I love you so so so so much and this is so hard for me. So hard. I love you with all my heart.

I've been struggling for awhile actually. I asked you to take me to see if I was depressed. You said you would, but you didn't.

I think you just didn't want me to turn out like Daniel. He stopped taking his meds and killed himself just like I'm About to do. I miss him too mom, he was my brother and your son.

Yes I'm going to miss you so much but I just can't bear this world much longer.

All the let downs and giving my hopes up have just been enough. I've had enough.

I could never find the right words to tell you about how when I did get sad it felt like the whole world was collapsing on me.

I'm so sorry. I should've been a better daughter. I should've been nicer to Ashlyn, she says she hates me all the time even though we're sisters.

I don't blame her at all. Or you. Or anyone.

This Is my choice.

I struggled with school badly trying to deal with Daniels death and you and Dad fighting, Ashlyn staying closed off.

Im going to miss you mom, I'm going to miss you so much. You've done everything for me like make my meals, clean my bed for me, pack my lunch, do my laundry, drive me everywhere and ask me if I'm ok

You shouldn't take it personally. I haven't opened up to anybody about this. I feel so selfish if I'm being honest. But I really do love you more than you could ever imagine.

I hate that I'm about to do this. But I'll be sure to send a butterfly down your path ❤

Love, Alice