The first class went without a hitch and he went to his 2nd class. While he was walking to the classroom, someone speaks,

"Hey Yunho! Why look so tired? Got another boy again to fuck you last night? Hahahaha!"

Yunho just lowered his head and rushed to his classroom but was once again stopped as someone literally stopped in front of him making him bump his chest to the guy's chest.

"Hey, I'm talking to you. Be polite and answer me fucker."

Yunho just stands there still with his head lowered. He didn't even know the guy's name. He only wishes that the guy will be bored of him and walk away.

That is not the case apparently.

Suddenly Yunho only registered that his head collided with the walls and pain flared. He was so stunned and in pain that he could only slide himself down but was still looking to the ground. He whimpered silently as the minor headaches that he has in the morning burst into a major one.

The guy grab Yunho's collar before laughing and said,

"Maybe you want me to fuck you and only then you will know not to ignore me huh bitch?"

Yunho starts to tremble and says in a small voice,

"Please let me go."

"Urgh you are no fun."

The guy then once again pushed Yunho hard so that his head collided with the wall again before the guy straightened up and walked away.

Yunho had stayed in his position for a minute before he had the courage to stand up again though shakily before making his way to the toilet.

Once he was in one of the toilet stalls, he collapsed on top of the seat and cried silently.

I was drunk and got fucked by someone once and all hell let loose. I didn't even remember the details but the pain was there.. The way that guy pushed into me painfully.. The way he disgustingly wandered his hands all over me.. I don't want it too Mingi ah.. But I don't know why I can't seem to stop him.. I don't want this.. I want you only.. Why is this happening to me.. Everyone keeps yelling and won't even let me speak.. I hate this.. I hate myself so much..

Yunho breaks down even more and he shakily wipes his tears on his face before trying and failing to get a breather.

After a suffocating 15 minutes, Yunho finally can get his breathing in control though his hands are still trembling and his headaches blaring inside. He takes a few deep breaths before walking out of the stall and washing his face at one of the sinks, still refusing to see himself in the mirror.

He is late to his class. Yunho can feel his anxiety perk up as he silently contemplates whether or not to go to his class or just skip and go to his part time job.

Feeling more and more anxious, Yunho decided to skip as he didn't think he could take the stares of his classmates and professor for being late.

With slumped shoulders, Yunho sighs and goes out of the toilet and silently walks to his part time job at a small bookstore.

While he is walking, he checks his phone. Like usual, there are several messages from different numbers that he doesn't know who it belongs to but with similar types of messages.

- Hey cutie, how bout you answer my message today and I can come to your house and have a nice night with you?-

-Hey how does it feel to be fucked everyday with different people? Must be nice to have a beautiful face like yours huh?-

-Hey faggot, you didn't die yet? Kill yourself.-

The last message really stops Yunho on his track. His lips start to wobble and tears threaten to come out but Yunho bites his lips and tries to control the tears.

I would have done it if I'm strong enough. I don't even have the courage to end myself. So pathetic of me..

Yunho shakes his head before continuing walking to the bookstore.

As he arrived at the bookstore, he went to greet the owner.

"Hello Hyunwoo hyung."

Shownu was startled as he didn't realize that Yunho had come silently into the store before smiling,

"Hey Yun, you're a bit earlier today? Aren't you supposed to be in your class right now? Did something happen?" asked Shownu with a worried face.

Before Yunho could answer him, he heard a voice from one of the bookshelves.

"WHAT? Are you okay Yunho ah? Are you hurt? Who is the bitch that I need to kill?!"

Yunho is stunned but keeps silent.

"Hun, you're not helping. Don't scream or Yunho might faint." says Shownu chuckling slightly.

Kihyun blushed a little but he still went to Yunho and checked the younger if he had any wounds.

"You're not bleeding, that's good. So what happened?" Kihyun asked

Yunho cast his eyes downwards and shakes his head a little,

"Nothing happened Ki hyung, I was late to the 2nd class so I thought I might just skip it and come here."

Kihyun narrowed his eyes towards Yunho but nodded anyway.

"It's fine if you don't want to talk about it, but remember that me and Hyunwoo are here for you. So, did you eat?"

Yunho nodded.

"When?"

Yunho blushed in embarrassment. He is caught. Sighing a little he answers,

"This morning.. Mingyu hyung gave me a sandwich.."

Kihyun's eyes went big for a second before he glared at Yunho and Yunho could only lower his head.

"It's 3pm and you have nothing but a small sandwich in the morning. Tsk. I'm going to get you something to eat. No excuses." Kihyun puffed and went upstairs where he and Shownu lived.

Shownu just shakes his head in amusement before he went to Yunho and ruffles his hair,

"Yunho ah, you do know that the offer still stands right? Both of us are very willing to take you in and stay with us so at least you can cut one of your jobs and focus on your health and study more."

Yunho just smile sadly before shaking his head,

"It's fine hyung. I really don't want to trouble you guys. It's already embarrassing enough that you guys know what I'm struggling with and making you guys saw I broke down.."

