Tayler's POV:

After the Doctor's appointment I decided to go buy some more gender appropriate clothes and take the others back when I have time.

I was excited to know I was having a little boy, I wouldn't have it any other way. I always dreamed about having a little boy because they were easier than girls. To think in a few weeks I will have a little Michael in my arms. I imagine the baby with his doe eyes, long fingers, and the famous Jackson nose; that I personally thought was adorable.

I blush a bit as I stare at the sonogram I received.

"You're excited aren't you?" Donna said with a smile.

I just giggled and let out a settle "Yeah"

For the first time I can enjoy my pregnancy.

Donna dramatically sighed

"I can't wait to see my little jellybean!"

I scrunched up my face. "Jellybean? Oh no I'll cross my legs and hold it in if all you can come up with is Jellybean for him" I joked.

Donna just chuckled while shaking her head.

"Ok hold it in if you want to, you going to be in so much pain you would want Satan himself to grab that sucka' out. Hold it in alright let's see how long you do that. Blow your kidneys out your eyes".

I don't know what came over me, but I laughed so hard my stomach tightened.

I appreciated Donna being honest with me about childbirth, but I was nervous.

I know it must be hard for Donna being there for me when she lost my little brother 2 years ago. I know his death still hurts her and in a way she may feel responsible, but I hope my son will be able to bring light to our lives after a dark time.

I rubbed my stomach as Donna parked the car, I guess little man know when he is being talked about due to him starting up his usual movements in my tummy.

We got out the car and walked to the entrance.

"Hey!" I heard Lydia's voice.

I turned to my left to be crushed in her arms. I swear this girl act as if she gone off to war when time passes that we haven't seen each other.

She greeted Donna with a hug and a kiss on the cheek, then linked arms with me.

"I invited Lydia to come because I have to do some shopping of my own. I'll meet up with you in about two hours, if you need me you can find me in Macy's most likely." Donna explained.

I nodded and she left with a "Bye sweetie"

Lydia and I headed to the baby store.

"Man I love being pregnant, but I can't wait to show my body off like you're doing Ms. Fast in the Ass" I joked.

"You should be the one to talk you the Ms. Fast in the Ass, how else did you get pregnant?" She shot back with an eyebrow raised.

"Judging by the looks of that outfit, you're next bitch." We both laughed.

I begin searching through the racks of onesies.

"No thank you, I'm good. Listen how does it even feel when the baby kicks? Does it feel weird?" She trembled a little and I laughed at her squeamishness.

"I don't know, it feels like butterflies on my bladder. It doesn't hurt, well only when he stands on it." I explained.

"This is so cute!- Wait did you just say he?" Lydia turned to me shocked.

I laughed at her facial expression.

"Yes he, I went to the Doctor and he told me today."

"You're having a little Michael" she cooed to my belly.

I turned around breaking my neck and shushing her like somebody actually heard her.

"Yeah like Michael is the only Michael in the world. So have you thought of any names?"

Damn with all the controversy surrounding my pregnancy, I never had time to enjoy the process of baby naming. Of course Michael went on and on about it, but I just brushed it off and thought it would hit me once I laid eyes on my child.

"I like the name Anthony, I am so stuck on the name Kaidan or Kyan." I said getting a little excited about baby naming.

"Kaidan is sort of rare, but Kyan sounds like some damn pepper. Poor kid going to get his ass beat because his mama wanted to name him after a spice" she teased.

"But Anthony is nice, I like it." she added.

Well bitch nobody asked is what I wanted to say, but I didn't feel like having the back and forth with Lydia. Some times she can get on my nerves with her bossiness, but this is my baby and I name him what I want.

I rolled my eyes as I picked up a few onesies and walked to the other side of the store.

"I have something I want to tell you." Lydia said.

"Alright bitch gone head and testify"

As I looked through the racks again I saw Lydia rummaging through her purse and taking something out. The shininess caught my eye. I looked and saw a ring.

"Lydia this is so sudden, do you know they have laws about incest? but I accept now give me some sugar baby" I jumped on her kissing her cheek.

