It feels like I haven't written for years. It's been almost 2 weeks! And I don't even know what to write about. These past weeks have been a complete blur. I've been walking around in a daze. Pretty much everything goes in one ear and out the other. Even though I've been surrounded by friends I still feel lonely. I feel different. Like an alien. I think I've said this before but it's been major these past weeks. Everyone has a 'partner' and I'm the loner.

Tiana has been a bit distant this term. I mean I kinda understand how she feels, but I still get confused. I mean she has kinda isolated herself from me, does that make sense? I wish life wasn't so hard. Fictional characters always seem to have such good lives. When they fight or have a disagreement with friends there is always a deeper meaning and they make up. Where as in my annoying life things are so not like that. I mean I wish T and I could sort something out because it nearly breaks my heart to see Tiana so close to crying. Especially when I know it is partly my fault. What can I do? I say sorry all the time but it just doesn't seem to help. I feel like I will cry if I see her cry. I can't confide my feelings to T as it would just make things worse, wouldn't it?

Also I feel as if I get along with Zane much better after he read this. That was spoiled today. For some reason now he won't talk to me and asked me not to talk to him. That makes me feel awful as I consider him a good friend. I tried talking to him today in French but he totally dissed me. That annoys me but also makes me feel kinda sad.

Wow this is a short chapter but I feel to Meh to even right. I feel like life is going down hill, and there is nothing I can do about it. PEACE OUT DUDE ;)