Phil was convinced that the kiss was just one of those spur of the moment things. He didn't think much of it, other then the fact that he helped his room mate calm down and prove to him that he was indeed real.

Dan on the other hand was instantly infatuated with Phil. He had never been kissed until that day when the older boy pressed his lips against the small boys, snapping him back to the real world.

At the moment he was pretending to read, but instead he was thinking of the kiss. It bounced around his head and made him insanely happy, a permeant smile on his chapped lips.

Phil was sleeping now, snoring lightly. His eye brows were furrowed together and it looked like he was having a nightmare. Dan slipped out from his bed and padded over to the sleeping boy. Gently he pressed a kiss to Phil's forehead and watched as his entire face relaxed. The younger boy smiled proudly, and grabbed the chair from the desk, making sure to be quite.

He pulled it right up next to Phil's bed, looking over him. He was still shivering and Dan fixed the blankets so that they covered him up more, awing gently. Then he laced his fingers with Phil's. They fit together like puzzle pieces.

Phil pretended to be asleep, but in all actuality he was silently realizing what he had done and what the after math was.

Sure Dan was cute and he had the most adorable smile Phil had ever seen, but he wasn't so sure he liked the boy like that. Plus Dan was almost....scary. When Phil found out his room mate was schizophrenic he couldn't help but get the chills. The boy seemed like a wonderful person, but Phil didn't know what went on in his head. He could never understand.

Dan ran his nimble fingers through Phil's hair, and the older male couldn't help but lean into the soothing touch, a warm feeling spreading through his gut when he heard the brown eyed male laugh.

"Dan..." Phil breathed out gently, keeping his eyes closed. He still felt sick, but less so at the moment.

"Yeah?" Dan asked gently, rubbing his thumb down Phil's cheek bone.

"I-I....uh."

"Shhh Phil, just sleep." And he did.

When Phil woke up Dan was gone, and for that he was grateful. He didn't know how the boy would react and he sure as hell didn't know what he would say. This whole situation was hell. you're so stupid for kissing him the demons whispered. He ran a hand down his face, shivering. His stomach ache had gone away, but his head pounded uncomfortably.

He quickly took the pills the doctors had given him. He let them slip down his throat dry, causing him to gag slightly, but in a few minutes his head started to only ache, allowing him to think clearer.

Phil wasn't sure if he liked Dan the way the younger boy probably did. He couldn't even remember if the kiss was real. His mind had been drowning in pain pills and anti depressants at that time.

Groaning he sat up and slipped his legs out of bed. Phil sorted out his fringe, and bundled up under his sweatshirt before venturing out into the hallway.

He was headed towards Chris and Pj's room, sniffling the whole way down the empty hall way.

When he reached their room he gently knocked on the door, despite the fact that their were no locks and waited patiently.

Pj answered, and Phil saw a sick Chris curled up under his duvet, groaning in pain.

"Food poising." Pj said curtly, and Phil nodded his head in understanding.

"Got me too."

"Sorry mate." Pj patted his friends back and let him in. "One perk of never eating is you can't get sick from food."

Chris groaned and rolled his eyes. "A con of not eating is dying from not eating!" He spat back, making Pj flinch. The brown eyed male softened and frowned at his actions. "Sorry peej that was mean."

"That's okay." He replied, sitting on the edge of his friends bed. Phil sat down on Pj's bed, making himself comfortable.

"So what you here for?" Chris asked, wriggling his eyebrow. "I got the stuff."

"You twat." The green eyed male flicked the boys foot, shaking his head.

"No actually..." Phil started. "Although I would like some drugs," he joked. "I need some advice and I didn't know who to come to."

"What's wrong?" Pj asked concerned. He furrowed his eyebrow and leaned forward.

"Me and Dan... Well... We kissed."

"What?" Chris yelped, sitting up. A huge smile was plastered on his lips. "You owe me twenty bucks!" He poked Pj in the side and the curly haired male squealed.