She aggressively wiped her cheek and then stuck the bird at me.

"No its from John he asked me to marry him prom night" Lydia confessed.

I always thought it would be me first and for a minute I was jealous because it should have been me.

Why can't Michael step up?

Hell! he can't even be a supportive partner forget a husband.

"CONGRATULATIONS CUZ!" I screeched and gave her a huge hug.

"Its beautiful"

I commented as I admired the ring.

She begin to tell me how he worked double shifts for months to afford it.

Man is she lucky!

But I noticed she wasn't excited as I was.

"Hold up! why was the ring in your purse and not on your finger?" I questioned putting two and two together.

"What's with the long face?"

"I don't think I can" Lydia answered.

"Shit if you don't want him I do. I'll drop this child, steal your man, bop down the aisle, and ride his ass like a midnight train to Georgia." I joked, but hell I was serious.

True love still exists today, but the way John loved Lydia was something rare. With my situation not being ideal, I wished for a love like John's and here she is being funny about marrying this man.

Lydia snickered and begin to explain her reasoning behind not wanting to marry John.

"Its not that easy. I don't want to let Jackie go."

For the past six months Lydia and Jackie, yes Michael's brother have been messing around, but Lydia is crazy if she thinks he is going to leave his wife and his family for her.

Being a soon-to-be mother I can sympathize with Enid, Jackie's wife. Breaking up a happy home is disgusting and you should be ashamed if you try to break up a marriage.

Jackie isn't any better. When you marry someone you take a vow before God to love, honor, respect, and cherish that person. You don't just make a vow and decide hey I want to fuck someone else or hey I love you and all, but I don't want to be with you anymore.

"Lydia I have to be honest, you are worried about a man who is married been married for the past two years and you can't decide between him and a man, who worked double shifts for you? Ok do I slap you now or later? or do you want to reschedule this ass-whoppin'."

Lydia shook her head and went into further detail

"You just don't understand Jackie excites me, he is used to my lifestyle, he's just- I don't know"

"I'll answer for you a dog, a cheater, a liar, a sex using manipulative vianna sausage dick little boy. Should I go?"

She just rolled her eyes.

"Look Lydia our fathers came from nothing and they worked hard to make sure you and me don't have to worry about a thing. So this lifestyle you talking about does not belong to you or me and it can be snatched away from us. Please you think Jackie excites you? That's because he's a married man. What's going to happen when they divorce? Will the love be there? Will there be passion between you guys?"

"Please Lydia he doesn't love you, Didn't he tell you he has love for you? that's not the same-"

I was quickly cut off with Lydia's attitude filled rhetoric.

"That's enough you're going way too hard for someone who's man isn't even apart of their child's life."

I quickly became heated.

"Oh now you want to put me out on front street because I read your ass some rights, you needed to hear it you are tripping on his dick!"

"Oh I'm tripping on Jackie's dick just how Stephanie Mills' is tripping on Michael's. So before you start to popping them gums at me, know your man before you tell me about mine."

And with that Lydia was gone.

And this was the first time I just didn't care. I was tired of folks saying what they wanted to say to me and ruining my day or my life. I will enjoy my pregnancy and my life with my child.

By the looks of it, I will be enjoying my life without Michael.

~

Although I enjoyed my day of shopping for my baby, and even signed some autographs what Lydia said replayed in my head over an over again.

I had to admit I could not shake what Lydia said about Michael. A part of me didn't want to believe her because we were arguing. Maybe she said it out of anger? But I had to go see for myself.

When I got home I was exhausted, however I convinced Donna and my Dad to let me drive and I made my way to Michael's house to confront him. I pulled up to the gate to see Henry, the usual guard.

"I'm sorry Ms. Holland, but I was instructed not to let you in, Mr. Jackson's orders." Henry said sadly.

I made the saddest face I could muster up, of course Joseph would do this to me.

"Please Mr. Henry I have to see Michael plus he left something at my house I just want to return it." I lied

"Ms. Holland I'm sorry" Henry continued to deny me.

