19/1/2016

Dear Secret Admirer

Thanks for trying to reassure me through all of this. I've had a panic attack this morning and I felt awful. Martin knew about panic attacks and told me to breath slowly.

To be honest, Martin has definitely changed. He seems to want to look after me. It seems I might like him, but I like you as a secret admirer though. Possibly liking him might be to do with that he's treated me kindly and it might have helped me.

To be honest, I was worried that my traumatic stress would get out of hand, but I'm glad it hasn't. Did you told Martin about what I've been telling you about him?

It doesn't matter of you did, as it seems to have had a calming effect on me, so I don't seem frightened as often as I thought. I thought I would have had more panic attacks since I'm staying with Martin now. It seems he knows that he was wrong and doesn't want to hurt me again. I guess he liked me and I thought he hated me.

I wonder if he knows about you being my secret admirer. I mean, you could be anybody. I still don't even know what your name was. You didn't tell me, but that's OK, we will meet on the fields near the college grounds. It's past the languages block as I like heading there and it's quiet. I should be there. I hope I don't get another panic attack before then, but I suppose it's normal because of the past.

I have gotten over my cold, so I should be ok to meet you. Possibly 1pm, is that OK?

Yours sincerely
~ Leia