{September 24, 2015}

Honestly? 

Just a few minutes ago, I wanted to slip into nothing because I was grieving. Because I was still sad from a thought that had made me sad earlier. 

I wanted to slip into nothing, and I wanted to cry in a way that I didn't recognize myself that I have only done once or twice because I was hurt and I was broken. 

And I still am. I'm still hurting and broken, but I'm thankful for that because suffering helps us develop endurance; and endurance, strength of character; strength of character, strengthening our confident hope of salvation that won't lead us to disappointment; and because God can heal me. 

God can heal me. Since I want to be well, I want to be healed - I am already healed. And are you if you truly want to be well, if you truly want to be healed. 

You're healed. 

I was talking about this with a friend, and it's true. It's so easy to slip. So easy to slip, isn't it. 

But there are promises that God gave to us and still give to us, that are true and that will never be broken: that he will make us surefooted and that he won't let us stumble. 

If we're not on paths that are broad, and he has promised us paths that are broad - are we on the paths that are broad? If not, who went to the wrong path? You or Him? 

And if something made us stumble, who do you think it was? Him? If you say that, then no. That's just a simple no. 

If you stumble, was it you who made you stumble? Or was it the one who never cared about and never wanted to help you? 

Does this make sense? 

He promised us and he promises us paths that are broad and that he won't let us stumble. 

He promised us that and he promises us that.