Give me agony
Or give me death
I'll take thy heart 
As eternal breath........
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When you love someone, truly love someone, you lay your heart open to them. You give them a part of yourself that you give to no one else and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt. You are afraid, you're scared of being hurt but you still open your heart to them. You surrender. You gave them power over you. You gave them the weapon to destroy you. In short, you gave that person a fully detailed map of your heart reveling where to cut deepest. And you believe, blindingly. You trust, you believe that the person won't strike. But when they do.....actually strick....It's crippling, like having your heart carved out. Like everything is falling around you. Like you're in an unending pain that doesn't seem to go away.
Yes....that's how I felt that night. It was shattering me to the point that numbness was the only feeling I remember. Maybe that's the reason that I couldn't noticed. I was wearing a veil of numbing agony that I couldn't see. I was so lost in my own pain that I couldn't realized how much pain he was in.

Maybe this is the reason why I only saw the cruelty of his words but not the pain behind them. I only understood the anger in his eyes but not the anguish behind them.
Maybe that's the reason why I only felt the hate he has for me but not the unconditional love behind them.......
That night I saw everything....except him. Yes except that man....I saw everything.
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Same...Same as always . Those eyes....they didn't change. Except..it's not so same anymore. I don't recognize them anymore. And it's....it's hurting..paining, frustrating to not be able to see him. To not be able to see the crazy man I fell in love with. My crazy man. He was nowhere in sight....nowhere at all.

"Money sums up everything for you..doesn't it?" His eyes were still locked upon mine refusing to move away even for a second. I was really thankful that he was sitting in the couch and far away from me. Because the hatred I was seeing in those eyes were enough to burn me alive.

"You...for you it's everything..isn't it, Miss Rowell?" What was that in his voice? Hurt...No. it must be hate..unending hate.

"For you a blank cheque is more valuable than anything. You can sell even your soul for it. You can lie for it. You can act for it. You...." His eyes turned harder but me....each and every word was cutting me into thousands pieces. "You can pretend to love for it." The venom in his words were not lost on me. It was directed upon me.

Was he trying to hurt me? Because it was working. But even then..something tugged at my heart as if I was missing something. What was it ? Something felt off about him. As if he was trying to hide something.But just as I was going to ask his words hit me...and something broke inside...

"You know.." A cold smirk spread across his lips..."you're just like her. That bitch I've for a mother. You're all the same."

I din't know how I was still standing because the world around me was breaking...it was breaking and I stood..watching it getting destroyed.

"Actually no...you're even worse than her...So much more worse." 

Every words leaving his lips were fire and I was burning....I was screaming inside..begging him to stop. But he didn't...He kept going on..and I kept dying a new death every second.

"I really wished I hadn't met you...I really do. I wish I could go to  back to the night I met you and delete it completely from my life. Delete you completely from my life. I wish...."

His words  were like thorn...it was becoming even more painful.

"Everything has a price for you....So I thought I'll pay that price. I'll buy you. Tell me Miss Elizabeth Rowell....how much is your worth exactly....?"

For a moment..everything stopped around me. Worth?...I can be bought with money?..The tears were there begging to be released. But no...I won't cry. I won't shed even a single tear.  This was what I wanted...This was what...he should feel for me. Hate..Only hate. Anna's question repeat in my mind again. Will he be ok if I leave...? Yes..Now I am sure that he'll be.

And so I prepared myself..For the ending scene...

I don't know how but I smiled at him."So..Mr. Zack Bentley..Are you that desperate for my love..even after knowing that I killed your father."

His face hardened. Those emerald turned so cold that I couldn't recognize them anymore. But I still kept going on. This man needs to leave . He needs to throw me out of his life completely. Forever. He....needs to leave.

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"Why is it like this?...."Melissa looked outside the window. It was still raining. "Why can't he love me? Why Luke?"

"He's not the same man you used to  know, Mel." Lucas's voice was laced with sadness. Regret was evident on his tone.

Melissa turned towards him. Tears falling freely from her eyes.

"He is...He is same." She said stubbornly. "Same eyes, same messy hair, same face...he is same."

" Yet...different at the same time." He finishes for her. "I've seen him from childhood. That man..he never smiled, he never laughed, he never cried..no emotions at all. But then...then that girl came and..and he began to change. Smiling..laughing, getting jealous, being frustrated..every kind of emotion, Mel..every freaking kind."

A small smile appeared on his lips. " It was as if he was alive..for the first time he was alive. He was...happy.So happy."

Melissa dropped on her knees sobbing uncontrollably. He can only sit and listen to her cry.

"Why..Why her? Why not me? What's so different about her? She's nothing."

