Everything unimportant
As I lay here staring at my ceiling
The ticket tape my mama always told me not to watch plays vividly in my mind and I hit the floor racing
I start having flashbacks of yesteryear and the tears they start to fall
I just don't want to see no more
I line my life in the spirit
Ask my ancestors for the answers
Give my thanks to the Divine mother
Yet the empty space that starts to fade keeps coming back
Like some kind of reminder
Keep doing work
I still have much to fix
My tool belt heavy
Trying to correct this mess
My reflection scoffs at times as I struggle with the memories
Everything unimportant
From the first cuss word I said to the day I took that drink and felt liberated
This movie should be dead
It's such a bummer
How many times has this girl escaped death
All this because my mind sent me tickets I never asked for
Everything unimportant
My journey hitting a wall
Yet I still keep climbing no matter how tall
This obstacle can't break me
Those choices don't make me
I am the author of my own story
And a damn good one in the making
You are strong
You beautiful
You are kind
You are wise
You are connected to the spirit, your ancestors, and the divine.
Manifest your destiny
The universe has a plan for me
I just need to stop trying to cheat
There are no short cuts when spiritually racing
Practice your marathon
This isn't a sprint
Even a sapling takes here to grow into it's roots
Everything unimportant
I am not saying that I need to forget the road I left behind
Those lessons are what gave me the wisdom I have today
That wisdom gave me the voice I so desperately sought
My prayer far from answered,  I am still meeting the Divine halfway
I am still a child that has yet to be taught
See this journey won't be easy she said while her partner reached out his hand and asked if I was ready
But I just love to challenge myself
yet change was something I ran from
My heart was racing
The signs I can no longer ignore
Stop this damn mumbling
Don't you see that opened door
It is time for action
I can't let myself suffer anymore
Everything unimportant
Tell your past self it's okay
That tomorrow is going to be just another day
Put down the knives
Step off the ledge
Don't drink that poison
Back out of traffic
Stop seeing that man, he's completely rotten
You know you can't swim
Don't get in that car
Don't sell yourself short
You are not dumb
You're smarter than you think
The future isn't perfect but you've so many positives to meet.
I can count four you will adore
Everything unimportant
I don't want to see any more
This ticket tape my mama always warned me of
The flashbacks come in so vivid and I sit in my chair screaming
don't, things will get better
Just take deep breaths
Hold on for a little longer
That scare will fade
You will wear it like a badge of honor
I count three reason why you see it that way
I line myself with the spirit
Ask my ancestors for answers
Connect myself with the Divine
Those past choices don't define me
I am the author of my own story
And a damn good one in the making
I have the pen to paper
I am still a work in progress
She told me this journey wouldn't be easy while her partner reached his hand out and said are you ready
I am so ready this time
The struggle can keep trying to beat me
I won't give up on what was promised
I gave myself my word
My smile will return
Even if my innocence has been lost
I desire the light the I bask in
The warmth it gives me I earned it
This is my manifestation and I plan to take it
I own it
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So just remember this movie that constantly plays forever on end
Repeating
Is everything unimportant