Chapter 194

Alana leaves the house going to the spot to meet Luke, as she walks there she remembers years ago how excited she would be to see him. She just knows this time she needs to keep her cool. A lot has taken place since then and she wasn't going to get hurt again. If she was honest with herself her heart never fully healed from last time. She had feelings for him but at the same time, was very hurt by him. He walked away from her as if they had nothing. As if what they shared didn't mean a thing. She was left picking up the pieces of her life and even having to stay with Thomas for the sake of Lucia. Now even knowing he had a child with his wife at the same time she was pregnant, killed her deep inside.

She just stands on the corner waiting and even wondering if this was a good idea to even come. What good would this do? Twenty years went by, twenty wasted years, of being forced to stay. Yes, it wasn't the end of the world. The marriage wasn't the worse, Thomas tried and even took Lucia, just Alana feels things could have been a lot different.

Luke drives down to the place they always met, finding a parking lot and remembering how his heart would beat fast years ago just thinking about being with her. How happy seeing her made him. He knows he has a lot to make up for if she will even let him. He knows he missed out on so much, just could he fix it now?

Luke parks the car not sure how this is going to go. She could be happy to see him or very angry. Her texts gave him an impression of her holding herself back. So either it was to protect herself or she had no feelings for him anymore. He just remembers how rattled she was when she first saw it was him. Then he thinks it could just be the situation itself.

He texts her that he is there and on his way.

"I'm waiting on the corner." Alana answers.

"I will be right there," Luke replies getting out of his car.

He remembers the first time they did this, how excited they both were to see each other. He feels the same way today.

As he walks he sees her standing there, he can't help but smile. They might be a lot older now but she still was very beautiful to him.

Alana sees him, and her heart leaps she just tries her best not to show it.

"Hello, it's great to see you. I am glad you let me come see you." Luke says.

"There are things we need to talk about," Alana answers trying to keep her cool as she looks him over.

She wants to just hug him but she keeps her hands to herself.

"We can go to the vet, there isn't anyone there and we can talk," Alana suggests.

"That's fine with me," Luke responds.

Luke is trying to feel her out just at the moment he isn't sure how she is feeling. She is a little cold and is keeping her emotions hidden.

Alana walks Luke to the vet's office opening the door and letting him in. It takes him back to the night they had sex over the desk, the night he knows Lucia was conceived.

"I see you own it now, you and your son." Luke states.

"Yes, I am a full vet now. It was the one thing I did that I really wanted. I didn't make anything or one-stop me." Alana admits.

"Good, I am glad. You are great with animals and I always knew this made you happy." Luke comments.

"Have a seat, what did you want to say?" Alana asks.

"There are a few things I would like to say. The first one being I am so sorry. I should have never done what I did. I regret it greatly. I never stopped thinking about you or loving you." Luke reveals.

"You just walked away, you didn't look back. Didn't answer my texts. Nothing, like I never existed or meant a thing to you."Alana announces.

"You meant and mean a lot to me always have. I just took the easy way out. Things were so complicated. When Thomas came to meet me, I had so many emotions. I felt that you wanted to work it out with him, and I didn't want to get in the way." Luke states.

"You slept with her while being with me, you got her pregnant at the same time. You chose her, even before knowing anything about Thomas & I," Alana replies.

"That's not all fair Alana, you knew I didn't want to leave her, that I wanted my marriage to work. When Whitney came to me about having children I didn't even think she was serious at the time. Everything happened so fast and when I did want to come back, Thomas said you two were working on it, and having a baby." Luke admits.

"I thought after being with me that long, and everything we shared, you felt the same and wanted me as much as I wanted you. You really thought it was Thomas's baby?? That I would sleep with him while I was with you? Do you know how hard it was to sleep with him so he would think it was his baby? How hard I cried afterward? That all I thought about was you?"Alana lets out.

"I am so sorry. I had my doubts it was his, but at the time, I just played it safe. I know I was wrong, and I can't take it back. I am sorry for hurting you this much. I never meant to. I did and do feel the same. I just thought at the time I should give my marriage a chance. She showed me a glimpse of what I thought I wanted and I went for it. Just, in the end, it wasn't what I really wanted at all. It was with the wrong person." Luke answers.

Alana is shaking inside, she held all this in for all this time. Looking at him standing in front of her she can't believe he is really there, that he really still cares. Just it's hard for her to let her guard down.

"I didn't come here to upset you and I see I have. I will leave and leave you alone. I just want you happy. I also wanted to say I was sorry and I still love you very much." Luke states.

Alana just looks at him but doesn't say a word. Luke gets up and walks out the vet door feeling defeated and hurt. A part of him was more broken than before.