"I don't want you be a memory if we can't share its remembrance."

As, after the shoots, he finally made it to the hospital, he found Bum Hee seated beside her.

He felt a sense of relief run down his body seeing Su Ah talking to her just normally.

Yoongi, not wanting to disturb them, turned to leave when her sister noticed him at the door and stopped his steps.

BUM HEE : Yoongi-ssi!

He forced his head around with reluctance, fearing Su Ah's eyes on him. Not ready to face them yet, he sighed internally seeing her look in a direction nearly poles apart from him.

BUM HEE : Come on, in. It's okay. We weren't talking anything important anyways.

He walked in, obliging to her sister who stood up to leave for them to talk. But, Su Ah held her hand.

SU AH : Eonnie~ (-sad eyes-)

BUM HEE : (-dabbing her hand gently-) It's okay Su Ah-ya. I am right outside, if you need me.

SU AH : Please...

BUM HEE : (-soft caring voice-) Su Ah-ya, you've got to face it. And whatever is your decision, I am always with you.

She then, gently kept Su Ah's hand back on the bed and left the room, passing a formal smile to Yoongi.

The ambience was very calm and peaceful. Yoongi fixed his gaze down at his hands, seated on a stool beside her bed. While, Su Ah looked outside the window, projecting a coat of nonchalance.

For the first time, the silence irked Yoongi. They both had silent tears trailing down their face, none initiating a conversation.

However, Yoongi breaking out of his comfort zone, started with the very basic.

YG : How do you feel?

Su Ah didn't repond but a few more tears escaped her eyes, hearing his voice after so long.

YG : (-sniffs-) I am sorry, Su Ah. I was wrong. I was terribly wrong.

She couldn't stop her tears at each word he spoke, for her ears had worn out yearning. A desperate long, to hear him call her name. Each second felt like an eternity of waits with his absence.

YG : I was wrong to think you...

SU AH : (-still not looking at him-) It's okay. I was at fault too.

YG : (-shakes head sniffing-) I never gave you a chance to explain.

She remained quiet. Yoongi, managing his tears from coming out further, gently took her hand and cupped it in his.

However, she showed no response or affection to his touch, nor did she hold his hand back.

YG : Can't we start over again?

SU AH : (-withdraws her hand hesitantly-) I am sorry.

Not that he was more broken than he already was to see her in that condition and still didn't know what exactly happened to her. But he felt crushed at the rejection that  he already saw coming his way yet he blatantly hoped he had a chance.

SU AH : (-sniffs-) I had seen your last concert of 2019 and I am happy that you all have finally resolved everything. You must be busy with your new album. So, I think you should leave now.

YG : Su Ah-ya, Please, don't be like this. I know I have been nothing but a jerk to you. (-soft voice-) I am here to make it up for you now and it's okay if you never wanna see me again. I accept your rejection with due respect. But, atleast let me stay with you till you fully recover. Onh? (-in one breath-) And by that, you should know how serious I am 'cause this is the first time I talked this long.

His flustered words made Su Ah look at him for the first time at long last.
She blankly stared at him with eyes having fear, guilt and a visible sorrow in them. They couldn't slide by Yoongi to notice them before she looked away again.

If it was scientifically possible, his heart literally melted at the short eye-contact he made with her. And now, Yoongi was in despair even more, for he blamed himself for everything she has suffered to be in that position then.

Though Su Ah never debated against his wish to take care of her till she gets discharged, but it sure increased her will to get better as soon as possible. She didn't like to trouble Yoongi and wanted him to leave her like he previously did– the sooner the better, she believed.

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After a week

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Yoongi kept visiting her everyday even though she never uttered a word when he was around. He felt time slipping from his hands faster than it ever did, as her doctor allowed her to go home by tomorrow. Therefore, meaning that the present day was the last time he would see her.

He was known for his excellent controls over his emotions from surfacing. Nevertheless, his legs, in that instant, hesitated to step in her room—for it bawled his eyes even at the thought that he might never see her again.

Either ways, time was running and in its normal pace. Yet to him it felt, it was fast forwarded.

He, with a jitter, sat down by the siting area outside her room. His elbows resting on his thighs supporting the arms to reach his warm head. He tried to calm himself down.

Her sister, who was coming from the doctors, opened the door slightly to see Su Ah seated alone, looking outside the window.

Bum Hee was expecting Yoongi to be with Su Ah around that time. But the opposite made her to look outside the room towards the seats, only to find him there instead.

She closed the door quietly and sat next to Yoongi. She let out a sigh before speaking.

BUM HEE : I promised her, I won't say this to you.  But you two give off way too dull and pathetic vibes that I can't just ignore.