"Please Mr. Henry I will be in and out, I won't cause problems you know me."

Henry sighed and ran a hand down his face, he leaned into my car window.

"Mr. Jackson is out on business please be quick and if anything tell them the new guard let you in."

We shared a laugh and he granted me access behind the gate.

I pulled up to the house and I see a unfamiliar car parked in the front.

I sat there contemplating whether now is the right time to do this.

I never been a scared bitch, but I'll be damn if I let Michael and some hussy cause me to go into early labor. I rubbed my tummy to soothe me and my baby boy cause I had to a gut feeling this would be some shit.

I grabbed my purse and walked to the door. I knocked and Randy opened the door with a huge smile and quickly closed the door behind him.

"Hey, what are you doing here?"

He gave me a slight hug and a kiss on the cheek. Randy is such a cutie pie.

I love his smile, but let's be real all the Jackson's got the best smile.

"Hey Ran, I came to drop something off to Michael is he here?"

Randy looked down, but kept his smile.

Something ain't clean in the buttermilk!

He's hiding something!

"Michael's here, but he's busy in the studio"

I pursed my lips and squinted my eyes to show him I smell his bullshit coming.

"Randy please get him, I need to drop this off to him and I drove a long way my feet hurt and my back aches its not easy to carry a baby. Do you know how it feels to have a baby sit on your bladder? Do you? do you?" I pushed him.

"No, No, No. I'm sorry" Randy said in distressed.

"Look I'll tell Michael you stopped by I just don't want to disturb him you know Michael hates to be disturbed."

Michael never minded when I came by, but then again that was back when he loved me.

I sighed because this is going nowhere.

"Ok" I agreed.

"I'll walk you to your car" he offered.

He flashed a smile and wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

As he walked me to my car I heard laughter from a female and a male.

"I'm going to get you!"

That's Michael!

I turned and looked at Randy with a scowl while he looked at everything else but me.

"Well I have to be somewhere that's not here cause I don't want to be dragged in the pits of hell with Michael"

He scurried in the house and I saw him peek out the curtains.

I turned around to see Michael and Stephanie Mills with water guns in their bathing suits having a good ole funky time. This is what he does make promises to me and breaks them and brings other girls here!

I sat there with my arms crossed, keeping my breathing leveled because I don't want to fly off the handle and snatch this bitch.

"Hello, who are you?"

The suspect in your untimely murder, I thought to myself.

"Oh my gosh, Baby Doll I hardly recognized you I am so sorry. I am a huge fan" she gushed.

She stepped up to me trying to shake my hand I gave her a fake smile. I was never one to act like a Diva, but I had to do it for her.

"I'm sure. Can I please speak to Michael alone?"

She looked back at Michael like she was waiting on his permission. Bitch you better leave, he can't save you!

Michael nodded and she skipped off like the squirrel sitting on her head.

I instantly pushed Michael when she was out of sight, my blood was boiling.

"Are you serious right now?!"

I silently screamed because I don't want Randy to hear me.

"Calm down please-"

"Please? you think I give a damn about your please? I am over here working and going to school to take care of our baby, you don't even want! You couldn't even tell me you were ready to move on! You couldn't even pretend you love me!

I hit him and he yelled at me while holding onto me.

"I never asked you for money all I asked you for was to be there. I'm glad you get to run around and be free while I'm taking care of our responsibility. I was there for you and you do me like this why?!

"Please it is not what it seems she is a friend who was in town-"

"Liar! Get off me!" I yelled and pushed him the hardest I could.

"I have been taking shit from everyone! and you haven't even been there but you know what? fuck you! Everything your father says about you is true, but me and my son will be just fine."

I begin to walk off, but I paused and turned to him.

"Oh yeah, congrats you're having a boy!"

I threw the sonogram pictures his way and ran to my car. I held my cries in, but some tears did escape my eyes.

I am officially done with Michael. Its one thing to neglect me, but continue to neglect my child and destroy my child's family; No more.

No more from anybody and the one person I need to talk to is the one person, who told me out of spite.

I just wish Lydia wasn't right.