[Edited 5/1/21]

It seems like a dream in weird and twisted ways. Everyone gathered around the trench I had made to lower the Elder's body into my star's core. Everything was deathly still as if I was all alone like in the beginning. It was very eerie and unnerving for me as I looked around at the citizens of my star. They all had their head bowed as a low chanting was heard throughout the crowd. It felt lonely for a split second as I felt something brushed up against me. Looking to my side I saw one of the twins standing there. I believe this is the twin named Kanro? It has to be since the Lumerian was wearing red and had reddish-orange hues towards them. The other twin was on the opposite side of the Red twin and only bowed their head in silence. It must be extremely painful to keep calm when losing a very close figure in your existence.

The chanting silenced as I felt the light tap on the right shoulder as I saw Burakku standing there holding a sheathed sword and a totem of the Elders praying stand. That is right, Elder wished for me to announce the next after their passing. So Burakku already knew about this but couldn't face the Elder in their dying moments. Lightly taking the sword from Burakku and the totem as I wrapped it around the guard of the sword. Burakku motioned someone forward as I could tell that this young one was a Snowy Owl Lumerian. A very fragile frame but had good posture. Over time I could see growth, nodding my head I moved forward as I held the sword horizontally as Burakku moved forward nudging the Lumerian forward with him.

I can feel my breath hesitate as the rattle of the chimes on the sword chimed bringing me back from my thoughts. Is this what nervousness feels like? Unable to keep a straight track of thought? All these emotions seem very unfamiliar to me but they must be normal? I've seen all of them in others... So how come this makes me feel like not myself? Was I created to not feel these strong emotions or I can feel them but ignored them for so long? It was all so confusing, to say the least. Reaching the edge of where the crack was formed to my core, I turned around and faced the villagers. Burakku stopped and nudged the young Lumerian forward before lowering himself into a kneeling bow. The rest followed after Burakku as the young Lumerian's senses flared in astonishment and confusion.

Taking a deep breath and releasing it, I raised the volume of my voice for everyone to hear as I spoke, "It has been a century since the previous Elder came to our cozy home on my star and gave much advice and told many inspiring stories to the young one. Unfortunately, fate had a cruel ending for our dearly beloved Elder, they knew it was a matter of time and had the plans to advance before they knew anything like this to happen," I watched as Burakku shifted his weight. He knew as well, biting my lip as I knew that it was only a matter of time before everyone broke into tears, "however, Elder had plans to announce their successor, a young Lumerian who was studying underneath them. For half of a decade, they have taught them so much and given the successor time to grow and learn however it is time to step up to the seat of elder. Everyone I, Kur, the star of the Neverland of Dreams, announce this young Lumerian," the name came out like honey. Like I had known it before I even have seen them, "Seimi, Seimi of the Snowy Owl breed Lumerians. I congratulate you on the title of Elder. Now kneel so I can formally announce the title with full commitment."

The young Lumerian kneeled and bowed their head. I grabbed the sheath and pulled the blade out and held it in front of my sight. It felt natural to hold a sword this way. But why is that? I was a star of peaceful traits? Narrowing my sights on the blade of the sword to focus. Darn thoughts not now. Lowering my blade turning the sharp edge away from the Lumerian's neck I lightly tapped each side of their shoulders as I heard the cheering and chanting of the others. I gave a small smile before sheathing the sword once more and presenting it to the young Lumerian as Burakku got up from kneeling and nodded his head.

It was a pleasure to see the soft faint smiles on the faces of the others as they all cheered. I was certainly different from the aura earlier. Very different. It makes me happy and at ease when I see such happiness in my villagers. Smiling at my villagers as they surrounded the Lumerian and picked them up and held them above the heads of the others cheering and congratulating the new elder. I gave a light chuckle as Burakku came walking closer shaking his head. "Well isn't this quite the scene Kur?" Burakku asked as he stood beside me. I glanced at him and gave a gentle nod as I looked onward to the others. Today will be a day of celebration towards life and onto a new day. Giving a small smile once more I nodded my head and turned to Burakku.

"I suppose we should start celebrating with them? Cause today is a new day and it should be celebrated, correct?" I chuckled at the end as Burakku gave a half-smile and shook his head. I admit it was amusing watching everyone. But what else was supposed to happen? Everyone is happy and celebrating as they all danced around. "Aye, I suppose we should.... hey Kur?" Burakku looked at me, "are you happy with us on your star?" Burakku puzzled me with this question. Was I happy? Of course, I was, I was made for everyone. Wasn't I? Creator gave me this role. I was happy. Why would he question this? Was there something that was bothering him? Or was it how I was expressing myself? I was aware of my lack of physical reactions to certain emotions. Was that the case?

"Of course, I am very grateful for every one. Everyone is finding happiness being here..... Well except for the loss of a dear friend, a dear beloved one, a beloved leader. But no worries, will we continue our goals and our dreams correctly?" I gave a slight tilt to my head as I watched Burakku's facial expression. I could feel the slight uneasiness lessen before Burakku gave a light smile and placed his hands on his hips. It felt like there were some tensions in the air but it was interrupted by the sweet honey voice calling out to both of us. Turning my gaze towards the crowd I could see the red twin phoenix's hand waving us over. "Aren't you going to join the feast you two?" she sang happily. I could still feel the faint sadness in the young one but they were trying their best to be happy for the celebration. Burakku chuckled and gave a wave back.

