 am damn I'm going to be late.

I quickly took my clothes and packed them in my backpack ain't no way in hell, I'm going to school dressed in dirty clothes after cleaning the house.

I was done and checked on my mom she was still sleeping so I left her a note and food.

I got on the bus and went to her company.

Marie came smiling.

"We need a better car are you sure we won't get stuck"

"Drama queen," she said laughing rolling those beautiful big green- eyes I love.

She drove to the house...

Fuck it was hot I hated summer no AC in this old thing amazing!!!!....the heat was too much.

The road looked deserted and the house was literally in the middle of nowhere it looked like a ghost house a gorgeous ghost house.

How can someone not take care of such a beautiful house?

We got out and I immediately wanted to run away.

"I'm doing this for my mom, I'm doing this for my mom" this was a reminder I needed to stop myself from running away.

"Let's do this "

We unloaded the cleaning chemicals and gloves everything.

"What about the garden"

"William will come and do it tomorrow don't worry about it"

Thank God, I know I don't have nice nails but don't see myself mowing the lawn.

We knocked and no word.

Knock -knock

"Is there a bell we can press Marie" she shook her head...

"No, let's keep knocking Hyacinth is here"

"Open the fucking door asshole" I accidentally said that out loud.

"Rai" Marie looked at me ...

"Sorry" putting my hands up to surrender...

Hyacinth Fucking Fox!!!

We knocked for a good 30 minutes with the asshole not opening up.

Marie called Betsy who took her sweet time to come open for us biting our ears off.

"I'm so sorry for this I'll talk to him"

"Thank you," we said, and then she left...

I swear a pig lives here...

The kitchen? Everything was dirty the toilet I can't even.

I went upstairs because we had to roll a coin to decide who is upstairs or downstairs and I was lucky enough to go upstairs.

I opened the first room and the smell hit my nose maybe a rat died here, this is what my mom deals with to put food on our table?

Remind me to buy her a big teddy bear thanking her for remaining sane God knows I wouldn't.

I opened the door and there was no one I started with the sheets and then cleaned the floors and walls it was easy it looked spotless.

I need wine...

To the 6th bedroom who would have thought this house was actually this beautiful?

"Ahhhhh" I screamed there was a very tall man sleeping with clothes on and boots he looked homeless did he find comfort here oh I forgot Hyacinth is here but I didn't know he was that tall.

"What"Marie came running .

"Look" I pointed at the man.

"Is he dead is it why it smells this bad?"she said smiling.

"Marie please be serious" she was being sarcastic and she laughed alone I was annoyed.

"Sorry baby good luck" she ran downstairs if she wasn't older than me I would have given her a piece of my mind.

I kicked his dirty boots....nothing

I poked him nothing...

What is he?

Just then I went to the bathroom to fetch a bucket filled with cold water I wanted ice too so I ran downstairs to fetch ice from the kitchen.

I poured it on him and he jumped from the bed...

"What the fuck is wrong with you "he's coarse sexy voice said that so loudly...

"Look you need to shower it smells in here and I need to do my job so getup I have class at 5 pm"

He gave me a look I couldn't read.  .....

"You didn't have to fucking drown me"

"Well you shouldn't have fucking slept like you're dead"

"What are you doing here" I closed my eyes begging God to help me before answering him.

"Here on a spa date trying to get my massage what do you think?"Said that in my most condescending voice.

"Do you know who the fuck I am?"

"Yes .....I know who you were?" Then literally looked at him challenging him...who doesn't know him and what he did it's not my business I don't even like him and his music...

He didn't say anything he went to the bathroom and shut the door heard the water and knew he went to shower thank God.

Finally got to clean the room and it smelled fresh he was out of the shower his nice long blonde hair was in a nice bun.

Fuck he's hot that I couldn't deny...

Marie was amazing we managed to clean the house and I checked the time it was 15:09 I'm on time but need to go to town and get another bus to school.

We were tired it was lunch time I didn't even pack lunch but Marie had sandwiches and lemonade for us she is heaven sent.

After eating he came downstairs...

What is wrong with him?

Marie went to pack because we had to go but I had to check on him I felt bad for pouring the water on him.

"I saved you food "

"I'm not hungry"

I hate being nice and someone returns it by being an ass makes my blood boil, I wanted to kick his balls but couldn't my mom needed this.

"Maybe you needed that fall from Grace so you learn what it means to be present in real life learn some fucking humility" I took the bread and threw it in the bin next to him pushing him out of the way.

He is tall don't know how I did that...

"What do you know princess "

"That flying that high just makes the fall harder and more painful I mean look at you" I looked at him...

I turned on my heels and left when I got in our van we drove back the clouds were gathering shit it was going to rain.

