Chapter 92

For the next few days Alana texts Luke but he doesn't answer like he normally does. He tries his best to stay away from her, taking the time he needs. He is torn between what he wants and what is right. He misses her, he just knows the ending to this wouldn't be good.

Alana doesn't know what is going on, she just tries to get his attention to see if he is ok. She is beside herself, and the more she tries not to think about it, the worse it gets. It takes over her whole mind, and being wondering what the hell is going on?

"Luke, what is wrong? Are you ok? Please answer me?!" Alana says.

"Hey, I am sorry I been away, things are busy and I am not sure when I can see you again. Things changed here, I think maybe we should work on our marriages." Lukes replies.

Alana just rereads the text over and over not sure she is reading this right.

"Where did this come from? We were happy? Why now this?" Alana asks.

"I Love you, I am not going to deny it or lie about it. Just Whitney wants to try and I think it may be for the best. We always said we would stay, you have a son. Its best this way." Luke answers.

"Please don't do this. What we have is special is real. Don't through it away. She can never give you what you really want." Alana says.

"I know what we have is special. Its why walking away is so hard. I just need to see and make sure my marriage is over. You should do the same. Take Thomas up on his trying, maybe you can get what you need after all. " Luke responds, feeling a pit in the middle of his stomach.

"He could never give me what you do. Never make me feel like you do. You are being selfish!" Alana spats.

"No, I am not. I am trying to keep from hurting two innocent people. And turning our lives upside down for a romance we don't even know that will work. Its all just fantasy now, because we can't be together. You have to think about reality, Alana. We shouldn't have started this, we let our passion and hearts get in the way, and that wasn't what this was supposed to be." Luke admits.

"Bullshit! We just let our real feelings out and now you're scared of them! Don't run away from it. Don't run away from me, from us!!" Alana says.

"I know you really care, just this is for the best, you will see. In years to come, you will look back and thank me." Luke answers.

"For what, turning my life upside down? From breaking my heart? For letting me know what real love is and taking it away from me just like that?" Alana spats.

"At least we had it, and we know what it was. In the short time, I was with you, I experienced everything I never thought possible. At least we both know it's real." Luke comments feeling miserable already.

"I can't imagine never talking to you again, or seeing you or feeling you." Alana cries.

"I am so sorry," Luke responds. Feeling the same way, just keeping it to himself.

Luke gets off the phone, feeling drained and empty. He didn't want this, he just knew it was for the best of everyone else. He was used to always putting himself on the backburner to make others happy, this time, he just made the biggest sacrifice he has ever made. His heart hurt, and he didn't really think he would ever be the same. Never be whole again there would always be this empty space inside of himself, one that Alana would always hold.

For Alana she just stands in the Kitchen looking at her phone, feeling hurt and her heart torn in pieces. She can't hold back her emotions she just bursts out in tears crying while she is making dinner. Thomas just looks at her and knows something is wrong as he never has seen her like this before.

"Alana are you ok?? What's wrong?" Thomas asks going up to her.

"I can't. Please finish up dinner. I need to go to my room." Alana answers running upstairs.

Thomas just nods still not knowing what is going on. He takes the pots off of the heat and heads upstairs after her.

He lightly bangs on her door, "Alana, what is wrong? Did something happen?" Thomas prods.

Alana knows she needs to get herself together, she just can't seem to stop the tears from falling or her heartbreaking. She feels just as Empty as Luke does and what hurts more is that she has to keep all of this inside of herself.

She wipes her tears and tries to pull herself together, leaving her phone on the nightstand, she goes to open her bedroom door.

"Everything is fine, it was just work. A pet we were taken cared of passed away. It just hurt me." Alana states.

"Oh, I am so sorry. I know you much you love the animals you take care of. I just never saw you get like that before." Thomas replies.

"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you." Alana answers.

"It's ok, Come on downstairs I will finish up dinner. " Thomas replies.

"I don't think I will be very good company, Thomas. I really don't feel too well." Alana states.

"It's ok, you will be with your family. You need to be with someone, to get your mind off of it." Thomas says, feeling something more is up and he wants to try his best to look like the good one.

He takes her by her hand and takes her to the dinner table pulling out her chair. Alana just sits there holding in her real feelings. She has no appetite and eats nothing. She just sits there to make him feel better, and so he doesn't notice anything.

Thomas tries to keep the conversation going, with Tommy. He sees that Alana is barely there, not paying attention to anything. He can see she can't wait till dinner is over. This just makes him wonder even more what the truth is?

After dinner Alana says goodnight not even cleaning up, leaving it for Thomas. She goes into her room and just sobs on her bed, this wasn't what she wanted at all. She thought she had a new beginning and here she was stuck with what she had all the while.