"You won't trouble us I promise you that. We are just worried. You seem to get too thin now Yunho.. And your eyebags are more prominent. Did you have any attacks these few days?"

"Just small ones but I can handle it. I promise."

"Your inhaler? Still good? Or you need a new one? I can get it for you."

Yunho again shakes his head.

"It's fine. Really. Don't worry hyung, I will let you know if I need a new one."

Shownu nodded and hugged Yunho before telling him to arrange the new books at the back.

Yunho is very thankful for his two hyungs. He had broken down two months ago at the back of the bookstore because he felt like he won't have time for his assignments and keeping up with his jobs that he went hyperventilating and had made Shownu and Kihyun panicked.

[Yunho?! What happened? OMG Woo come here! I think Yunho's going to faint!]

Shownu had left whatever he was doing and rushed to the back of the bookstore only to see Kihyun's panicked face while trying to calm Yunho down who is very well hyperventilating and crying.

[Hey Yun.. Calm down.. Come on pup.. You're fine, we are here. Your hyungs are here..]

Yunho can't seem to hear whatever his hyungs told him and breathing harshly and crying before he felt the tightening feeling in his chest.

Assignments.. Part time jobs.. Can I really manage all this? I don't think I can.. I can't breathe.. Mingi ah.. Where are you..? Please please please... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.. I'm sorry..

[I think he.. I think he's having an asthma attack too Woo. He's wheezing. What are we going to do?]

Shownu then told Kihyun to try and see if Yunho had his inhaler in his backpack and Kihyun ran so fast to find it.

[Okay Yunho, I'm going to touch you alright? It's just me, Hyunwoo hyung.]

Whether or not Yunho had heard him, Shownu slowly touched Yunho's shoulder and when Yunho seemed to be ok with it he grabbed Yunho and put him on his lap, Yunho's back touching his chest and he slowly ran his hand on Yunho's chest and back.

[Breathe slowly Yunho ah.. Breathe slowly.. Come on.. Take a deep breath.. That's it. Try to match your breathing with mine.]

Yunho had struggled to take a deep breath when he finally could hear Shownu's voice and his hands that were clutching his chest are now on top of Shownu's thigh clutching Shownu's pants.

[I found it!]

Kihyun then shows up and he kneels beside Yunho and Shownu before trying to get the inhaler onto Yunho's mouth.

After the third puff, Yunho's breathing gradually became better and he had stopped crying but still trembling.

Yunho had let his head fall on Shownu's shoulder as the hyperventilating and an asthma attack took a toll on him.

[Deep breathe Yunho. That's it]

Yunho didn't know what happened after that as he let his eyes close and when he opened it, he was on a bed that he didn't recognize.

Before he can start to panic again thinking that a stranger had him again, Kihyun popped his head in the room and Yunho visibly relaxed.

[Hey pup, how are you feeling?]

Yunho lowered his head and blushed in embarrassment.

Kihyun saw this and he sighs silently before he went to Yunho and took a seat beside him. Yunho didn't know what to say and he was punishing himself in his head for breaking down in front of the two nicest hyungs and he thought that they would fire him and he had to find another job.

[Stop overthinking. I know what you're thinking right now. No Yunho, we won't fire you.]

Yunho was stunned and he looked at Kihyun.

[What happened Yunho ah? You can tell me. I won't judge you.]

Yunho sighs. Kihyun saw him hesitate so he grabbed Yunho's head and pulled it towards his chest before running his hand onto Yunho's back.

This made Yunho cry before he hugged Kihyun's waist and told him what happened.

Half a year ago. That dreaded night. How he got drunk. How he didn't remember letting the boy get into the house and into his bedroom. How he didn't remember any of it. How he was in pain when he woke up only to get yelled in the face from Mingi. How he can't even register what happened to the boy as the other members shouts at the boy to get the hell out of the house. How everything is messed up. How everyone keeps yelling and won't let him speak. The face Mingi made as Mingi looked at him. The face everyone made when they look at him. How he tried to tell them he didn't remember and he didn't want it. How they don't believe him. He moved out. His parents disowned him and didn't even ask him if he did it willingly. How no one asked him if he's alright. How he stayed at a sauna for a month. How he has a few part time jobs, classes and all.

When Kihyun heard the story, he could only cry before hugging Yunho tightly. So much had happened to the younger boy and Kihyun felt the need to protect him. Though when Yunho had not really smiled and always answered with a short answer and small voice, he and Shownu sometimes caught Yunho smiling when he saw a picture of cute animals in one of the books in the bookstore. The incident must have closed up Yunho's real personality and Kihyun pledged to himself that he wanted some of Yunho's personality to come back. One at a time.

Shownu had heard Yunho's story as he was standing by the door and he too felt the need to protect the younger boy.

Shownu then came into the bedroom and hugged both Kihyun and Yunho tightly.