I stood outside Wave's house, unaware of what to do next.

I was reluctant to knock at the door because I was nervous and thrilled at the same time.

I didn't know if I was making a mistake or not. I tried to think rationally about what could happen to me if he didn't return my feelings.

I knew I was walking on thin ice, but my heart refused to let go of him. My entire body craved his touch, i couldn't stop thinking about him, he crowded whole of my thoughts and there was nothing I could do about it.

It hurt so much, I decided to ask him about us, exactly what we were to each other, I wasn't going to cower away this time, I needed to know the answer before I fail for him even harder. Which was probably pointless because I had already fallen hard for him.

I was pulled out of my reveries by a sudden yank at my hand.

I was startled then realized it was Wave who pulled me inside his house. My heart started racing at the sight of him.

He wore gray sweatpants and no shirt at all. His hair was wet and messy showing that he just came out from a shower.

I trailed my eyes at his bare torsal. I subconsciously moved closer to him and started tracing my hands up and down his rock hard abs.

I liked how his body responded to my touches. His breathe became ragged and I could hear how fast his heart was beating, I slowly lifted my head to look at him and our eyes met.

He looked at me with so much intensity my legs almost gave out.

"Hey." I said with a breathy voice.

He didn't respond, he clasped my chin and lifted it so that we were eye to eye. He slowly leaned in and crushed his lips on mine.

The kiss was gentle at first but started to intensify. He pushed me against the door and he kissed me hard until I wasn't able to breathe.

I became aware of our surroundings and I pushed him away from me, but not very much that he could be hurt.

" what if someone walks up on us?" I asked while biting my tongue.

He stared at my lips for a second then said, " no one's going to walk up on us."

"You can't be too sure because it's 9pm and your parents can come back anytime soon."

Something like sadness flashed in his eyes at the mention of his parents, but it was gone as soon as I saw it. The room became tense and I internally scolded myself for ruining the moment.

"I_i'm sorry." I said with a sad tone.

"About what?" He asked

"Ruining your mood, I shouldn't have -"

"Shhhh. You didn't ruin my mood okay? Actually, I'm the happiest when I'm around you." He said sincerely.

My heart skipped a beat at his words.

I wanted to ask him more questions about his parents but I decided against it because he seemed uncomfortable whenever they were brought up.

"Wanna check out my room? He asked me while wiggling his eyebrows.

I chuckled." Lead the way."

We reached his bedroom and he immediately pounced on me. He dropped me on his bed and started to kiss me. Our make out became intense.

I  started trailing kisses on him since he was already shirtless. He groaned. It sounded like music to my ears. He pushed me back and started to take off my shirt.

He noticed me tensing, " if_ if you are not comfortable just tell me to stop okay?" He looked at me with puppy eyes pleading for me to tell him not to stop.

I nodded at him and tried to relax.

He took off my shirt completely. I felt insecure about being bare around him but his eyes showed admiration for me.

He kissed me down my hands and on my wrists were I cut myself.

" Why do you_" he swallowed hard," why do you cu-cut yourself?"

Tears started forming in my eyes and I could feel my panic attack rising. I quickly got up and attempted to run away but he caught me.

" Not this time Kai. I'm not forcing you to tell me anything. You can decide whether to tell me when you are ready or not at all. All I want to do is make sure that you are okay." He said in a soft voice while caressing my face.

"I_i .."

I bursted into tears. Wave reach for me and held me in a tight embrace. I wanted to tell him everything but my words caught in my throat.

I suddenly felt sick and rushed to the bathroom to throw up. Wave followed me and started rubbing his hand on my back.

He lead me to the sink once I had finished throwing up. I washed my mouth and we returned to his bedroom.

The room became silent. I couldn't look at Him, I was afraid he would give up on. He had figured out that I cut myself, It was only about time until he told me to go away.

"I know you have so many questions about why my parents are never home everytime you come over." Wave broke the silence. " I'll _i'll tell you everything but promise _promise me you will also open up to me." He looked at me and I saw tears in his eyes for the first time ever.

I looked into his eyes and contemplated on whether to agree or not.

Fuck it!

I nodded my head at his request