M U S I C I S R E C O M M E N D E D

Jungkook paid no attention to the comments and put on the "happy" act, but realization hit him as being this side of himself was getting more difficult.

No one should have to worry about him, I mean, they wouldn't anyways. Why would 'kookie' ever be not okay?

"As the super awesome and adorable maknae, I have a great idea to surprise our fans at the next concert!" Jungkook shouted, smiling confidently.

The guys sighed and groaned. Yoongi even face palmed. "And so it begins..."

Something inside of Jungkook hurt. It broke his heart to have the other members question his ideas and enthusiasm.

Jungkook frowned before smiling quickly again.

"Well? Get on with it!" Jin said. Jungkook breathed in and began ranting about instead of appearing on stage to hide within the crowd.

Taehyung noticed something was off. He frowned, and the last time he frowned was when he was forced to be 'snow tae'.

Jungkook went on about his ideas, proud of himself for coming up with such good ways to make the performance more exciting.

But it didn't stay that way.

After he finished, Jungkook smiled and looked at the others. All he saw were bored faces, and the occasional awkward clap (thanks again, Jimin).

But... he thought he worked really hard on it. Maybe it wasn't so good after all...

Hoseok started to point out the flaws in Jungkook's plans while everyone else went back to either talking or dancing. He mentioned his ideas not being useful, but in the nicest way possible.

"I'm sorry, but none of these will work with what we're up against. Anyone could think of that." Hobi stated flatly.

Jungkook's heart shattered.

All that work...

Time dedicated to thought...

He realized he was useless as well. No one cares if he left. How could something so small break his spirit?

He protested. "But I made these with careful precision!" At that moment he was done. It was too much.

The maknae wanted to go to a corner and cry.

"I don't feel okay, see you guys later."

And so he left, leaving the others suspicious, but they shrugged it off as if it was nothing.

Taehyung knew immidiently that something was up. A pit in his stomach started forming. But it could be anything, right?

No one else noticed that there was something wrong with kookie, they thought it wasn't that big of a deal.

Jungkook left the building towards a park and broke down on the spot. There's no point in being there. He IS a loser. He IS worthless.

He walked feeling horribly on the inside.

[Later]

Jungkook arrived at his dorm to find no one. A note on the kitchen counter said the guys went to a..zoo? While Jin was out grocery shopping.

He went back to his room and slid against the door. His eyes appeared bloodshot from crying too much.

His eye's tilted to see a knife on the nightstand.

"Why is that here?" He got up as tears rolled down his cheek. It was sharp, he smiled widely.

He looked at his smooth, pale arm. "Maybe I could just..." While tears slid down his cheeks, he grabbed the knife, which appeared sharp, causing him to smile a bit.

Jungkook slid it across his skin.

He winced. This was a new feeling to him...but it felt like a good feeling. Like he's been released some of his pain with an new, unfamiliar pain.

Although it stung like crazy, Jungkook only did it more and more. The more he cut, the he thought he should stop.

But poor kookie wasn't in control anymore.

Down on the floor were a few droplets of blood, which he could easily clean up so no one will have a clue about what he did.

He quickly got some wet towels and cleaned up his mistakes. His flaws... Something was definitely wrong with the the bunny.

Jungkook hasn't eaten in a while. He thought of grabbing some kimchi, but stopped himself.

Then the dorm phone suddenly rang, so Jungkook dragged himself out of his room. "Right when it was quiet." He looked down at the caller ID.

"Taehyung."