"No fair I'm broke!"

"Too bad phan is real!"

"I hate you!"

"Love you too!"

"what?!" Phil asked, squinting his eyes in confusion. Chris and peej shared a laugh.

"We made a bet on how long it would take you two to make out." Chris replied, smirking smugly.

"You what?!" Phil screamed, clenching his fists. "You barley even know me!"

Chris rolled his eyes. "Yeah whatever, phan was love at first sight."

"I ship it." Pj pipped in, running a hand through the mess of curls on top
his head. Phil sighed and closed his eyes, knowing their was no way he could win with these two.

"Yeah fine whatever?" He muttered.

"So what happened after the kiss?" Chris asked, hungry for all the juice details.

"Nothing." Phil said, ignored the dead pan looks from his friends. "He read and I pretended to sleep....although he did do something weird...He like played with my hair and held my hand and stuff...."

Pj smiled shook his head. "Ah young love." Chris rolled his eyes.

"I think he was his first kiss." Phil said, suddenly serious. "I-I just stole dans first kiss."

"No sweat." The green eyed male said, shrugging his shoulders. "I'm sure you're a great kisser."

"No, no, no." Phil shook his head before putting it in his hands. "Dan's first kiss should be from someone who loves him not some mentally ill dude he just met!" Slowly the boys voice started to rise.

"Ya know it's scientifically proven that love at first sight can happen." Chris informed, making Pj giggle. It was pretty adorable how they could always make each other laugh. He silently wondered if they were a couple or not.

"Go to him." Pj joked and phil threw a pillow at the lad before standing up.

"Thanks for the advice."

"Love you too."

* * *

"Well you look happy today." Carrie smiled at the way Dan nearly skipped into her office. His hair was a curly mess and he still had tooth paste on the side of his lip, but he didn't care. He hadn't been this happy in years.

"I'm on top of the world!" The boy replied, sitting down hard in his chair. Carrie giggled and sat at her own desk, typing away on her laptop. Dan waiting patiently for her to be done.

"And why's that?" She asked finally, smiling. It looked genuine.

"Phil kissed me!" He squealed, incredibly happy.

"Phil Lester? Your room mate?" She looked slightly concerned, but kept the smile on her face.

"Yeah! He just leaned over and put one on me! I think I'm in love!" Carrie giggled, and sighed. She figured that sense Dan had been in the hospital for years he had no clue how an actual relationship worked

"I take it you don't really understand relationships huh Daniel?"

"What do you mean?" Dan asked, turning his head to the side in confusion. Carrie just laughed and shook her head.

"It takes people a while to fall in love sweetie." She put her own hand over Dan's. "I don't think you really love phil. More like...have a crush on him."

Dan didn't understand. He furrowed his eyebrows. "But does he like me back?" He sounded desperate, begging almost.

"I dunno, why don't you ask him?"

"but..." He started. "normal people don't just ask questions like that right?"

Carrie pressed her lips into a straight line. "There is nothing fun about being normal right?"

"I-I guess." Dan shrugged his shoulders and started chewing on the inside of his mouth.

"You guess?" Dan could tell Carrie was using her therapist voice, and they were about to go some where deep in his mind but payed it no attention.

"Well..." Dan started, "if I could be....ya know /not/ mentally ill that would be great. I would love to be able to go to actual school and go out to dinner at fancy restaurants with my family and live just....normally. I hate my mind."

"But Dan," Carrie frowned, shaking her head "you have such a unique mind."

"That's just another word for crazy." Dan felt the tears gather in his eyes and he blinked rapidly in order to make them go away.

"Dan, you just see the world in a different way. Their is nothing wrong with that."

"Yeah well are we done now?" Dan sighed, anxious to leave.

"We still have a few minutes." Carrie replied softly, frowning.

"I want to go now." Dan blinked away his tears.

"Alright."

* * *

Dan took a steading breath before entering his room, looking at Phil. He was working on his homework, scribbling down the answers at his desk.

