Lydia's Prom Dress And Looks Is At The Top
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No matter how mad I was, I was still a fan of the Jackson family. Their swift moves and on point harmonies had me grooving with the crowd. Even though Michael wasn't looking directly at me I knew he stole glances every now and then.

Eat your heart out Michael.

After Dance Machine the crowd cheered as they went into Enjoy Yourself. "You sitting over there staring into space, while people are dancing. Dancing all over the place." I blushed as Michael pointed at me he knew exactly what he was doing he knew his showmanship attracted me to him.

Just like every other girl when Michael was on stage I saw only him and he captured me. Feeling like a schoolgirl I blushed and giggled. His dancing made someone with two left feet feel they can get down and his voice could even make a grown man cry, and in some cases it did.

When Michael begin singing my Forever Came Today I knew he did this on purpose because this was our song. We actually met when my Father and his writing partners introduced the song to the fellas, I even helped my dad write it. Being that my father was a singer and a songwriter himself I inherited the gift.

His smile dazzled me, Michael belonged on that stage. I was jealous of Michael being able to still perform and sing doing what he loved to do while I had to stay home working a 9 to 5 to ensure my baby would never want for anything.

I can't live off of my father's money forever.

Willie grabbed me bumping his hips with mine. Not now! Not now! But this would be good punishment for Michael he needs to know Tayler is not his stand by. I will not be here every time he called for me and I will not be standing there waiting every time he looked back.

"HOW YOU FEELING TONIGHT CLASS OF 76'" Jackie tried to hype up the crowd. The crowd cheered and clapped some whistling. I couldn't help seeing Michael look at me and look down in disappointment. Oh yeah he knew he messed up. "SINCE WE KNOW YOU GUYS ARE GRADUATING IN A FEW WEEKS Y'ALL ARE GETTING EVERYTHING TOGETHA'! DO THE PEOPLE WANT TO HEAR GET IT TOGETHER?!" The crowd roared once again. "WHAT DO YOU SAY MIKE?!" He looked at Michael and he slid in front of his microphone so smooth singing along with the rest of the boys "Get it together or leave it alone!"

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After singing Get it Together  the group sang Keep on Dancin', Find me a Girl, You Were Made, and lastly I'll Be There to slow things down. I don't know what came over me one minute I was happy the next I was overcome with emotion by the one line "Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter, togetherness girl its all I'm after" I immediately fled the ballroom with Lydia on my tail, but after convincing her I was fine she went back in to tell John I was ok.

I had my back leaning on the side of the building glancing up at the night sky. I just wanted Michael to be there for me, I feel all alone. He knew what that felt like Michael often confided into me about how lonely he felt, sometimes I could relate people always had this perception of me always had high hopes and now I disappointed them. Even now I feel like I wasn't good enough for Michael music is what connected us and now I don't have that. I don't have a high school diploma, yet. I don't have any awards to show for my hard work, now that I'm having this baby I have no idea what to do now.

"God show me a sign everything will be ok" I inhaled and exhaled calming my nerves before I go back into the building.

"Are you ok?" I heard the familiar sweet soft voice, there he was.

Michael.

I snapped my head toward him. "Are you?" He asked again in his soft tone. I knew he was nervous because his voice often soften when he was scared. Seeing him sent my heart into palpitations, but my anger got the best of me so my mind spoke before my heart could.

"Now you care?" He looks down leaning his shoulder against the wall next to me. I faced forward not wanting to look at him. "You haven't called me. You haven't came by to see me. Michael I could give birth any day, hell I could've gave birth days ago and you wouldn't even know so all that (I mimicked his voice) are you ok? Doesn't mean a damn thing to me".

Michael cursed but not often he didn't like it and I felt bad for cursing, but I was mad. Why does he care now? Why all of sudden now he sees me with another guy he wants to come running. I knew better than to think Michael never cared because he is the most gentle and sweetest person you could ever meet, but the way he acted now scared me and sent me into defensive mood.

"I wish I could be like you! Not have a care in the world just perform and do what I love, but no now I'm stuck being a mother all on my own" he quickly interjected "You are not on your own. I am here, you should know that." "Just because I should doesn't mean I do."

"Michael do you not know how that feels? I lost everything Michael. Everything! I just need you to be there for me." I sat there pouring my heart out not wanting to cry, but my eyes did water up a bit. I turned my head facing forward before he could see me.

Michael just sat there sighing and he came face to face with me connecting his forehead with mine, and putting his hand on the back of my neck.

"You know I love you. I'm trying I really am, but I'm scared." I scoffed "And you don't think I am? When are you going to tell them?" He backed up just exhaling "When I'm ready" I took it as an offense and began walking off, but he grabbed my arm gently pulling me back.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I need time." I crossed my arms "Time? You had nothing but I'm due in three weeks Michael! When are you going to tell them? When the baby gets here?"

