December 2018. Couldn't find exactly where this chapter fit but obviously something she was trying to ignore or something happy preceded it for CG but maybe not for 3Gun.

I sat at her desk

listening to her bathing

she fumbled through

some song lyrics

splashing and giggling

I thought about

what had happened

and the reason hit hard

we had procrastinated so long

we couldn't drop our guard

volumes of excuses

and some jealousies

had intervened . . .

another splash from

behind the press

pretty soon she'd

have to dress

I can't be here for that

it would be

another mistake

best to let her

get a rest then

speak again

when we're

at our best