Dan watched him like a hawk, fighting the urge to aww when the older boy looked up at him. His black fringe looked perfect today and lacked all gaps. His blue eyes sparkled and they looked so much more....bright then they had before.

He looked happier. He looked better. He was even wearing the fox sweatshirt he had worn the first day he had came to the hospital. With a sinking feeling in his heart Dan realized Phil only had two more days at the hospital until discharge.

"Da-" Phil started to say, but was interrupted by the boy who he was addressing.

"Do you like me." He stated calmly, while picking at the skin on his index finger. Phil narrowed his eyes at the motion, obviously worried about the gesture. He didn't like the idea of Dan hurting himself.

"What?"

"I-I said." Dan took a deep breath, steading himself. "Do you like me?" He said the words slowly, trying them out on his lips. So far, they sounded okay.

stupid question

"What do you mean?" Phil pushed his chair away from the desk, getting ready to stand up. "Of course I like you Dan you're a lovely person."

you're such an idiot to even think he would like you

Dan sighed, and dug his nails into his skin. The pain grounded him to reality. "Do you....love me." He said the words even slower this time, starting to tremble slightly.

"Aah..." Phil was at a loss. He had no clue what to say. He stood up and gently took Dans hand in his, stopping him from destroying his fingers.

The younger boys heart speed up. He looked up at Phil, holding his breath. Their chest were almost touching and Dan admired how perfect his hands felt in Phil's. They felt like they fit perfectly.

"Do you?" He whispered, on the edge of his seat.

"I-I dunno." Phil breathed out, staring at Dans dark brown eyes. They looked like chocolate. "I don't know you well enough."

"Well get to know me." The older boy was shocked at how quickly Dan answered him, and touched the boys nose with his own

"How?" He whispered softly, furrowing his eyebrows.

"Ask me anything." Phil laughed. His tongue poked out the side of his mouth and his bright blue eyes lit up. Dan loved that sounded. It was like music to his ears, and was too pure to even put into words.

"What's so funny?" Dan questioned, pulling away from Phil, furrowing his eye brows in confusion. The blue eyed male kissed the younger boys forehead, watching as he relaxed under his touch.

"I just have so many things to ask you." Phil gave the boys hand a gentle squeeze.

"And I have most of the answers." Dan pulled his room mate to his bed, sitting down and leaning against his pillows. Phil faced him, his blue eyes sparkling. "So ask away."

"Okay..." Phil thought for a moment, chewing on his lip. "What's your favorite animal?"

"That's not a real question!" Dan whined and Phil giggled. "We're trying to make some progress here!"

"Well it's important to me!" Phil stuck out his tongue and Dan sighed.

"Fine a llama." He said. "My turn now, do you think I'm crazy?" Dan didn't like the way his room mate hesitated.

"Of course not." Phil whispered, and the brown eyed male decided to leave it as is. "Did you know I'm leaving in two days?"

"Yes." Dan breathed out, frowning. "Did you know we can still keep in touch?"

"Yes." Phil shook his head. "But it might be hard. I dunno when we would get to see each other."

"You can visit me here." Dan said hopefully, leaning foreword. Phil frowned.

"But I live all the way in Reading."

"No way!"

"Yes way!"

"My mum lives there!"

"Shut up!"

Dan giggled, looking up at Phil hopefully.

"See, we can make this work."

The older boy looked down at his room mate frowning. He hid away behind his fringe.

"What's wrong?" Dan whispered, scooting even closer to the boy.

"I-I'm....I'm scared." He whispered, causing Dan to furrow his eyebrow. "I've never been in a relationship before...." His cheeks burned in shame.

"Same." Dan said, leaning over and kissing Phil on the check. "It can be like....an adventure." He giggled.

Phil rolled his eyes, and kissed Dan on the lips, leaning into the boy.

"So..." Dan tried again, pulling away. "Do you like me?"

"Yes."