I looked outside my hotel window and the number of paparazzi there made me want to be swallowed by the ground.

I needed to get to my lawyer /friend maybe he can help me come up with a solution to the mess I have created.

I used the underground exit and as soon as I saw them coming for me I sped off to my lawyers office fuck he has no underground parking.

As soon as I parked they were all over asking me questions I have no answers for.

"Why would you do that to me Hyacinth?

I thought of Kehleni"s question...

"Mr Fox is it true"

I got out of the car and ran to my lawyer/friends office.

"It's a PR nightmare Hughes"

"How many times have I told you stop fucking everything that wears a skirt"

"Hughes"

"No...Fox look at this"he threw the magazines at me , I was mortified looking at the explicit pictures of me with about 10 different women.

"Fuck"

"She wants a divorce and wants everything even the kids"

"What"

"Yes that's what you get for fucking every woman you met"

"Thanks for the support"

"It's not the time Fox why the fuck didn't you sign the prenup"

"I was In love"

"Guess you forgot that once you started cheating huh? Look you're trending on twitter "

"Hughes we should speak to...."

"They all quit did you forget you fucked your team too"

I rolled my eyes .....I've fucked up and have no one to blame but myself.

After the meeting I didn't have anywhere to go Kehleni had changed the locks and my accounts were frozen not that she left me with anything, now I had to be homeless.

Luckily I kept money and could pay for a cheap motel , it was going to be hard this was only the beginning I honestly didn't mean for all this to happen.

I loved my wife at one point everything was perfect , the fame got to my head I was a nerd growing up didn't have time for girls just books.

When I met Kehleni she introduced me to a life I thought I needed.

We had our first a boy ,after a year of marriage then had the second a girl.

I loved being a father but somewhere along the way I lost myself .

I loved travelling ,I loved the wild parties actually the first time I cheated was with one of my PR team she was beautiful.

We were drunk while touring and one thing led to another it was like I was addicted to cheating it made me feel alive but now I feel dead.

Kehleni found out about others and seeing her cry because of me hurt me but not enough for me to stop.

To be honest seeing her that crazy I know I did that, years of being cheated on changed her and made her bitter that the light she had was now off.

I finally fell asleep after tossing and turning wondering how tomorrow was going to go .

Here I was getting ready to meet the lawyers for my divorce she had, had enough and I honestly didn't blame her.

I looked at her tear stained face, she had wrinkles , her smile was gone and all she said was "you won't destroy my kids like you did me" she was telling the truth I failed being a good husband how could I be a better dad I wouldn't know where to start.

She took everything and I was left with nothing, the proof of explicit pictures were enough for her to destroy me.

I didn't blame her though.

Still couldn't she leave me a car?

After that I went to the local bar and had to go because of those damn paparazzi's.

A few months later !!!!!

A call came through and it was my Aunty Betsy.

I wonder how she knew I needed her it's been months of me being homeless from one shelter to another who would have thought?

I wasn't smart with finances Kehleni took care of them as long as I had enough for partying or whatever  I didn't care don't even remember the last time I went to the grocery store.

"Aunty"

"You need to come home Hy"

"I can't even afford it she took everything"

"Well I'll buy you a ticket I need to talk to you so make sure you fly here today "

"Yes mam "

I thought of my aunt and uncle they have never once hated me for leaving them, after graduating high school I got "discovered" I left them even when I gave them money every month I never wanted to see myself home.

I gave them all up and now I've lost it all.

The thing is I lost my parents after I was born so  Aunty Betsy (being my mother's older sister )and uncle Scott  took me in and they are the only family I have and know.

I got in the cold shower and started showering only to find most of my stuff gone , they were stolen I searched on my pockets and one thing I've kept all my life was a locket of my parents pictures Aunty made it for me it was gold and I loved it I found it thank goodness.

Money wasn't  enough money couldn't buy me my respect back ,after realising  I've really reached rock bottom I got on the plane back home.

20 hours later I was home I took my one bag and left through the airport's exit I guess it was better than being homeless.

It didn't take long for me to spot my Uncle's blue pick up truck he came to fetch me.

This truck has a lot of memories from teaching me how to drive, to me taking Kehleni on dates using it and having sex in it, if he knew that he would have castrated me.

We were quiet driving to the house I was ashamed I had nothing left to say.

After a song about love played I had questions for my uncle .

"Uncle Scott"

"Yes son"

"What's the best advice someone gave you about love"

"The grass ain't always greener on the other side" he said smiling showing his dimples...

"How's that good advice"

"Because look outside he pointed 2 houses one with an amazing lawn and one with an okay one, you would think from that house the other grass is amazing but you don't know the blood and sweat it took to make it that nice"

"Huh"my uncle has lost it....

"Look what I meant was Betsy isn't Perfect and that's why I love her if I would look at another woman she might look perfect or whatever but she won't be her I can go to her thinking she's better but the truth is she isn't and my Betsy has and will always be enough for me"

"I cheated Uncle"

"Me and a million people know that but I know you better than them, you didn't love Kehleni all this is easier when you truly love someone not tolerate son but LOVE"

I guess it made sense I do apologize to her and our kids I made them part of my mess.

"I didn't love her ?is that what you're saying"

"Only you can answer that son"

"Love is patient ,love is kind...."

"Can you honestly say that's what you felt for Kehleni? Or you loved what you got from her?"

"Thank you Uncle I need a moment to think about that"

He nodded and continued playing songs then played my song "I wanna know love"

"Really"

He has a wicked sense of humour ....I remembered why and when I wrote that song and just like that I understood I never loved Kehleni  "Fuck".

I need to fix this one day at a time .

He explained how he's taking me to the house I bought them at first I was hurt but then I remembered that their house was in a busy street and obviously the attention would be on me .

This house was a bit far from their house in the middle of nowhere surrounded by farms and a lake I loved it because Aunty loved nature.

When I bought it I thought she would love it but I guess she hated how big it is 6 bedrooms was a lot for them .

Uncle Scott helped me out and gave me the keys and drove away .

Yeap I was home why is it that when you run away from something the fucking road always leads you back to that same place?

This was my new reality and I had no clue how I will move forward...

𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓴 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓐 𝓯𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮❤️