[December 7, 2015]

My cousin made me realize that almost every reply I say is a psychological and/or philosophical reply. Haha. When I realized that, sigh, that made me a bit more tired because I was tired and still am. It made me ask myself, "Why do I do that?" 

I remember something from a long time ago - my best friend said that I didn't need to have a philosophical and deep reply to everything. He was teasing me, I think, haha. But then he said that, that was just me; and who I am is complicated and mysterious, but also beautiful. He told me that I was beautiful and that he didn't care that I was complicated or mysterious. 

And I remember verses or a psalm where David praises the Lord, praises God as always - and where he says this to God: 

13 For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Sometime so very soon, I will truly believe that I am beautiful, always knowing that. Right now, no. I don't. I still feel and think that I am nothing, that I am and/or may be the past names that I have been called; but I will. At least I somewhat know that I am beautiful and that sometime so very soon that I will know that I am beautiful. 

I just hope that not just me, but others will too. 

Beauty is beauty. What is beautiful is beautiful. What is lovely is lovely. What is true is true. 

And God is beautiful. He cannot lie and he never will. He is Truth so what He says is truth. 

Beauty is beauty. What is beautiful is beautiful. D you know what I mean? 

It's as simple as that. God is beautiful. He is Beauty - beauty is beauty. What is lovely will always be lovely. What is beautiful is beautiful. What is true is true. 

And I am beautiful too. I should never forget that, but remember that because it is true even if it may seem like it is not true. It is true because God never lies. 

He is beautiful.