"But for him...she's everything. She's his happiness, his salvation..the earth that he lives in...the ground that keeps him together. She's the heart that beat insides him. It has taken me this long to understand that."

"B...but he hates her.."

A sad smile appear on his lips.
"Hate...No. Not hate. That man can never hate her. In fact, I haven't seen anyone love someone like that. I thought it wan't possible to love someone as much as he loves that girl."

"I don't understand..how...how can..." She broke down into sobs again. This time Lucas stood up and went towards her. It took him a little time to find her hand.

"Just understand this one thing,Mel" His voice turned serious. "If that girl ever leaves his life completely...He...He'll die. He'll die, Mel..without a doubt. That is how much he loves that girl."

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He doesn't love me anymore. Mission accomplished. Well done Liza..Well done.

His eyes were still upon me. For a few seconds he just stared at me then he bagan to laugh...He was laughing like a maniac.

"Love! Oh no Miss Rowell.." He stopped laughing. "I don't love you anymore and..." His eyes turned cruel and so did his words. "Maybe I never did."

Shaking...everything around me was shaking..He...He never loved me!..As if to confirm me he said those words again.

"Never did."

In that moment I realized what pain truly was.

"I'm not here to buy you your love. I'm here to buy your pain..." He stood up from the couch. I was so lost in my own pain that I didn't noticed it. He was shaking..he was in pain and i didn't noticed.

"You...you left me.." He kept saying but I could only hear one thing.

He never loved me.

"You left me in that hell to burn alone."

He never loved me.

"So it's only fair that you burn in that same hell too right alongside me."

He never loved me.

His body was inches apart from mine. He was close..so close..only if I looked..I would've known. His hand was shaking while holding onto the counter top beside me. Pain was behind that well crafted mask. Only if I looked that night..only if I looked.

But I didn't. I ignored it. I avoided it.

" Tell me...how much is your worth?"

I moved away from him. It was as if something poisonous has bitten me and the venom was spreading all over. 6 Month..that's how long he knew me..That's how long we were together. And this is the outcome. Lucas was right..I'm not good..I was never good for him. He...he never loved me anyway..so it should be easy now. But doesn't matter whatever I tried to console myself with, the pain wasn't stopping. It was only increasing.

And before it took over me, he needs to leave. He needs to leave before I completely broke down. So I did what I regret even now and will regret as long as I'll live. I acted..The last scene of our fucked up story...The Ending.

With a bravery I didn't felt..I smiled at him. "You're right..Money is everthing for me. But even if you offered me everything you've...I still wouldn't stay with you."

His brows furrowed while his eyes kept looking at me. Cold, emotionless eyes.

"Because..Mr. Bentley...you..." No..I won't cry..just a little more. Just a..."Because you are a..." I gulped down and said what I never meant. "You're a burden."

It worked. He stilled. His eyes they became even harder to read. I wanted to embrace him then. But instead I turned around so that I won't need to see his face anymore.

But it was done now. The end..It's finished...for real this time.

For what seems like forever..he spoke. But I couldn't recognise his voice anymore.

"I....I'm a burden for you.." His voice was quite...emotionless..Melissa said those same words to him before. He left her. He'll leave me too. A tear escaped my eyes. I hurriedly wiped it away.

"Elizabeth Rowell..." His tone got louder "Say it again. Am I a burden for you?"

No..You're the man I love...will always love.

"Yes..Just a burden." I didn't turned back then...but if i did..I would've seen...seen him grasping for breath while clutching his chest in pain. But....I didn't..I didn't.

"And I wants to be free now. So..." I gulped down again. "So please leave me alone. I want nothing to do with you anymore. Nothing."The tears were failing now but I couldn't let him see them. He'll know. He always does. Why wasn't he leaving. I don't know how much longer I can control myself. He needs to go.

He finally spoke but his voice sounded odd. " B...Burden...I'm sorry that I was a...burden for you. I'm really sorry."

I wanted to turn back so badly then but the tears, they stopped me.

"I....I'll leave. I....I'll go." His footsteps were going back. He was going away from me..forever this time.

"Ok Miss Elizabeth Rowell..I'll free you from myself. I won't be burden to you. " Why was he speaking like that? As if it was hurting to even utter a word. "Goodbye Eliza...I....No just goodbye." With that I heard the door close and I couldn't stopped myself anymore. I broke down...It was done. He will never come back. That crazy man was gone from my life...forever."

It's finished...It's over now.

That night...I'll never forget that night. I shouldn't have let him go then. But I did. I did...and for the rest of my life I'll  never forgive myself for that.
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