So, this is deep stuff. Just let me get it out there, I'm quitting wattpad.

The reason is quite simple. I joined in August of 2018 to publish my book and see what everyone thought about it. I absolutely adored writing, and it's something I want to do for the rest of my life. But when I joined wattpad, I found out I was vulnerable to something I never thought I'd be privy to... The Numbers Game.

Let me explain.
My mindset towards my story became less about how good it was but about the number of reads it got, or the number of votes or the number of comments. For me, writing was an escape, it was a stress reliever and something I'd do to cheer me up on my worst days, but eventually that enjoyment dwindled away and writing became a chore because my goal wasn't to write a good story, but to get those numbers up.

I wouldn't be able to write a new chapter because I waiting for certain friends to read the previous one. The rationale behind that was to get their 'thoughts' , to get their 'validation' ( in addition to their 'reads' ) or something along those lines. And if they liked it, show it to their friends and boost my reads.

And that's the numbers game.

But then I realized, I'm far too early in my writing career and far too young to worry about any of this. No writer wrote a bestseller in their first draft, and neither will I. So why should I worry about the numbers my initial drafts get?

So, what I'm going to do is;
I'm still writing my book, but on my own pace. I'll complete the entire thing and then submit it for publishing with my fingers crossed. And hopefully one day, you'll find me on the bookshelves of your local bookstore.

Thank you.
Shirozou Elric, signing out.