Tap tap tap tap
I hear the them
The footsteps of those who grin upon me with false hope in their eyes as the fake well wishes escape from their lips
I am surrounded by this false vibe
This wolf of negative energy that seems to be sucking the life from me with each second that tics by
The cold chill that blankets me as they gaze upon me
They envy me
So they wish to take my place
Maybe that is just the voices talking
I can feel the walls tremble with the whispers
Their snickers
It's very clear the knives they hold to my back
Such false hospitality
Such fake love
Contradiction after Contradiction
They keep coming trying their best to keep me trapped inside
I can feel the warmth of my tears
They stream down my face as they fill the room and I have barely enough time to take in a bit of air
I'm drowning at times as I try so desperately to wade the water
My lungs working hard to keep me alive and I must admit at times I wonder
Why...
Why do I even keep trying
To what end will my efforts go unnoticed
My cries fall on deaf ears
My past keeping a tight grip no matter where I turn
I just want to show you that I have finally found the real me
Yet the image you all have painted for yourselves has blinded you from the true masterpiece
When will this fairytale end
When will I wake from this Dream
This nightmare of reality
I am not asking for happily ever after
I just want to be free of my mind
To finally say I am at peace
Tap tap tap tap
I can hear them
The footsteps that pace the halls in front of my entrance wondering when would be a good time to open the door
They fumble with keys and whisper to someone and I finally hear the click of the lock as the it turns
I hear the voice as it yells to me
Letting me know its all up to me now
But do I dare open that door
I have no idea what's behind it and my gut tells me not to move an inch more
Please tell me
Divine  Mother
What exactly am I waiting for...