i was so used to seeing you
and loving you from afar
and for that moment,
i was fine with the way everything was.

but the reality sets in
and it all came crashing down on me,
he is not going to be here anymore

he has slipped through my fingers
that he didn't even held.

and i have no certainty,
no promise that i can rely on,
only hope and doubt
that sits beneath my heartache.

even if i was the only one loving us,
i'll still wait for you
until the moon and the sun
rests on my hand.

11:36, 8th June, 2018.