"Finding out that you are gay and you have a homophobic father is appalling. As much as I wanted to be myself, I knew I couldn't because that could have been the end of me."

" He ditasted everything queer, he already disliked me hence I wasn't going to give him another reason to dislike me even more. But all that changed when I meant Phoenix, the son of one of my dad's biggest investors."

Talking about my past always made me feel uncomfortable,but at that point I wasn't going to back down, I was ready to face my worst fears head on.

" I'm here for you." Wave caressed my face and gave me a chaste kiss on my lips. "I'll always be here for you."

I felt bubbly inside at his cheesy words, " i love you." I locked eyes with him.

"I love you too baby." He cupped my face and kissed me. The kiss was slow and passionate, something that felt like seeling a promise to always stay by each other's sides forever.

He made me sit in between his legs and then cradled my waist.

"Phoenix_Phoenix, was a very good looking guy, well built body, a sharp jawline, green eyes, 6'2, probably everything that a gay guy would look for in a guy. His skin was so smooth, no signs of acne, his voice....his voice was hypnotic, like a sweet melody coming out from a music box."

" His brunette hair was so silky you would want to run your hands in them all the time, his lips wer-"

"Okay enough, I get it, he was handsome, gosh." Wave folded his arms around his chest and pouted his lips.

"Baby are you jealous?" I chuckled.

"No!" He exclaimed. " I just don't wanna know anything about any potential bad guy."

"You are too cute." I raffled his hair.

"I'm not cute I'm hot." He slapped my hands off him. "

" Okay okay I'm sorry, I won't give you details about how handsome he was." I playfully said.

"Fuck you." He shoved me off of him.

"I won't complain." I playfully licked my lips.

" You horny pig." He spanked my ass. " You don't wanna start what you won't be able to finish. Now get back to telling your story before I devour you whole." He checked me out.

"Coughs." I choked on my saliva at his bluntness. He did a devilish smirk and I rolled my eyes at him.

" I met Phoenix at a dinner party that my father organised to celebrate the partnership between him and phoenix's father."

" I stole glances at him the whole dinner, I knew he noticed because he would look and smile at me from time to time."

" But I didn't think anything of it, he wasn't gay and if he was I knew the two of us couldn't date because his father and my father shared the same dislike of homosexual people, they spent the whole day talking about the man my father just fired for being gay."

"Is that legal?" Wave looked shocked.

"My father was a powerful man, he could kill a person and the state would cover it up like nothing happened."

"That's fucked up." Wave said." Glad he's gone."

I nodded my head in approval.

" The dinner party eventually came to an end. Phoenix approached me, the two of us got along very well, we talked about everything, from sports to tv shows and fashion. We had a lot of things in common, he appeared to be a nice guy and i became hooked."

Flashback

"I was distraught over the idea of moving to a new city but it won't be too bad now that I've found you." Phoenix said in his nice guy voice.

" Why? This is a nice town." I said.

"I know but It's just, moving away from the things you have grown to know and like Is really hard, new friends, new school, it's too overwhelming you know?"

" I think so... Though I've never moved before." I sheepishly said.

He chuckled, " trust me it's not a good experience."

" Hey it's getting too crowded here, wanna go somewhere quiet?" I asked.

" Sure, where do you want to go?"

" Maybe up to my bedroom _ I don't know but if you don't want we could alwa-"

" Yes, we could go up to your bedroom." He chuckled.

"Oh okay." I tacked my loose hair behind my ear.

....

" Your room is nice." Phoenix moved around in my bedroom checking out things. " It's so neat and the theme is, I don't know how to put it..huh... Fancy."

" It was my father's plan, he doesn't want to ruin the theme decor for the house."

" But this is your bedroom you have the right to decorate it however you want to."

" It's his house not mine." I became annoyed.

" My father is also an asshole but at least he lets me decide some things on my own."

" Well lucky you." I said agitated." You know what, I wanna sleep right now, so if you could just go...."

" Sorry I didn't mean to offend you." He dropped his face. " I said what I said because you and I are the same. We are not allowed to be who we are because of how closed minded are parents are."

" What _ what are you talking about." His words caught me off guard.

" You know what I mean, I saw you checking me out the entire party."

"I di- I was-" I stattered

"Shhhh." He came dangerously close to me. " You don't have to hide it because I'm also, you know, gay."

" I'm _i'm not ga-gay." I tried my at most best not to breakdown.

" You don't have to worry about me outing you, I'm also closeted because of my father." He started to carress my face. " We could keep each other's secret.

I swallowed hard.

" I know you like me, and I like you too, let's date but no one has to find out. We could just be best friends to everyone's else's eyes but something else behind closed doors. We can't keep on forcing ourselves on girls that we don't feel anything for, we can be us when we are the two of us."

I took his words into consideration, I couldn't deny the fact that I was attracted to him, that was my opportunity to experience being me.

"What do you say?" He looked at me with puppy eyes.

" Yes, let's do it. But nobody has to know, not even your diary." I said

" Alright sure, I won't tell my inexistent diary." He rolled his eyes.

"You are insufferable." I also rolled my eyes.

"Come here." He cupped my face and kissed me. The kiss was everything I had never felt before, it felt so right. It was different from the kisses I shared with the girls that my father always forced me to go on dates with.

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