Flashback continues

Several months passed with phoenix and I fooling around. We went to school together, hangout together and did absolutely everything together. He was an amazing secret boyfriend.

He became the school's most popular kid because of his charms and good looks. Gradually, the two of us started hanging out less in school because I wasn't part of his social circle.

" I miss you." I said to phoenix. " Wanna hang out at my place tonight?"

" I wish I could baby but I can't, I've been invited to this ultimate party, I can't miss it. You understand right? I'll make it up to you next time though." He Said with a sad expression.

" I understand." I said in a disappointed voice." We could always hang out some other time, it's no big deal."

" Thanks for understanding, that's why I like you."

There it was again, the 'i like you ' I felt heartbroken everytime he uttered that sentence to me, I wanted him to love me not like me. I was already in love with him and him not retaining my love felt like daggers being thrown in my ribcage.

He looked around to make sure that no one was around and then pecked me on my lips. " I can't wait to be inside you again." He said and left me standing alone in an empty hallway.

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A few days went by very fast after my last encounter with Phoenix. He had been busy the whole weekend with popular friends and I didn't have any chance of being with him. I missed him so much and I couldn't wait to see him.

It was Monday morning and i was walking down the hallway to my geography class.

I was about to enter class before I saw kids gathered around cheering for some one in the middle. Curiously, I went over to check out what was happening but what I saw was inconceivable.

I couldn't believe my eyes, everything was happening in front of me but it all seemed surreal, Phoenix was in the middle of the crowd kissing a girl, not just any girl, the captain of the cheerleading squad. A wave of disbelief washed over me, I was too dumbfounded to even utter any word.

I remained glued to the same spot,  Phoenix looked so happy with that girl, I felt envious of her because i was very much aware of the fact that there relationship could not be judged by anyone, tears started to roll down my face and I started hyperventilating.

Phoenix took notice of my presence and I turned around and ran off before he could react.

...

He didn't run after me.

I spent the whole day in the park that day, I had never skipped class before but I knew I couldn't focus if I stayed back.

After several hours of wallowing in self pity and heartbreak, I willed myself to get up and go home.

Something was off when I reached home, every worker in the house kept giving me pitied looks, like something bad had happened and i wasn't aware of it.

I decided not to pay attention to the workers and headed upstairs. But before I could enter my room, a slap reverberated in the hallway and before I could process what happened, I felt a sharp sting on my left cheek.

My father slapped me. I asked myself internally if he found out about my sexuality.

" Where the hell were you?" He asked through gritted teeth.

" I was at_at school." I said almost tearing up.

" Don't fucking lie to me you son of a bitch, your school called me saying you didn't attend class from second period."

Shit! I didn't know the school was going to call him, I was fucked.

"I-i wasn't fe-eling well so I decided to_to skip class."

"And why didn't you come home? This is 8:45 pm, who told you that you can come home anytime you want to,huh? He pushed me so hard to the wall blood oozed out from my nose. "Skipping school, coming home late, do you think you own this house?"

" I'm sorry." I cried." I won't do it again."

"Weak." He pushed me off the way and angrily walked downstairs.

I went straight to my bathroom to wash my bloody nose.

....

"Skyler baby we need to talk." Phoenix pulled me into an empty restroom. " Stop avoiding me."

" Stay away from me." I had been avoiding him the whole day at school.

" I can explain." He lowered his head.

" What do you mean you can explain, you cheated on me." I said agitated.

"I was trying to protect us."

" Protect us? How does shoving your tongue down someone else's throat protect us?"

" Everyone started to question our relationship with each other, they started wondering why I don't have a girlfriend and why I always hanged out with you. They said that it was weird for a guy my age not getting dates with girls unless I'm gay. So I had to ask merrisa Dunkins out in order to prove them wrong." He looked into my eyes. "I didn't do it because I wanted but because I had to."

Phoenix was damn good with his words, he always succeeded in manipulating me and making me believe whatever he said.

" You don't have to date her." I teared up.

" Trust me I don't want to, but we have no other options." He wiped my tears. " We can't risk being found out, don't forget that we both have homophobic parents.

I sobbed.

" Shhh don't cry baby, Merrisa means nothing to me, you are the only person that I like, you don't have to worry about anything.  I will dump her as soon as the rumors quiets down." He kissed away my tears.

I felt a sharp pang in my chest not hearing him say he loved me.

....

He didn't just date Merrisa junkins , no, he dated a lot of other girls too.

Three months passed and I got depressed every day that passed. I watched My boyfriend date different girls in our school.

He said he was protecting us but it was too much for me to handle. To make matters worse, he stopped talking to me at school.

The only time we met was only when he wanted to have sex with me.

I told myself time and time again that he was doing it to protect us but reality was dawning on me, he was going to leave me. But I couldn't let that happen, I was going to tell him I had fallen in love with him so that he could confess his love for me too.

I knew I was being delusional for believing that he loved me back but I wasn't going to give up on him

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Phoenix, phoenix, phoenix 🤦

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