just because I didn't see my mother come home at night doesn't mean i ignored her

she's like acting all bitchy.

she goes on saying that i not her fuckin daughter anymore just because i didn't see her coming in the house.

i mean like wtf. who even says that? a woman on her period? no offense.

now she's saying about how messy my room is, my art supplies lying all over the table and my bed in a mess

damn 'mom'. i don't think im her daughter too. im more messed up than any other girl is in the whole generation

then, earlier, there was my 'dad'. Well, he said the usual stuff, useless kids and all. Oh please, i have 10 times better grades than you bitches do.

im so pissed off right now

but as i am typing this, of course, my face is expressionless, duh. I don't show expressions at home anymore. whats the point?

Whenever i never look my parents in the fuckin eyes. yeah, im disrespectful, so what?

I hate them.

They give me lectures every day, about the freakin the same thing.

(now she's asking me damn nicely which songs i listen to. crazy bipolar woman.)

especially my mom. she lectures me every day about she raising me up and being mean to her when she is obviously breaking me in front of herself by saying those words.

You're useless.

It breaks me everytime.

Everytime i repair myself, i always get broken again, i don't know how, but by those very same words.

it hurts to be called by your parents, those few words.

Im a human too, i have feelings too.

I cry too, and i cry everyday, before i go to sleep.

Why? u guys know the reason if you've read the past updates.

they call me names when they think im asleep, with the door closed.

i hate it. i hate it so much that i had to cry to fucking sleep every night.

look at me. im pathetic.

i want to be alone at school, but i just cant. im like a lost puppy, clinging onto hope that was useless.

Hope...that word itself is a lie.

everytime i look in my parents' eyes, my face twitches on its own and it takes so much self control to stop the tears, to stop me from spilling my feelings.

Don't ever trust me. i cant trust anyone too. everyone leaves me.

yeah, anyways, alotta you guys are right.

all of my stories are based on my life, my emotions.

the recent one, R.E.L.I.F.E, that story is gonna be the one that's closest to my own life story.

go read it and try to find out my life story. ill only be answering yes and no, nothing else.

listening to if i die young nightcore while i write this.

i really wanna be buried like this if i die young.

actually, i wanna die now.

but i cant...

the song ends.

goodbye, gonna cry myself to sleep.

i don't know if anyone cares anymore.