"What did you say to him?"

"I gave him much-needed advice and food" then smiled...

"You are your mother's child" she laughed.

When I got to school I quickly changed in the ladies.

The class was not a breeze I was tired and kept falling asleep.

I walked out getting ready to go home and saw Darren with Onica.

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"Darren"

"Yea"

"Darren can we talk please" why am I even doing this our relationship died a long time ago.

"Onica is my girl you can say whatever you want"

"What's wrong why are you mad at me? I tried to call you"

"Like I said I misplaced my phone"

"Can you please drive me home I'm tired because...." he cut me off he does this a lot lately.

"Look I need to go somewhere plus I gave you enough last time"

Onica was next to him smiling at me that little bitch.

"If you don't want me anymore say it stop being a coward" he charged at me looking angry.

"Okay, you want the truth? I'm sick of pretending that this is a relationship, Rai"

"What?... we have been together for 2 fucking years Darren"

"2 years of you sucking my dick isn't a relationship, it's clear you don't trust me enough to get me in that pussy"

"You are causing a scene Darren" tears gathered in my eyes...

"What are you ashamed that you are still a virgin?" He got louder...

"Everyone meet my innocent girlfriend of 2 years who doesn't want me to fuck her but I can't fuck other girls, she is still a virgin," he said laughing ...

I tried to slap him but he painfully grabbed my wrist I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get another bruise ...

" Try that again Rai I swear to God..."

"You'll what hit me? Do it show everyone what a monster you are" I mean that was brave he hasn't hit me but he does grab me a lot.

He walked away and Onica winked at me, I stood there frozen in one spot because some students that heard laughed, I don't know how but I managed to leave.

Got on the bus with my headphones on and at the back looking out the window crying.

It was dark and I couldn't wait to get home.

I loved Darren but still wanted to wait I wasn't ready for sex and I couldn't force myself.

I cried the whole way there I don't know why it hurt because he humiliated me or that I know I should be walking away but for some reason, I'm not.

I made a promise not only to my mom but to myself to at least lose my virginity when I'm 21 and won't break it for anyone.

.......flashback...

"What baby"

"Mommy what's sex"

"Something you should stay away from till you're at least 21"

"Momma"

"Baby you're 16 I had you when I was 16 I just don't want you to know what it's like after I told your dad he said he wasn't ready and then left"

"I know momma"

"And your grandparents said I had a bright future so I had to choose you or school"

"Okay"

"Look I don't regret you ever you're the best gift God has blessed me with just wait till you're 21 so you're ready for any sexual consequence"

I laughed ...

"That's not a thing momma"

"Promise me you will wait"

"I will wait till I'm at least 21"

We pinky promised and she kissed my cheek.

"I love you and want the best for you"

"I know mommy I love you too"

.........End of flashback......

"Baby"

"Hey momma"

"What's wrong baby"

"Just....its nothing momma"

"You know you can talk to me baby"

I stood near our stand and looked at my mom.

"I know mommy  Darren humiliated me in front of other students because I'm a virgin I don't regret being one he's just"

"A fucking idiot I won't say leave him you know what's best for you"

"Momma," I said laughing.

"I'm proud of you"

"Thank you, momma"

"Baby promise me that you will never love a man more than you love yourself okay"

I nodded...

"Remember when you loved going to the beach and you would build castles over and over ?"

I nodded.

"You would build a big one , hate it say it's not good enough , sit and make it again ?"

"Yes momma"

"Why is it so hard for you to destroy this relationship and start something new you deserve better ?"

"Okay momma"I used to be brave now I omt know if I am anymore.

I threw the keys on our stand took my shoes off and joined my mom on the couch.

"How was it"

"Just okay I'm tired need a hot shower and my bed "

"Did you pour ice water on him"

"In my defense, his room had a bad smell and he was not moving, I thought he was dead mom I needed to make sure" my mom laughed, she knows I lied.

"You are your mother's daughter"

We laughed and I kissed her goodnight.

After showering I put on my pj's and checked my phone and told Nikki what happened and she was so angry.

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The following day I ignored him, I could hear them laugh, he was the rich kid the one people loved for the wrong reasons.

Darren is an asshole I'm sure...

Nikki came and we walked to class together.

Behind us walked Darren's friends.

"Imagine having all that ass and not getting any"

"At least he has Onica"

"Imagine having that big ass head with no brain what a tragedy?" he turned around to find me looking at him after I said that.

"He's still fucking Onica and other girls behind your virgin ass stupid little girl" Nikki wanted to fight him but I held her back they are not worth it.

Walking away doesn't mean you're weak I just realized Toxic and his friends are genuinely stupid and not worth it!

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