I sat up abruptly, sweat dripping from my forehead, "What the hell?" I whispered out of breath, I glanced at the alarm clock, 7:43, this can't be right. I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and shook myself awake.

I'm not supposed to sleep. I'm supposed to shut down, sort through memories. I haven't slept in years, to the point where I forgot the feeling, what it was like to dream, it was the most sensational thing I've ever witnessed.

I made my way to the bathroom and brushed my hair in the mirror, I smiled at my reflection, glad that things were finally going my way. I hopped into the shower hoping that Robyn or Lucy wouldn't wake up just yet because I wanted Tommy to lie in.

I couldn't shake the feeling, it was as if it was too different. It had been years since I've slept let alone dream and it was so... real.

"Good morning" I smiled as I entered Robyn's bedroom, she stood up in her cot and began bouncing with joy when she saw me, I handed her the warmed up bottle as I searched for a cute outfit for her to wear.

"I had a dream last night" I smiled, knowing she couldn't understand but continued to make conversation, "it was the most amazing feeling ever" I added as I finished changing her diaper, "Grandad was in it and so was Veronica, we were back on YouTube, way back when" I whispered.

"How about we go wake Lucy up, she has school in an hour"

I crept into Lucy's bright pink bedroom and made my way over to the window and opened her blinds and curtains allowing light to flood into her room. I sat down beside her and began trying to wake her up. "Just a few more minutes?" She moaned,

"fine" I gave in, "but there will be no time for tv" I warned as she quickly agreed and closed her eyes.

I made my way downstairs with Robyn in my arms, I placed her in the high chair as I began preparing breakfast. She hummed along to a theme song for a show she was watching, making up random words and slotting them in wherever she could,!making me laugh. Lucy eventually trudged down the stairs, the alarm I set obviously worked, she sat at the table and joined in watching the show.

I heard an obnoxious bang on the front door making me jump, I took the porridge off the stove and made my way over to the front entry.

Veronica stood before me, tears stained her rosy flushed cheeks, she wore the same clothes as she wore yesterday, she was trembling. "Are you-" I tried asking but she pulled me in for a hug before I could finish, my arms lay limp for a second until I returned the hug. "What's wrong?" I asked, not letting her go,

"I'm so stupid" she cried into my shoulder as I pushed her hair back behind her ears, "your not stupid" I whispered, closing the door a little so the girls couldn't hear the conversation. "Tell me what's wrong?" I asked, directing her inside and into the living room where we sat opposite each other.

She took her face out of her palms to reveal a horrified expression, "It all came back to me last night and I don't know how, I- I don't understand how I just forgot" she sobbed, "it... you remembered?" I asked shocked. Her face scrunched up once more and she dug it into her palms.

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I stood up and began pacing, I was breathing quickly and heavily, "This doesn't make any sense!" I shouted at her, I didn't mean to sound angry but it had to be now that she remembered everything. "Why not yesterday or the hundred other times I tried telling you?" I asked annoyed, rolling my eyes as I continued to pace.

"You did this to me!" She spat, standing up and stopping me from walking, "you made me forget so I'm still confused on why you're angry at me. We could have done this together but you chose yourself once again" she shouted back making me even more angry, "you think I wanted this?" I laughed sarcastically.

"Do you know how much I want to go up to my husband and tell him how much I love him and mean every word if it, do you know how many times I've wanted to end it all just because if you didn't remember, I would drive myself crazy and I couldn't bear being near you!" I cried, tears dripping to the floor, my head hurt with frustration.

"You put this on yourself" She defended herself,

"If I put it on myself you wouldn't be standing here, I wouldn't live in this house and I wouldn't have any children, instead I'd be lying dead beneath your feet, again" I exhaled.

"It's over and this time there's no going back because trust me, if I could I would have changed a lot of things, years ago" I cried, "If you're gonna sit here and complain to me about problems that took years of therapy for me to even forget about for a second that you've had for a few hours, get out" I ordered as she stood up and gathered herself.

I led her over to the front door, a short unexpected visit.

"What's gonna happen now?" She asked, rubbing her eyes dry the mood changing instantly, "well there's no going back this time, I guess your my turn" I shrugged, "I don't know what 12 means but we must be in order cause I slept last night" I began,

"-and I didn't" she interrupted. "I'll tell you all you need to know" I told her bluntly, our relationship taking a turn, "I'm scared" she whispered, "so am I"

I closed the heavy door and took a breath of air, "this can't be real" I sighed, there is no chance I'm going back to 2016, again. I'm not leaving my family behind to go through it all again, I'm fine at the stage we're at.

"Start packing!" Tommy called from upstairs, distracting me from thought, a smile spread across my cheeks, I forced myself to forget about Veronica and focus on the positives. He rushed down the stairs and picked Robyn up,

"Our new home is ready"

(2nd last chapter. It's strange to think that I've been working three years on These books together but I've loved it❤️ thanks for reading it means so much!!!)

When should I post the last chapter?😋