"Just give us a second more to say goodbye to a beloved member of our village," Burakku shouted back as the twin phoenix gave a saddened smile and nodded her head. She headed back to the festivities and Burakku sighed and looked back at me. "So shall we return to the others?" he chuckled once more, "we shouldn't make the others wait and worry for us." I gave a nod of my head and we both walked towards the large crowd. Everyone was singing and dancing around the bonfire they created. Joining the crowd they all bowed their heads towards me before going back to what they were doing. They all respect me for what I stand for, for giving them a safe and harm-free solar-system to live and grow. That was what the Creator had made me for. Right? So many questions and alienated feelings that I am feeling are causing me to question my own creation. What is going on, Creator? Why am I feeling all of this?

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The festivities long ended as everyone has laid to rest for the evening. Many were tired from all the dancing and singing their hearts out. I am relieved that they all had a wonderful time. Sitting on the edge of the cracked surface I looked down into my star's core. So bright yet I feel so dull. Sighing I looked at the coffin wrapped with patterns that the Lumerians have done in celebrations reminding them of the Elder. What a generous thing for one's passing. Giving thought I lifted my hand to watch both my hand and the coffin glow a light aqua blue before the coffin lifted and came closer to me. Giving a small smile I began to lower the coffin into the cracked surface. It was sad to see a beloved resident on my star go. But all things have a small span of time. Even I will meet mine but I do not wish to think of such things. After the coffin was fully into the hole.

Sighing heavily as I stood and looked around wearily for anyone near the edge of the cracked surface. Seeing that no one is around or near me and the cracked surface. Giving a deep breath I made both hands and the edges glow in a light aqua blue and with great ease, I pulled the sides together and the surfaces became smoothed once more. Giving a small smile I returned to the spot I was sitting at the edge and just sat on my knees and looked up into the vast skies. It was full of bright stars. All were colorful and shiny stars along with several bright comets passing by, but I doubt any of them see me. They are still magnificent in colors and brightness. I admire those who shine brightly though I feel like I am a smaller existence in this universe. Sighing I heard the light tapping of footsteps before stopping to the side of me. "May I join you, Kur-sama?" the light feminine voice spoke softly.

Looking up I saw the reddish-orange phoenix standing there waiting for permission to sit next to me. Formal, just like her parental figure. A very well mannered role model, giving a little faint smile I patted the surface next to me, "you do not need to gain my permission to sit beside I, it is too formal to my liking I welcome many to sit and join a simple company," I stopped patting the surface beside me and placed my hand back into my lap. She gathered her skirt in one hand and kneeled down next to me before sitting, adjusting her skirt to have her legs to the outer side of the side and made sure the skirt of her attire was splayed like a frilled mess. I could feel the heavy atmosphere around her. The aura feels like a grieving one.

I looked more closely at her facial expression, she was holding back so much and trying to be strong. I knew the sudden death of their parental figure was devastating to them. Giving myself a moment to think I gently set a hand on her shoulder as she looked over to me. "It is alright to cry in front of me," she gave a shocked look towards me, "I may not know the true emotions like many of you but I am here to grant thy comfort for others." I felt her aura spike as tears seemed to well up on the inner lines of her eyelids. Her body language hinted towards a show of tears as I opened my arms. She sort of threw herself onto me weeping and just clinging onto dear life off of me. At first, I was shocked at the pure motion of such force but soon recomposed myself before slightly embracing her more.

Her tears came like waterfalls, streaming consistently with no end in sight. Rubbing the small nap of her back I hummed softly to try and soothe her. It seems to be working on soothing her, as her breathing became less pitching and more of a deep heave in being able to calm herself down. But I still continued to rub her back and hum softly. It's the only thing I could think of, no words can change what happened to her parental figure. But there are only physical interactions that can help start the healing process. Her embrace on me was still strong and viced onto the fabric of my clothing. She was strong in her own unique ways but I was not really looking for a way to get out of her embrace. Her emotions were everywhere and needed someone to be there for her.

It felt like forever that we have sat here and her endless tears, but she began to fall limp in my arms. Could she have tired herself out by crying on me? If that is the case then her emotions have drained her to a bitter end. Sighing with contempt I gently shifted around my weight and position and got in a perfect position to pick up the female Lumerians and stand to my full height. Looking down I could see the tear-stained face along with the peaceful face of the Lumerian. Giving a weak smile I walked towards the hut where she and her twin reside alone. The streets were empty as everyone was fast asleep. Coming upon the hut the beaded entrance swayed around to reveal the twin standing there worried before the facial expression changed to a more relieved look. So they were worried when the younger twin didn't return. "I am deeply sorry to trouble you Kur-sama I did not know my sister was with you...." She trained off before I stopped her. "There is no trouble I am relieved that she came to me more than wondering my star's surface," I gave a light smile, "If you and your sister need anything you can always and will forever be welcomed in my presence always."

She gave a small sad smile and nodded her head before welcoming me inside and leading me to their shared cot and pulled back the blankets for me to lay her sister down to rest. Gently setting her down and her sister tucking her in. She gave a bow while I left the room and gave her a wave before fully leaving the house for that evening.