He put his hands down from his face, and leaned to the seat looking down.

YG : I don't know how to get used to her absense from tomorrow.

BUM HEE : Why do you think she is pushing you away?

YG : That's so much evident. I wronged and failed to trust her. Why would anyone want to be with such a paranoid guy?

BUM HEE : Well, it's fine until you are aware and work on your faith. But that's not the reason she wants you gone from her life.

YG : (-looking at her-) Then, what is?

BUM HEE : (-after a silence-) It's because of our Stepdad.

Yoongi let her take her time to ease up, and tell him the whole thing.

BUM HEE : He sexually abused her. And not once, but for a whole long month. He would first beat her up till she has no strength to fight back and then jump on her like a beast.

He had zero reactions in his face, although his heart was brutally stabbed on at each word his ears perceived.

BUM HEE : And when she lost her consciousness from all the beating, which were left untreated, he just left her in the house. (-in tears-) He just disappeared leaving her to die there alone.

Yoongi could hardly live in the moment. He could be seen making serious efforts to hold his composure until she completed.

BUM HEE : Apparently, he forgot to cancel his house meeting with his clients which was due that day when she was found in the house. Those good souls immediately brought her to the hospital. Later, as the investigation was in process, a match was found and the hospital contacted us.

All the fright, angst and gloom that he noticed in Su Ah's eyes made sense to him. Only if he had picked her calls then and they had it sorted out, he would have stopped this mishap from occuring.

BUM HEE : Nonetheless worst part is, he impregnated her during that month but the foetus couldn't survive as she was unconscious for too long. They had it surgically removed even before we arrived. It was life threatening to her and they had to operate right away.

His heart couldn't wrench any further for it was shrunk to its best. His brain stopped functioning; he didn't know what should be his reaction at that moment. He was petrified.

BUM HEE : She now sees herself nothing less than a filth and doesn't want you to compromise for anything since you deserve the best. (-sighs-)

Though stumbling, he got up and marched straight to her room with slow steps. She was looking outside the window as she usually did.

YG : (-hardly sounding-) Su Ah...

She turned her head to him as she could discern the slightest sounds made by him. But, he instantly looked away, avoiding a stimulant to his tears. He couldn't prevent the flow anyway, and quietly let them cascade. 

Su Ah, on the other side, got off her bed and dragging her IV stand with her, she walked to him.

She saw how bad he was crying under his lowered head and simply hugged him with her ear pressed against his heart and arms wrapped around his slim body.

He took no seconds to hug her back and cry out harder as he tightened the hug around her fragile figure. It was after long that he felt her against his body, yet he never imagined the moment he thought would be the happiest, was actually the most painful.

YG : (-fuzzily-) I am sor-sorry. You have suffered so much and I had no idea.

Sensing what he referred to, Su Ah immediately teared up and made her grips tighter. But no seconds after, she pulled away.

YG : (-taken aback-) Su Ah-ya.

SU AH : (-looking at him with hurtful eyes-) Now that you know the reason, go away! (-goes back to her bed and speaks softly-) I am tainted now. JUST GO AWAY!

While she broke into a silent cry, Yoongi rushed and landed on his knees before her. He gently wiped her cheeks, speaking softly.

YG : No, you are not. You will never be.

He proceeded further, taking her hands and clutching them in his.

YG : You're still my Su Ah—the girl I love the most in this world. I don't see you any different. Infact, my admiration and respect for you has increased even more, learning how you've made it out from an obnoxious situation like that.

Yoongi gently kissed both of her palms. They were warm and soft.

YG : Thank you for hanging in there even though it was hard. And I know this not going to heal your scars in any way,  but I am sincerely sorry that I was unable to protect you. I am sorry.

SU AH : (-feebly tries to free her hand-) Go away...

YG : (-firms his hold-) I will not. I will never leave your side.

He wiped her tears once again, tucking a few strands of hair behind her ears.

YG : I let go of you once, but not anymore. And because of this reason, I would never.

He then got up and pulled her into a hug, leaving a few kisses on her head. The simple embrace shattered Su Ah's walls that she built to push him away.
At long last, Su Ah gave in and cried out her tears which were held in during that one month of ruthless abuse.

It scared him and rendered his senses numb, listening to her plangent cries while he just helplessly hugged her with no solace to ease her pain. He pecked her head again with closed eyes trying to hold his tears in.

Wanting to comfort, he caressed her head as gently as he could. Even at the imagination of her pain under his closed eyes, his soul quivered and he made his grip tighter and firm.

YG : I love you.

"I love you and that's the beginning and end of everything."