Iwazumi's POV

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That guy really pisses me off.

A lot. 

Oikawa is the only person who makes me question my emotions like this. He makes me so angry but at the time he is the one person who's brought me so much happiness in my life.  I've known that I fell for him a long time ago. But i'll never tell him. It'll ruin everything for us. And I don't ever want to face a one sided love. Hell, he isn't even gay! And even if he was, i'd be his last choice. 

But I still can't help but think about him. All the time. His smile, the way he flips his hair out of his face, even his annoying antics. He's so quirky, but I love him anyways. 

Lately though, he hasn't been the foolish, happy Oikawa I know he is. He'e been more of a idiot then he usually is. Our volleyball team had been beaten so much lately and I know Oikawa has been blaming himself. He's been pushing himself too hard lately. Almost to the point where he breaks. Not getting enough sleep, not eating- not to mention he just gives out this depressing vibe whenever anyone is around him. I'm worried about him. More then I have ever before.

I want him to be happy. I want us to be happy together . But first I need to know what his issue is. Because right now he isn't the boy I admire. He's just someone who shares the same body. 

I want the old Oikawa back.

A million thoughts were running through my head as I walked over to his house. What was I going to say? Would he even want me over? Is he ok? Too late to turn back now I guess. 

I stood outside his large front door in the snow. Every year I come over on Christmas Eve and hang out, wrap presents for our family, and eat lots of food. His mom always makes gingerbread cookies and Oikawa always forces me to put the star on top of the tree. I usually look forward to hanging out with that idiot, but this year i'm questioning it. But whatever, I was freezing so I hesitantly knocked on the door.

I waited but heard some soft grumble from the other end of the door and it slowly opened and a sleepy Oikawa. I sighed. 

"Were you just sleeping Shittykawa?"I asked him as he smiled a little bit and stepped out of the way for me to come inside. 

"Of course not!" Oikawa said with a slight smile. "Though, that would be nice. But my parents aren't here because they got snowed in while visiting some distant family." he said. 

"Oh.. then what the hell smells so good?" I ask because, damn. It did smell amazing in here. It smelled like... Christmas. I thought as I took off my snow covered boots at the door.  

"Oh! Since my mom isn't here I just made the gingerbread cookies without her... of course they didn't turn out to great and I need your help frosting them and stuff but they'll probably taste good... maybe? OH! AND I ALSO PUT UP THE CHRISTMAS TREE!" he said. I couldn't help but smile though, he was actually sounding like himself today. I stared at him as he grinned like the idiot he is. I couldn't help it. His smile just made me smile. 

"I'm kinda surprised that you didn't burn the house down while you were making the cookies." I say. 

"OH do you wanna see them?! They look really fancy!" Oikawa says grabbing my arm and dragging me into the kitchen where a whole bunch of gingerbread cookies were laid out on the counter.  They looked kinda disgusting though. Every single one of them were brunt and some were to the point to where they were falling apart. 

"Dumbass, they're all brunt!" I say with a sigh. Oikawa just shrugs in response as he grabs the bowls of icing he had prepared in advance.

"That's okay! We can just fix it up with a lot of frosting... right?" he looks over at me as he sits the bowls down in front of us. I simply shrugged and Oikawa smiled "well then... Lets get to work!" 

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We ended up spending two hours decorating the cookies because Oikawa had to make them "perfect" and "the way he wants them" while I, on the other hand just slopped a bunch of icing on it and called it good. 

"IWA-CHAN!" I heard a shriek from the living room. I immediately hopped out of my chair rushing in there, nearly falling down TWICE to find Oikawa holding the Christmas star in his hand with a huge grin on his face "LOOK! I FOUND THE STAR!!! PUT IT ON THE TREE PUT IT ON THE TREE!" He said shoving the star in my face as if I couldn't see it before. 

"Fine fine!" I say, snatching the star from his hand. I looked down at the heavy, silver star in my hands. It held so many memories... like the time we threw it at Oikawa's  father when we were seven, and the very first time I put the star on the tree. I don't even remember how old we were. I wasn't even part of their family and yet they treat me like I am. I really enjoy spending time with both Oikawa and his family.  They are literally my second family. 

"Go on Iwa-chan!" Oikawa said, shoving me towards the tree.  He watched as I reached up and placed the silver star on top of the tree. I then took a step back beside Oikawa. No words were exchanged. We just stood there and looked at the tree that seemed to light up in the dim light that came from the kitchen. The ornaments that swung from the tree shined. But it wasn't the tree that I thought was beautiful just then. It was Oikawa. 

I really do love this guy...

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AGH THIS CHAPTER! I love Iwazumi. He's a sweet little chicken nugget.  Anyways, thanks for reading! Please remember to vote and comment what you think! THANKS A BUNCH! XD