2. Amnesia

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amnesia (n.)

a partial or total loss of memory

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She lost herself in a world full of lost souls. Her map had directions pointing everywhere, but her feet didn't know where to go.

Where could she go when she was lost? She could go anywhere, but anywhere was never a thought. Because she only thought of the things she could've not. And of the limits of being lost and her identity being the cost.

And she didn't know that when she was in need of a map, her heart could become her guide and it didn't matter where she went if she was lost but still alive. But she didn't think of that. She only focused on the thought that she was lost. And that she might never be found. And so she sat and waited for someone to come by. She waited for ages and time didn't just walk and fly. It also swam and ran and poured its tearful eternities onto her plans. But no one ever told her that she didn't have to wait for someone to come. She could find herself before she was gone.

In a world full of lost souls how do you find yourself?

She didn't have to wait for someone. She didn't have to search in someone for what she wanted to find in herself. No one ever found themselves by looking for someone else.

But no one told her so.

She died before it was possible for her to look any further.

In a world full of lost souls how do you find yourself?

You have to get a little lost first to even know who you were.

Just don't stay lost forever.

And that's exactly what she did. She forgot who she was and she never learned. She had forgotten that she had been trying to lose herself for good. She had been trying to lose herself so she could become someone new.

She forgot who she was.

Rest in peace to the old girl lost on purpose. Because sometimes getting a little lost is worth it. But not when you don't find yourself again. Not when you're looking for someone else.

Rest in peace to the girl she was trying to find.