ZOE REQUESTED AN ANGST ONE SO HERE YOU GO
It’s a Song!Fic of gasoline by Troye Sivan I hope you like it

Trigger warning- cutting, depressing thoughts and suicide

(Zoes POV)

 
I smell heartbreak on my hands
I feel sick to my stomach as I begin to stand

It’s been three months since it happened. The memories appear in my head in precise detail. I haven’t left he house since then. Hell, I haven’t even left my bed except for the rare times I eat and the bathroom.

I see your outline in my bed
In the same spot I watched her rest her head

You should of left sooner; I’m a worthless piece of shit who doesn’t deserve you.

I’ve done you wrong, I regret it
I write this song, try to forget it

I stand over the sink in the bathroom, watching the red drip from my red as I used my razor to cut more into my arms

I feel this emptiness in my chest
It feels surreal, but I’m feeling stressed
 

I heard you found a new boyfriend. I knew you were Bi, and I should be happy for you

I need to do something
I fucked up for nothing
Now I just gotta tell someone
Tell someone what I’ve done

It’s been half a year now and I hear you’re engaged. That only hurt my heart more than it did before, and made two more marks on my thighs.

Please bathe me now, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Bathe me now, wash me clean
Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline
Oh, no, like gasoline

I watch the old videos we made together. The Hat Fic reading is my favourite. We were so happy then.

You called me today too, but I didn’t answer. You obviously don’t need me in your life… you told me that yourself

I wake up the morning after
You call but I don’t answer
And I can’t look you in the eye
No matter how hard I try

I wrote my suicide note today. No one will find me for a long time I bet, but I don’t care. I want to be free of the prison that is life. I don’t want to live without you.

You deserve forever,
Not a girl looking for better
But as long as your still here,
Imma try to keep you near

I tied the rope to my fan in my room, then the loop around my neck. I kicked off the chair and left the darkness surround me. Finally, I’m free.

Zoe was found in her apartment 1 day later by her ex Hayleigh.  She called 999 and the funeral was full of tears and sadness. Her note scarred Hayleigh the most after she read it

Set my heart on fire like gasoline, Hayleigh. I love you.

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OKAY IM SAD FROM WRITING THAT
ZOE I HOPED YOU LIKED IT (HAYLEIGH TOO)
YOU WANT SOME MORE OF THEM? GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS IN THE COMMENTS

PEACE.

~Ruby