I feel like whenever I join in on something I always ruin it. I wanna ask people if I do ruin the things they like that I joined in but I'm too afraid to face negative comments. And I know that I should be able to get used to it but I've already been looked down upon so much I guess? I'm having mixed emotions and these emotions aren't the good ones.

Its like having a conversation and someone butts in and ruins the conversation that's how I feel when it comes to these because I think that me being gone would be better for everyone. I'm really sorry for a sad chapter but I've been thinking about these the past few days and it usually doesn't really bother me I say that "I'm sure some people don't think of me as that... Right?" But today just really have me thinking. Do people even care about me though? I don't think anyone likes me too.

Or maybe I just think about myself like this too much? This could be the truth to others some people don't like me but am I really ruining something?... Well besides this I hope you all have a wonderful day stay safe and take care. I also hope for a wonderful night whoever's time is night.... I'm not sleeping again I wish I didn't sleep at the afternoon now...

Had to have High high hopes for a living. Didn't know how but I always got a feeling. I was gonna be that one in a million. Always had high high hopes...