"No of course not! When the baby goes off to college!" He flashed his pearly whites. "Thats not funny Michael." I said trying to fight the urge to laugh, his smile always gets to me. All he did was wiggle his eyebrows begging me to let go of my giggles with I know you want to. I let out a laugh hitting his arm "Thats not funny."

"But it made you laugh." He took me in his arms and gave me that look. Michael's eyes captures your attention and makes the atomsphere around you feel like it stood still he leaned in softly kissing me.

I waited two weeks to kiss him and I'm going to show him how much I missed him. I leaned in again this time massaging my tongue against his Michael was a gentlemen, but he knows how to please you and leave you wanting more. I taught Michael how to please my body and lets say he's a quick learner.

"Woah, we have a soccer player in there?" He puts his hand on his rambunctious child. "No he's a dancer just like his daddy." He pecks me smiling. Michael continues rubbing my stomach "Hey she's your mother, but she's my woman!"

I blushed at him fighting with the baby "Your woman? At least she acknowledges me you haven't even told your woman how good she looks!" He playfully fixed his tie and linked his arm in mine "My lady you look very fine tonight, make a blind man have sight, and have me looking for you in the daytime with a flashlight."

I bust out laughing he is so silly. No matter how mad I swore up and down I was at Michael I could never stay that way. Only he knew how to get through to my hard exterior.

"There is that smile." I hugged him again savoring his embrace hoping he doesn't let go. I missed Michael and I wish we didn't have to hide anymore.

"Why don't we just hang out tomorrow. Just come over and we'll talk things out maybe even get in the pool-" I made a loud nasal sound and he laughed. "Pool? You gone have me out there looking like a damn beach whale." I said pursing my lips with my hands on my hips. He chuckled.

"Even with the belly you look beautiful and this dress girl you are working it. You are wearing that dress, it is not wearing you."

I posed as Michael pretended to take pictures of me. "Ok your turn!" I took the invisible camera. "Get the good side." He posed spinning around making serious faces like he was on GQ Smooth, then he started making silly faces causing us to giggle.

"MICHAEL!"

I heard a voice that sounded like nails on a chalkboard. We both snapped our heads in that direction to see Joseph Jackson and we quickly pulled apart.

I wasn't like everyone else I did not fear Joseph. What for? We bleed just the same. God gave me a mouth just like him so I'll use it any way I please.

"What did I tell you about that girl?" He said inching his way close speaking through his teeth. He looked between me and Michael. Michael stood there looking like he was caught in headlights chocking on his words.

"This girl has a name and I suggest you use it Mr.Jackson." I stood tall in front of Michael. "Get your tail in that car. NOW!" He shouted causing Michael to jump a bit. He looks at me like he was sorry and turns away walking toward Joseph. Joe pushed his head with force almost causing him to fall.

"You stay away from my son." He pointed his finger. I scoffed "You tell your son to stay away from me. Your son is a grown man fattening up your wallet in the process he can talk to whoever he wants. Matter of fact you are not my father so I can talk to whoever I want to Mr.Jackson. Tell Michael I said good night and speak to him soon." I cut my eyes at him, leaving him standing there.

The nerve of this man he doesn't scare me. Hell I don't need Michael to save me I can save my damn self. Besides, he is his father. But Michael is my child's father and soon he has to choose.

With Michael:

"YOU STAY AWAY FROM THAT GIRL! I TOLD YOU SHE'S JUST GOING TO USE YOU! USE YOUR HEAD. BARRY HAS FIRED HER AND NOW SHE'S TRYING TO JUMP ON YOUR BANDWAGON TO USE YOUR NAME!"

"WHY? I CAN TALK TO WHOEVER I PLEASE! IF SHE WANTED TO USE ME SHE WOULD'VE BEEN TRIED! IT WAS YOUR IDEA I DATE HER IN THE FIRST PLACE!"

How dare Joseph contradict himself. He wanted me to date her cause it look good for press. I did have a crush on her, but it was a coincidence that while we were falling off she was getting on. Our fans will mingle and be interested in the relationship and sales would go up. And they did.

Once she got pregnant and fired that was the end. Joseph refused to let me see her, but I'm almost 19 he can't do this.

"I DON'T WANT RUMORS SURROUNDING YOU! THIS GIRL HAS YOUR NOSE SO WIDE THATS WHY ITS FAT NOW! YOU STAY YOUR ASS AWAY FROM HER OR ITS THE END OF THE GROUP!"

He's been saying that same line since I was young.

"AND IF I DON'T?!"

I stepped close feeling courageous. Mother walked in and Joseph grabbed me by my collar jacking me up against the wall. Mother pleaded for him to let me go. I pushed him with so much force he stumbled back releasing me and just like I did when I was little I took off for my room.

I listened as mother chastised Joseph. I was sick of this. I was so confused my emotions are getting the best of me.

Its all to much and I'm scared to disappoint, but one thing is for certain I wanted my child to be proud of me.

I sat in my bed crying I'm just as scared as she is.