"Falling in love is like jumping off a really tall building. Your brain tells you it is not a good idea, but your heart tells you, you can fly."
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This reminds me of the first time I was with him in a car. Silent and awkward. But the most confusing thing is that I don't know why this is like this.

I still don't know if he remembers last night's event. Does he remember all the things he said to me. Probably not. But I really want him to remember the moment when he says those three words to me. I was so happy but now I understand it was only alcohol that made him say that.

"Stop sighing." His voice drag me back to the reality.
Shit..I was sighing. I didn't even know.

"Don't worry you won't be late to work. I paid John a healthy amount of money because of this."

Even when he's talking to me , He's looking at his laptop, refusing to look at me.
This take me back to this morning. Whenever I've slept with him , I've always found myself waking up in his arms. But today I woke up to a cold and empty side. When I reach the dining table he was already in his suit, eating breakfast. Without the usual good mornings there was no talk between us.
Has he finally came to his senses and decided that he still love his ex.

My chest squeeze in unbearable pain when thinking about it.

I stole a quick glance at him. His demeanor was aloof, lips pursed together in a thin line. Why is he like this. What have I done to deserve this?
The car suddenly stopped making me snapped back to reality.

"We've arrived. "His tone was clipped, businesslike.

"Oh.." That was all I could muster up that time.

For the first time that morning, he finally looks at me. His eyes were hidden below that cold stare.

"I'm going away for a business trip and won't be back before one week. So, I won't be able to pick you up but John will be here."

It sounds like he's telling me his daily routine and expect me to follow it. This doesn't settle well with me.

"And you're deciding to tell me this now." I raise my brows at him.

"What's there to tell. Why are you getting worried? I told you John will be here and if you need anything else than just confirm me."

He's really pushing me to the edge now.

"You think that's what I want." I look at him unbelievingly.

"Why are you yelling. I just told you if you need anything else than..."

"Just stop. Stop this bullshit" I was fuming with anger now.
"Actually you know what ,I do need something. I want you to leave me alone.

"Not possible."

Huh..the nerve of him.

"Ok ,than I'll leave." I tried to open the car's door. Damn why is it locked.

"I told you this before, I won't let you leave. I wasn't mocking then." His voice was laced with anger.

"And I'm telling you now, I don't need you." Which was a complete lie.

His angry stare faltered for a moment, replacing it with vulnerability, but it was gone as soon as it has come.

"Eliza, for God sake don't argue with me. I don't have time for this now."

He don't have time for me.
"Then don't. I didn't asked you to spend your precious time with me."

This woman is going to be the death of me..He mutter under his breath.

"What am I going to do with you?" Frustration was clear in his voice.

"You can start with letting me get out of your damn car."

His eyes snapped towards mine.
"Is that what you want." He was really angry now.
"Fine, go. But before you go you need to know that you never and when I say never that means never..ever..and never can get rid of me, understand."
When has he come this close to me.

He touch my face
"This is mine. Your face, your smile, your lips and even your anger, it's all mine."
His lips brushed mine in a small movement but it's enough to set my body on fire. He grabs my hairs roughly, but not enough to hurt me.

"You may not need me, Eliza. But I do. I need you more than I need my next breath. So don't even dare to leave me."

I can only stare at him. Cause every common sense was gone from my mind. I was waiting for something to happen and it did.
His lips crashed over mine , making me part my lips in response. His tongue was hungrily exploring my mouth while his hand was holding me in a tight grip.

He pulled away enough go look at my eyes.
"You're mine, Elizabeth Rowell and there is not a thing you can do about it."

"I want to be yours too, but it's you who push me away." My voice was thick with emotions." Why did you behave with me like that today, Zack?"

He let go of me in a hurry. That businessman replace my Zack again. The windows lock opened.

"Go, you're getting late."
His eyes were again anywhere but on me.
I sigh. Will I ever be able to understand him.
Before I leave I looks at him again, searching for anything that will tell me that he wants me here. What I saw was a cold , ruthless businessman, leaving me wondering how can he change just like this.

Without another word I got out of the car and went towards the diner. I thought he will come with me too, but as soon as I enter the diner, his car was gone.

Doesn't matter what we do, he always ends up hurting me.
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Just like he said, John was waiting with the car. I debate with myself weather to go or not. But I feel bad for John, who's nothing but nice to me. So I give in.

The car was slowly going towards my home. John was reluctant at first cause Zack told him to take me straight to his penthouse, but after today I really don't want to be there.

After the car stopped in front of my home, John help me get out.

"Thanks" I offer him a weak smile.
He nod his head.

I started to walk towards my house.

"Ma'am" John call after me.

I turn towards him with confusion. Did I left something at the car?

"Don't give up on, Mr.Bently"

To say that I was shocked will be a big understatement. This is the first time he has talked to me about Zack.

"I know I've no right to tell you what should you do, but please don't give up on him."

I lower my gaze. It's him who always give up on me.

John must've noticed my sadness.
"I know he's not easy to handle. But trust me, I've seen that young man since he was a kid, he was never this much happy,not before you came. I don't want to see him like before.
Goodbye Ma'am"

With that John was gone leaving me utterly and completely confused.
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"Liz, what's wrong?" Anna's voice sounded worried.

"What makes you think I'm worried."

"You're watching lord of the rings."

"So?"

"You hate it."

"Now I can't even watch a movie without being questioned about it." I snapped at her, making me feel instantly guilty. She don't desrve this, hell, I don't deserve this.

