Chapter 144

Months have gone by, Lucia is now four months old. Thomas and Alana have been getting along great watching this little baby grow. It gives them both such joy to see all the new things she does daily. Their relationship has been good and Alana does her best to put her love for Luke away. Knowing it will get her nowhere.

One day Alana is home cleaning, she has taken months off to spend with Lucia. She goes upstairs into the closet and wants to clean it out, getting rid of some old things she has for a while and even some of Thomas's things.

She places the baby in the bouncy seat, in Alana's bedroom as she goes through the closet. She makes a few big black bags getting rid of a lot of her own things, then she goes to Thomas's Closet looking through it. She finds a few things of his that she knows he doesn't wear or hasn't for a long time. She finds a shoebox and opens it finding her old phone in it.

"Why would Thomas have my phone in his closet?" She asks herself.

She goes to charge it and opens it up...seeing one missed message after another from Luke. Seeing they were supposed to meet up, and knowing she never sent that text.

Her heart falls to her stomach as she sits on the floor in front of the closet.

"He did want me. He did contact me. It was Thomas." She says to herself filled with anger.

She keeps staring at the texts wanting to reply, wanting to tell him, I didn't know, but I want you too. Wanting to fix everything, she just thinks it been months since this text. It would only mess everything up now. What did Thomas Say Or do? What was Thomas hiding from her? How could he!

Alana cleans up the mess she made, throwing the bags onto the trash. She puts her phone in her nightstand table drawer and goes downstairs to make dinner.

Trying her best not to show her son how hurt and upset she is. Thomas comes home to her in the kitchen cooking the baby in the swing and Tommy watching tv.

He goes to the kitchen to kiss her hello and sees she pulls back when he does.

"Is everything ok?" Thomas asks.

Alana just looks at him, doing her best not to break down.

"Yea, just tired," Alana says.

"I can take over if you need me too. I know your busy with the baby all day, I also see you cleaned our closets." Thomas answers.

"I am fine, just get ready for dinner," Alana replies.

Thomas sees something is wrong, he just doesn't know what it is, and also doesn't want to do it in front of the children. So he remains quiet and does as he is told.

They sit down to have dinner, Thomas sees that Alana doesn't say much and her mind is somewhere else. He just continues to talk to Tommy and act as if everything is fine. After dinner, Thomas does the dishes as Alana gets the baby ready for bed. Thomas sees she stays away from him, the best she could, and this is new as for the last few months things have been great. Thomas just wonders what is going on, and why is she so distant tonight. What happened?

This makes him a bit on edge wondering what the shift is, what could change her like this? They have been close, and even romantic with each other, keeping their sex life alive. She hasn't done anything like this in a long time.

Thomas says goodnight to their son, and checks in on Lucia sleeping peacefully in her crib. He then goes to his own room, seeing Alana getting ready for bed.

"Alana, what is wrong? You been so distant tonight?" Thomas asks when he walks in the bedroom door.

"I don't want to talk about it." Alana answers.

"I know your upset about something its written all over you, I don't want to go back to what we had before." Thomas states.

"Really Thomas." Alana turns around to face him.

"Talk to me," Thomas replies seeing she is fuming.

Alana opens her bedroom side table drawer and throws the phone at him.

"You are something! You lied and kept this from me. You had no freaking right to talk to him, to not tell me he wanted me!! You made me think he wanted nothing to do with me, that he left me, and here he was trying to contact me. YOU lied to me!" Alana shouts tears running down her face.

Thomas just looks at the phone that just hit him in the shoulder and fell to the bed.

"I didn't want to lose you. I knew if you talked to him, you would go back. That everything we were building would go down the drain. I couldn't let that happen." Thomas admits.

"You watched as I fell apart," Alana says.

"I'm sorry. It hurt me to see you cry over him like that, to want him like that."Thomas admits.

"He wanted me too, He wanted me back. I saw all the texts and you answering as me! What did you say to him?" Alana shouts.

"That he needed to walk away and go to his own wife. That we were working on things and he should stay away. That we were having a child together and making our marriage work." Thomas reveals.

"You told him about the baby? He knows?" Alana asks.

"Yes, and he walked away. He was smug in saying that you would never love me the way you do him." Thomas states.

Alana just sits on the bed and cries, it hurts her to think Luke thinks it's Thomas's child. She just keeps that to herself.

"Are you going to contact him now?" Thomas asks.

"It's been months, he probably is trying to make it work with her." Alana answers.

"I am sure he is. We have it good here Alana, things have really been great with us and our children. " Thomas says.

"You lied to me, I am most hurt by that Thomas. You went behind my back and stole my phone. You made me think, he walked away." Alana responds.

"He did walk away it took him months to want to talk to you! He is a jerk, and you just don't see it. YOu don't want to see it. YOu are so blinded by him, what does he have?" Thomas yells.

"He was confused, he wanted to make his marriage work and then feelings for me got in the way. Do You think this was easy on any of us? I don't want to fight with you, its not going to get us anywhere." Alana comments.

"Are you leaving now? Going to go back to him? Contact him? Was these last few months for nothing?" Thomas responds.

"No, but you made me wonder what would have been even more than before, So thank you for that! Thank you for letting me hurt for months, and believe a lie." Alana confronts.

"A lie? There are many of those in this marriage Alana, not only from me!" Thomas barks.

"I know, but I trusted you. I thought we got past things, and here you are the same." Alana says.

"I am not the same, I want this to work, and I knew if he came back it was over. You would leave everything to be with him, for some fucking reason. SO I just want to fucking know now, are you staying or going after him? Cause I have had it, if you want him, fine. there isn't anything I can do." Thomas yells.

"I already told you I am not going anywhere. I want you to keep your hands off my shit, and if you ever do anything like this again, I am gone." Alana answers.

"Fine," Thomas replies.

Alana gets into bed, with her mind filled with so many questions. This made her wonder so many things, and be filled with more hurt.

Thomas gets into bed, knowing this put a kink into the relationship, she hated him for sending Luke away. He knew that was what was bothering her the most. He just wondered for how long would she stay away from him now? Would she really stay and why did she say she would? It was her way out, and yet she wasn't taking it. Thomas was filled with worry and sadness that he might have just fucked up his marriage again.