"I'm sorry. It's just me and my nerves are not in a good mood."

"Liz, you can tell me anything." She squeezed my shoulder in comfort.

I sigh" I know. But not now, please."

She looks worriedly at me.
"Ok, beside I've the night shift today. So, I gotta go. But remember, I'm always here."

I smile at her with a reassuring nod.
After she's gone my worries set in place again. Why hasn't he called me yet. It's been two fucking days without a word from him. Has he finally decided that I'm not good for him.
I quickly wipe the tears that began to flow. I won't cry over him. If he doesn't want me than I'll not be a burden to him. Only if my heart will agree with it too.
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Blood....Blood were everywhere. I was trying go pull someone away from something.
"It's okey to let go sometime." A voice said to me.

"No,no.." I was screaming " I'll not leave you alone."

I can heard people screaming everywhere. There was loud banging. The hand I was holding began to slip from me.
I tried to hold onto it. Suddenly there was a man ,I still can't see his face, he pushed me away.

I woke up in a bed of sweat battling for breath. This nightmare, why I see it. Who's that man. My head began to throb. Is it just a dream or there is truth hiding in it.

I finally realized what makes me wake up. The loud banging on the door was really giving me a headache.
Shit, it's 2.30
Who is it. Has Anna returned early today.

The banging became even louder.
"Coming"I yell

I went towards the door and open it.
What the...
An angry looking Zack Bently walk in, closing the door with a loud thump.

"WHERE IS YOUR DAMN PHONE?"
I jumped at his loud voice.

"ARE YOU GOING TO ANSWER ME OR NOT?" His yelling reach another level.

"Why are you yelling at me. What are you doing here, anyway?"

He looks at me unbelievingly.
"Oh me. I was supposed to attend a meeting now, but guess what..I'm with a stupid woman who WON'T EVEN ANSWER HER DAMN PHONE."
He yell at me.

This time I was the one fuming with anger.
"You're the one who didn't give me a call. How dare you blame me."

He looks at me for a moment.
"Eliza, where is your phone?" He asks calmly, too calmly and it's freaking me out.

I grab my purse and took my phone out.

I show it to him.
"See, no call."

He looks at me then back at the phone and then back at me.

"How about you see."
Why is he looking like he's about to burst out.
I looked at the phone.
Shit..
95 missed calls, 70 messages , 55 voice mails. I'm screwed. I finally remember that I put my mobile on silent mood when I was at the diner.

Before I can look up the phone was snatched away from me.

"Do you've any idea how worried I was. I was afraid that something's....why you've to be so stupid." His voice was showing anger but his eyes were reflecting vulnerability.

"Stupid! Is that what I'm to you. I haven't picked up my phone that's why you're behaving like this. How should I behave for the way you've treated me that morning."

He looks guilty.
"Tell me Zack Bently, what should I do." A tear slipped down my face.

He step forward to touch me , but I step back. He stopped, his hands falling at his side. His demeanor was screaming hurtness.

"Eliza..I...I was afraid." He whispered.

"Afraid! Why?"

He step towards me ,taking my hand in his as if he was suddenly needing strength from me.

"I was afraid of your rejection." Torment was written all over his face.
"I thought you don't feel the same way about me." He whispers.

My mouth was fully open now in shock. He remember.

"I thought you don't love me and I wasn't strong enough to heat that ,not even now."

"Yo...you remember." My voice was a mere whisper.

He looks at me confused.
"Of course I do. I maybe was drunk but not enough to make me forget about you. I clearly remember what I said."

"What did you said?" My voice weavers. I really want him to say it.

He takes a deep breath
"I love you."

It's like I finally can breath now. He remembers.

"But I never recall you saying it." He lowers his gaze then again looks at me with pain showing in his eyes.
"And it hurts me,Eliza. So much. I never care if anyone like me or not. But with you it's different. Is it really wrong of me that I want you to love me the same crazy way I love you."

"Zack ,You're crazy ."

"I know. You make me crazy."

I smile at him" Is it really wrong that I want you to always love me in this crazy way?"

This time he was the one confused.

"You're drunk that day or you would've remember me saying it."

His eyes got wide at this.
"You....Eliza ,please tell me you said that." His voice was trembling.

"Umm..hmm."
His face broke into the most breathtaking smile I've ever seen. He waste no time in placing his lips over mine. His both hands were wrap around me in a tight grip.

"Eliza..I need to hear it, please." He looks at me with pleading eyes.

"I love you" The word came out of my mouth without any hesitation cause they were completely true.

He close his eyes, inhaling deeply while holding onto me for dear life.

"One more time, please." His eyes were still closed.

"I love you, so much."

He looks at me with love clearly shining in his eyes.

"You've no idea what you've given me today, absolutely no idea."

I tightened my hold onto him.

" I love you Eliza and there is no one not even you who can separate us."

My face was hurting from so much smiling.
"I don't want to be away from you, Zack,never."

"Who will want to stay away from a body like this anyway." He smirks at me.

Ughhh...
"You're a jerk and there must be something really wrong with me, cause I still love you."

"Good for you, cause this jerk is madly in love with you too."

In that moment I truly believed his words. As long as we are together, no one can separate us.
I should've known better.
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Sorry, guys. This update is really late. I'll try to update sooner this time, no promises though, cause I'm not good at keeping them.

Well, I hope you guys will like this chapter and really thanks for the vote and comments. It really means a lot to me.

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